It is extremely confusing being 27 years old and feeling like I do not fit in this body. I am a born female, but I have never felt very feminine no matter how much I have tried. Sometimes I wonder if transitioning will help since I tend to have more masculine personality traits?
I follow a lot of trans posts and envy the acceptance I see others finding in themselves. I just... don’t know what to do. :(
The last few times I have seen my mother, she has been accusing me of taking hormones to transition into being male. This is actually very hurtful, considering a small part of me wonders if that is why I feel so uncomfortable in this body?
I am a lesbian and have never been able to emotionally develop feelings for men. I’ve “been” with 3 guys only just in total a little over a handful of times being “with” guys but it never felt right. It actually felt the way I would imagine a straight male would feel like a guy? Just awkward and “too gay” for me.
I don’t know if I am just simple not comfortable with myself or really battling with my gender identity. Growing up I always wanted to be a boy.. but for many reasons I hated my body due to being invaded against my will so young in different occasions. I’m just trying to understand. I’ve always been more protective and more dominant with girls. I’ve always enjoyed being treat more like the way a guy would. Even my body is sort of masculine. I just feel like I was born as something I can never fully be. I don’t even know if being a man would fix me. I just wish I could talk to a few people about their experiences before transitioning FTM
Just looking for advice from others who have transitioned and if these feelings were what they had felt? I am so confused in my life at this point :( not sure... just... not sure ;(
