low level listening

Savannah/Dallas, TX high priestess

[archivedeathdrive]

Steve Albini

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I just finished a job interview that I think went pretty well but it’s scary not knowing how many other candidates are in the running and if they’re gonna answer the questions better than me, but now that I know how good the pay and benefits are I feel like preemptively crying out of fear that I won’t get the job

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lost my job for real today and couldn’t even bring myself to say it to my parents

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I wish people took me seriously and didn't act like I'm overreacting when I think I'm gonna be treated bad by people who have shown me time and time again that they're totally willing to treat me bad and think nothing of it

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even though I don't live alone now I still can't shake how completely lonely I feel in the big picture. kinda want to make a new blog where nobody knows me, kinda want to move out of state alone. mostly I wish somebody would invite me too

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two important people in my life have told me I’m stupid, and even though it’s been a while, it’s had such an unshakeable impact on me and I don’t think they even realize it. I doubt everything I know and feel like no one has a reason to think I’m skillful. I feel distant from my family and all but like 3 of my friends and I think about moving out of the country every day

[silphwave]

[mothcub]

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hello from me and virtual me

I’m building a long 2009-2019 nostalgia playlist and feeling 😪burned out

I had a good year and I guess a good whole decade. pretty crazy that I’m doing pretty much everything I wanted to do. I worked really hard, but I still don’t always think I deserve it. I’m at a place where I finally feel pretty, maybe 2020 I will finally learn how to take a selfie. I want to listen to more music and try to do more art  

[camilledecussac]

des poules et des hommes

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Savannah, 9/19

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me seeing sunn o))) 🖤 love you will mecca

[insects-in-every-hole]

Sunn O))) at The Granada, 9/19

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I don’t even remember how I found out about sunn in high school or what was going on when I got really into this stuff, but pretty crazy that I got to be a part of bringing them to dallas for the first time and get to hang out at their load in right now

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maybe I will revive my blog with creative things I’ve been doing instead of only posting when I’m really sad