Im upset that im gonna be stranded at my parents house for 3 days then on thanksgiving sirtaj isnt coming so mu dad and mom will be bummed bc they rly wanted him there. I dont want to force him to some bc he has his own family but it sucks. Being alone for the better part of 3 days then not having sirtaj over for thanksgiving sucks, he wont be able to have filipino food and celebrate my inang which wouldve been great if he came. I hate feeling like this. I feel worthless. Like i create too many problems and i dont want to. I just want everythj g to be okay but im making it not okag. Sirtaj is stressing bc of me. Im too much and i hate myself for that. Im a failure and i quit my job. Im broke and useless. I hate feeling like this i just want to put an end to this and just feel good but instead im fucking everything up.