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[spookypaleandfat]

hello!

block don’t report please

mdni and if i’ve accidentally followed you, please block me!

i’ve been on this site for a number of years now but i decided i’m gonna change my stats in bio to an intro post bc it’s easier to set out and change

i’m 25, been dealing with this shit since i was about 19? i lost 20kg in a year and a bit, then went and gained 25kg in the next few years after that - losing and gaining the same few kilos here and there.

stats:

HW: 85kg

SW: 82.3

CW: 75.9

Height: 168cm

goals/rewards:

GW1: 80 - no reward, i should have never gotten back over 80 in the first place

GW2: 75 -

GW3: 70 - acupuncture

GW4: 65 -

GW5: 60 - go get all the clothes i hid away bc theyll finally fit again!

GW6: 55 - facial and massage

GW7: 50 - shopping spree!

UGW: 48 - literally anything i want

[spookypaleandfat]

URGENT

how to lose 50 kilos in one day?!?!?!?!!

my search engine said i had an ED?? idk who the fuck ed is but he does NOT live in my house

then it told me to cut off some limbs but that may have just been a clip from one of the saw movies

[spookypaleandfat]

so every time i say im gonna lock in, i do exactly the opposite lmao

anyway im the heaviest ive ever been so thats super fun :))) i weighed myself tonight (not when you should ever weigh yourself) but im gonna take that higher number and run with it and NO you cannot know what it is bc im sad about it >:(

anyway anyway i also have a boyfriend now (idk if i talked about my other one in my last post, but we arent together anymore so this guy is new) and hes lost a lot of weight and gained muscle before i knew him, and he looks so good and strong, and he loves his gym, and so he knows what its like to be fat (idk how big he was, but i know he was a big guy), so he doesnt judge me or anything, but i dont want to be his fat girlfriend. hes done so well in getting into shape and now some fat bitch is gonna be on his arm??? yuck. he deserves better than that. he should be with someone skinny

anyway anyway anyway: new year, new me; skinny era incoming; and because the universe is sick and twisted and never lets me lock in when i say im going to, im NOT gonna lock in this time (wink wink, nudge nudge, please let this work im fat and sad, let me be skinny and sad at LEAST)

okay happy almost jan 3rd!

[spookypaleandfat]

lmao hi long time no starve

so i stopped coming on here and mpa and started eating more and more and the craziest thing happened! i gained weight :o everyone is shocked i know

honestly the most shocking this is that i was in a relationship for a little bit but it ended (its whatever idrc), but we would eat out a lot and he would order HEAPS to share so i feel like that certainly did not help

weighed myself the other day after seeing how large my stomach is, and what i look like from the side, and decided i need to lock back in again. i dont really know how well ill do but at the very least i need to lose enough weight to fit into a halloween costume that i know will not fit me right now

okay bye maybe see you tomorrow, maybe see you in five months!

[donyalelunaaslore]

[light-daintyyy]

[liteness]

i just want to cut everyone off, disappear, and come back a size xxs

[spookypaleandfat]

okay march was ass and so was the first week of april but i have just over a month until i need to fit into a dress for an event (i cannot get another dress or a bigger size as it’s for a wedding (has to be matching) and i can’t afford buying a new dress) so i need to lock the fuck in like never before

i weighed myself today and i gained 1.3kg so not as bad as i thought it would be considering i haven’t weighed myself since the 1st of march

gonna try to do omad for as long as possible, or i might fake being sick so i can skip dinner tonight

[spycarb]

u are not an anorexic. ure a wannarexic pig who eats everything given to them. fuck you for making fun of a real illness with real sufferers. fucking die. u probably will from diabetes or something from how much u binge

[spookypaleandfat]

haha march has been so good :)))) definitely not been overeating at all :))) haven’t gained any weight that’s for sure haha!

(idk why im struggling so much i’m gonna kms i s2g)

[motyleklaur3n]

how i wanna dress:

the problem:

[l0wcaltrashkitty]

you fatties better lock in this march

and by fatties heheh let’s just say me

[spookypaleandfat]

well it’s obvious now why i’ve been retaining weight and craving everything

my period was so intense i had a dream about getting it

[0bonesandtea0]

Separated by lbs/ft and kg/cm, united by bmi 💪

[spookypaleandfat]

stats

gonna try to update this monthly with my weight and measurements throughout the year so its not in my notes app

most recent month up first

measurements all in cm

idk how accurate they are bc its me measuring myself and im sure im messing up every now and then, but its nice to see a rough estimate of my progress

MARCH

Weight: 77.6kg/171.1lbs

BMI: 27.5

Hips: 98

Waist: 87

Bust: 108.5

L thigh: 60.7

R thigh: 60.4

L calf: 36.7

R calf: 37

L arm: 29.5

R arm: 29.5

L wrist: 15.7

R wrist: 15.4

FEBRUARY

Weight: 81.1kg/178.8lbs

BMI: 28.7

Hips: 102

Waist: 93

Bust: 111

L thigh: 59.5

R thigh: 60.5

L calf: 37.5

R calf: 37.5

L arm: 29

R arm: 30.5

L wrist: 16

R wrist: 16

[spookypaleandfat]

i know i need to exercise bc it’ll help my muscles to not fkn deteriorate and that’ll help my metabolism, it’s good in general, and it’ll help burn cals but i would literally rather die than go for a walk like i just can’t do it idk. and gym is wayyyyy too expensive, and i don’t want to play sports (and they’re also too exxy) and at home workouts are embarrassing if someone is home

and like i know, excuses excuses, but fuck me i hate exercise. shits fucked

[angelkissxoxo]