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Day 7(?) of crying. University is hard. Work is hard. Put them together and they’re extra hard. I’m stressing myself out. I overwhelmed myself. Crying is the only thing I can do to let it out. It’s very tiring. I’m starting to cry out of the blue, during work, at home in daylight. I usually wait until the night but I can’t control how much I cry. This concerns me.

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Here we go again...

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I wish I had a creative outlet to release all these feelings and just focus my energy on something else.

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You’re surprised we invited you? You shouldn’t ‘cause we don’t hate you? Hell, I’m surprised you invite us anymore. And that’s just barely anytime.

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I miss(ed) everyone until I saw photos of everyone together

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Do u ever feel like throwing ur phone against the wall and letting out a piercing shriek? Cuz I sure do.

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Why is there an instant despise whenever I see any of you

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Fuckers

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A number just called with the same area code as her... all of a sudden my heart started beating fast. I wondered if something was wrong. Turns out it wasn’t the same number. I noticed how quick I was to think about calling back.

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Don’t say you’re free the remaining of the day, then quickly take it back and say you’re free the next day, only to take it back the next day and say you’re free that next day, only to forget that your “best friend” of 9 years works that day, so we ultimately can’t do anything so instead what do you fucking do? HANG OUT WITH THE SAME FUCKING PEOPLE THOSE THREE DAYS.

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Fine

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Numb

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I’ve been silent for so long

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Depression naps are the way to go

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I’m such a crybaby

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I’m going to stop focusing on them. The others are actual friends. Friday was uncomfortable af. Looking forward to tonight 😌

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...it’s not the same anymore...