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Nature is always been my fortress of solitude. There is something within me that craves solace and deep connection with the wilderness. But now that the Lungs of the Earth is burning into ashes for weeks, my heart is literally breaking. Amazonia is now on a critical level and not everyone has access to it due to very little media coverage. Ecological genocide is happening and it’s very alarming considering that Amazon, as the largest rainforest in the planet, produces 20% of the earth’s oxygen and is the hearth of million species of animals and territory to indigenous people.

The fires and deforestation of the Amazon will have a lasting effect on global climate and if anything goes down, it will surely affect all parts of our ecosystem. This is a cry for help. Let’s be passionate about the earth and spread awareness. Any kind of help goes a long way! Say, we can start by using the platform to raise awareness and reach help. We can also reduce the usage of paper and woods to lessen the need for cutting trees. If you want to volunteer, there are several charities who raise fundings for the wildfire. Be educated and support these causes. Pray for our planet.

#amazonrainforest #PrayForAmazonia #film #photography

‪A year ago, I was crazy in love with the idea of someone so much that I am willing to do dumb things for him. Without even realizing it, I allowed him to manipulate me into thinking I’m not good enough and never will be. I was so anxious that I completely ignored the red flags. Later on, I realized that love is not supposed to be stressful and demeaning. You don’t have to force anything that’s real. If it’s something that you have to force, then perhaps it’s not yours to begin with‬.

‪Everything that has happened in the past year puts everything into perspective. Maybe I met him to recognize the kind of person I want to be with in the future and to learn how to love on my own terms without compromising my happiness. ‬Either way, I am both equally relieved and grateful for the experience. Ours is never an official relationship rather a short but significant encounter.

Moving forward, I will never let anyone makes me feel less of a woman ever again. I’m not meant to dumb myself down for a man, I need someone who is brave enough to go into the depths with me and someone who is willing to support my dreams as much as I support his. I don’t want an half-assed love; I want a peaceful and comfortable kind of relationship that screams assurance and confidence that whatever happens, our love will be an anchor that withstands every storm along the way.

It still blows my mind how a careless statement can damage a person. That’s why you don’t go around poking on other people’s insecurities and rubbing it off their faces. Remember, when you try to point out their flaws they can’t change overnight, it has nothing to do with them rather a reflection of your heart.

#thoughts

I am obsessed with becoming a woman comfortable with her own skin.

#ellgoesplaces

Lately, I’ve been fed up with adult responsibilities and I can’t help but be exhausted. My head is all over the place to the point that sleep can’t make it any better. So I spontaneously packed my bag and decided to go somewhere alone…. originally without any plans ahead, no itineraries, no company at all.

My goal is to enjoy the company of myself, collect my act together and appreciate the solitude I rarely encounter. After all those skeptic moments, I finally decided that it’s a high time to choose myself more than anything else and just be grateful— for everything that has happened, is happening and will happen in my life. I’m not a conventional type of person so when I go to a certain place, I make sure that I maximize all my time to be at the moment & do the things that scares me the most— read the book while sipping a cup of coffee, talk to a stranger (I met Irene btw, a Christian who currently resides in Zambales, and shared the gospel with me), connect with the locals, write a journal, try their local cuisine, visit a church, and observe my surroundings. And honestly, I’ve never been so alive before! For someone like me who has been sheltered her whole life, everything is so overwhelming yet very satisfying 💕

Here are my takeaways that I want to share with you (which is very timely and applicable with the situations I’ve been to lately):

1. When it’s too overwhelming to handle, try to step back and listen to your own heartbeat. Pain is trying to teach you something out of it. 2. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Appreciate your progress. 3. It’s okay to stay away from people sometimes. You need your own time. 4. Whatever life throws at you, be kind. And be a blessing to others. 5. Don’t compromise your peace for other people. Make yourself a priority. 6. Remove all the attachments from people and let them do what they have to do. Love them and let them enjoy their freedom. Guaranteed less painful. Love >>>>>> attachments. 7. It’s okay to feel everything all at once. Your emotions are valid, it doesn’t make you a lesser human being. 8. Know when to tolerate people. If it doesn’t put you in a healthy spot, learn to let them go. 9. Enjoy your single life while it lasts. Focus on building your character until you become the right one for the right person. 10. Keep your spirit high. 11. Worship God everywhere you go. Even without a music. 12. Stay hydrated. Hahaha! 13. Hate less, appreciate more. 14. Rest if you have to. It’s part of the process. 15. Love people without restrictions. Cross the ocean for them. Hug them tight. Show that you care. Life is too short and you have to express your feelings without holding back.

For the first time in my life, I was able to try new things (alone) & away from my comfort zone 💁🏻‍♀️💕 My heart is so full. Praise God! 💖

#elltravels

It’s been a while. Hola! ☀️

I was 6 when someone laid their hands on me and abused me physically. I cracked some of my bones. I never let anyone touch me again. I was 7 when I wanted to play with the kids in the neighbor but they don’t want to. They said I was too dark and too ugly. I was bullied. I never go out to play with them anymore. I was 10 when a family member told me they don’t want to see me in any family gatherings anymore and dissed me publicly. Told me I deserve it because I was too clumsy. I was shamed. I was 13 when I was harassed by an old man in a public vehicle. Told me I’m a slut. I was so scared. I never go out alone again without the fear of being harassed. I was 14 when I started getting anxiety. I got depressive episodes. And I tried to seek for a professional help. That was so terrifying. It’s difficult to open up. I’m not used to being heard. I was 15 when someone told me no one will stay in my life because I push them away. They didn’t know what I’ve been through. At 17, someone told me they loved me. But they turned out to be evil. They spit out hurtful and obscenity words. Told me I will never be good enough. And I was never pretty in the first place. He said, I don’t deserve any love in the future. I still believe him until now. At 18, I was betrayed by a friend. Told me horrible things. Stabbed me in the back. Made me a laughingstock. I stopped trusting people. Especially their intentions. By then, someone told me I am too fat and unloveable. I believe them. I never wore tight dresses again. At 19, I tried to cut myself. I was depressed. I stopped doing things that I love. I always lock myself in my room. Thankfully, I was able to stop it. I cried the whole time. At 20, I stopped dreaming. I stopped caring. I stopped crying. But I felt empty. That is the time I needed to love myself even more. Up to this point, I am still struggling. But I bounce back. Over and over. I have to pick myself up every fall. And I have to remind myself of the unfailing love of the Lord. Everyone is fighting battles you know nothing about. It’s easy to judge a person without proper knowledge of what they have been through but once you rip their heart out, you will realize that the world has been harsh to them already, be kind. Be compassionate. Help each other. Stop the stigma #MentalHealthAwarenessMonth 💛

#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawarenessmonth #stopthestigma

I thought I’ll never open my blog again. Hola 🙌🏽🌊

#ellgoesplaces

Now a degree holder. Good job, self! ✨💕

#photos #life #welcomeadulthood

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Congratulation to Ellaine Almira aka @sprwmngmlnd

To my super beautiful and sweet gief in the world!!! You the best mamsh! I’m so proud of you. Simula pa lang nung na discover ko yung blog mo sobrang idol na kita, I love your writings, aspiration and you. Hindi ko na maalala kung pano tayo naging close pero ang may isang hindi ko makakalimutan na moment na nagyari satin, ito yung kay cheng haha uknow what i mean ;). Sobrang tagal na natin mag kakilala pero hindi pa din us nagkikita pero I know were already had a plan thus May and I’m so exciteddddddddd, lagi na lang kasi najjix yung mga plano natin dati eh, sana this time tuloy na tuloy na lalo na ngayon graduate kana yiee inggit me haha. Gief, gusto ko na malaman mo na I’m so blessed to have a friend like you, we love oppa, we love coho, we love books, we love each other awow. Thank you gief for accepting me! I love you forever! God bless to your career and next chapter of life. May God filled you with happiness and blessing in life. Congrats again gief! See you soon xoxo

P.S. May gift ako sayo so you better see me as soon as you read this charot. Love you!

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Ay marunong pumili 'to ng pictures na dapat ipost!!! Perfect!! Hahahahaha. Thank you sa lahat gief. Nasurprise ako dito 😭 Don't worry matutuloy na yung hang-out natin. May aasikasuhin lang akong konti u know post-grad reqs hahaha. Pero promise tuloy na yan by next next week makakapagkita na tayo!! Love you gief thank you sa support ❤️❤️

#friends #life

21st Philippine International Hot Air Balloon Festival ✨💯

Let me tell you my #PIHABF experience. I’m with Mariel the whole time. And we didn’t sleep at all, like totally NO. We had classes the day before and I attended some event in my major class while Mariel attended a job offer from a bpo company. We stayed in our friend’s dorm while preppin’ up for the festival. We left the dorm by 2:30 am and finally rode a bus to Pampanga by 3:45 am. We got there in Clark by 5:30 am. It’s still dark and too cold. What a best time to be there. We saw the beautiful sunrise and finally… We witnessed the hot air balloons taking off the land into the sky, we saw different kites flying up above, paragliders and skydivers circling the air. I’m in awe! I can’t say that I can finally tick off the hot air balloon fest in my bucket list because I didn’t actually ride one, but hopefully soon!!! I heard people complaining about the organizers of the event but please be understanding, it’s a huge event and the venue is too big. You can clearly see cracks and flaws but look at the brighter side! You can still enjoy the moment by yourself or just be thankful because you are alive and you experience being on this kind of festival, yeah?

Over-all, I am glad I was there last Friday. I was able to experience it first-hand and nothing can beat those moments. This is my first ever hot air balloon fest and I’m happy because it’s #NoMoreDrawing2017 already. Hehe. To more festivals & adventures to come!!! To more spontaneous fun and excitement with my favorite people!!! And to no more drawings this year and the following years to come!!

Next: The Lantern Festival in Chiang Mai, Thailand and in Taiwan (hopefully next year)!!! 🌟

#elltravels