Genovia

Femme-by she/they PNW nomad🌲 🤠 unburden yourself in my asks 18+ only

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1 year self harm cleann

After 8 years free

Celebrating me

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Plugging through and rawdogging life is not what cracked up to be

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I think I did the closure thing??

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Work stress has me feeling sick then I actually get sick with a fever like just fucking end meeeeee

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Just

Fucking

Keep

Going

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It’s midnight and something is scuttling around the room large enough to see out of the corner of my eye and small enough Zuko is unable to catch it.

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I lay on my back

Silent tears roll down my face

Move on, just, move on

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WHY IS MY NERVOUS SYSTEM SO NERVOUS

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I think it’s telling that in my dream she was victim blaming me.

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I had the most detailed dream where I was staked and attacked multiple times. I was back with Miranda and she was trying to be supportive but was upset with me. The stalker ended up living in the apartment just across from me. Horrible.

[kosmogrl]

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Shit I’m in a bad mood for some reason today lol. At work paying medical bills and listening to Zeze with Kodak and Offset and I sip my coffee and feel like it’s 2019 again.

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Sometimes all I think about is you

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Serious question, is it the Leo, the Virgo or the Pisces in me that wants to lay in the sun by Lake Washington and smoke a paper plane while listening to Beach House?

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I think the curse has actually literally finally been lifted. There’s nothing for either of us left anymore. I know I’ve changed a lot but she doesn’t. And I don’t know if she has changed either. And I don’t think she’d trust that I did actually change, it would just be an insurmountable hurdle. Times were good but also bad. We would still be, if it was meant to be, and I’m finally okay with that.

I love myself.

[femmelated]