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[spyrexo]

📌 // Heya, I’m Spyre!

I’m just a big fluffy eurasian eagle owl fumbling around the internet. Nice to meet you! 20↑ | They | Queer

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[taski-guru]

The Starry sky

✨ Each star is a mirror reflecting the truth inside you © ✨

[loveridden1999]

[kleowolfy]

BORB

[dovne]

really digging this burd character

[c-rberus]

tear in the spacesuit.

during a rough trauma night around a year ago, i found someone talking about how some people with early C-PTSD learn to experience life through a "spacesuit", where they interface with the world with a highly adapted internal system that works around their traumas and gives a sense of control; there's a risk of this spacesuit eventually being ruptured, which leads to the system collapsing and a loss of that manufactured control, leading to breakdown. i can't find this comment again, but i heavily resonated with this metaphor.

for my entire life, i've felt like i was an animal in a cage making the most of it. i internalized that i was created wrong or was handling myself wrong, that i needed to be controlled, and so many beliefs and ways of attempting to make myself comfortable in my spacesuit sprung from that understanding. i was isolated, and subconsciously padded my mind with magical thinking and dissociation to try to make myself happy despite it; eventually, a realization about my life situation 2 years ago punctured my suit, and i was utterly unprepared for the way it unmoored me. finding this interpretation of that breakdown process forced me to further reckon with how i'd existed until that point in my life - how i'd been stuck in a rhetorical cage that convinced me in a million ways that i didn't deserve to be myself, and was forced to try to be happy inside it by different experiences in my life. it was so painful to realize that i had something of a stockholm syndrome with my own mind; i'd known deep down that some of the comforting beliefs i held were simultaneously suppressing me. but i wasn't convinced that it was possible to have what i wanted in life without that suppression, and when i finally gained that understanding, it shattered my facade. i've been surviving of course - but i wanted to put visuals to that desperation, the realization that the loneliness and ignorance didn't make me safe or special after all; the way it felt like i was losing my lifeline in the void.

[jollycryptid]

Throw back to the May vacation, my fiancé @lofilesbo always said I snored out as hell but I firmly denied it. Until they took a video proving that I snore "like a truck" and proved me wrong.. I miss my butch 💜🐻

[themapisonfire]

Got hit with a lot at once, have a simple bat doodle as I try to ease myself back into things

[immoralauraa]

gulp...i have commissions open...

https://immoralswishstand.carrd.co/

[bardically-uninspired]

saw a tweet and thought of them

[sluttynurse]

everyone's afraid of looking busted everyone's afraid of making mistakes everyone's afraid of looking stupid everyone's afraid of embarrassment everyone's afraid of imperfections because of the damn PANOPTICON that is current society and it's fucking STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[ronnoffski]

You ain't shi..

[dogpuppy]

[machi1895]

持ち上げたい気分

[paverics]

“my father is a boy and my mother is a girl so i’m mixed” is the funniest possible response to someone asking your gender and it came from 6’5 Viking footballer and notable weird little guy Erling Haaland on a Snapchat

[paverics]

comedians can only dream of writing something this funny

[catmask]

by the way. it never is too late to decide you want to be happy. the woman who helped me get hormones didnt start hers until she was 70, and i met her at 73, beautiful and smiling - and told me that the last three years of her life had been her favorite. your favorites might be ahead of you too. why not hang around and find out?

[a-bichol]

i am obsessed with himmmmm

(studies from the bird watching twitter!)