As a kit Graymist was an only child, so she got kinda spoiled as a kit by her mother (Shadepelt) and her aunt (Greenflower). She became a bit full of herself, a bit bossy, and really loved getting attention. She was a quite a bit of a brat by the time she became an apprentice.
Then the pressure to be as good as her mother set in. Mind you, this pressure was not from her mother herself. Shadepelt was a very supportive single mother who would do anything for her daughter and support her as best as she could. But it should be noted that Shadepelt did make mistakes. She was still brazen and impulsive and rebellious. She told stories of her youth and filled her daughter's head with ideas of adventure and rebellion. There were also points where she was a bit too hard on Graymist. Overall, Shadepelt did the best she could as a mother.
But unfortunately, Shadepelt was known in RiverClan as a warrior who was incredibly gifted in the ways of fighting. The clan expected her daughter would end up being the same. Graymist's mentor ended up being someone who expected a lot from her and pushed her rather hard. It soon became apparent that Graymist wasn't the best at physical fighting. This was in huge contrast to her mother, and it disappointed her mentor greatly. Due to this she got quite few insecurities when it came her own strength and fighting prowess. It got to a point where she would train long into the night, eventually ending up with insomnia as a result.
Also during this period of time, Graymist's loud and bossy behavior, which was mostly due to overcompensating, started to backfire. At first she was the "leader" of the apprentices at the time, but eventually the other apprentices started doing their own thing and ignoring her entirely. Her overall bratty attitude left her with almost no friends before she was even half way through apprenticeship.
But there was one apprentice who stuck by her side, Voletooth. The two had grown in the nursery together, and were near inseparable already. Graymist understood she had to rein in her attitude, and Voletooth was patient enough to support her in her growth. There were times where they grew apart, but they always made up. In the end they truly were inseparable.
That isn't to say Voletooth wasn't without his own faults as well. He wasn't all that good at standing up for himself and he prioritized others rather than himself. Graymist scolded him for this constantly, and wouldn't let him help her unless she was allowed to help him. They worked through their issues together.
But, even though Graymist had support from those around her, she still was haunted by her insecurities. Overtime she had become a very confrontational cat, always ready to get into an argument. She was amazing at verbal fighting but horrible at physical fighting. The pressure was suffocating and she found herself lashing out as a result.
This ended up being the catalyst for her choice to have kits early into warriorhood. The pressure was off her back, just for a bit. She rationalized her choice by thinking that maybe after she had her kits and watched them grow she would become a stronger warrior. So she focused on her kits.
Voletooth, who at this point had become her QPP, helped sire the kits. After they were born he stuck around and helped raise them. Together they raised Sneezecloud and Mallownose. There were ups and downs, but they did what they could to be the best parents they were capable of being. The two of them passed what they had learned from their time as apprentices to their kits.
The period of time in which she was raising these kits was a big turning point for Graymist, for a variety of reasons. Graymist realized she wasn't cut out to be a mother at such a young age, but did try her damndest to raise her kits as best as possible. She also learned how much her attitude and behavior can affect others. And the biggest turning point of all... She met Squirrelflight.
This stubborn girl with a lot of dream and a lot of spirit. Someone who was loved by her entire clan but didn't feel like she totally belonged. See, the journey to find Midnight had shaped her in ways she could barely put a word to. It shaped her views of the clans, her life, her outlook on everything. She was molded by that expirience.
The sight of Squirrelflight standing on the other side of the river was burned into Graymist's mind. At first she assumed it was a hatred for a cat from another clan. See, the pressure to be good at fighting and defending her clan, mixed with her wariness of outsiders due to her Rogue dad ditching, left Graymist as a cat who hated outsiders. But, as the memory continued to haunt her, she confronted Squirrelflight at a gathering, and she realized all at once that she was wrong about that feeling.
She tried to intimidate the ThunderClan cat when she was finally able to go to a gathering, but it didn't work. Instead Squirrelflight just smiled and asked how her kits were doing. And... for some reason... this struck a chord with Graymist. She didn't know why but. This small act broke what she thought about outsiders.
She... She needed to know more. She found herself walking the lakeshore and lingering around the ThunderClan border, in hopes of meeting the red she-cat again. When the two finally do see eachother again, Graymist finds that she doesn't know what to say. So all she says is "how are you kits doing?" This sparks a conversation, but unfortunately it doesn't last for long. Squirrelflight must return to patrol, and Graymist doesn't want to get caught.
Graymist flees back into RiverClan territory and thinks about the conversation she just had. She confides in Voletooth about the expirience. He encourages her, and soon enough this becomes a regular occurrence. She finds herself looking forward to talking Squirrelflight again.
At first she doesn't see her often, Graymist's training an apprentice after all. But eventually they start seeing eachother more and more after her mentorship ends. The two find that they have fallen deeply in love.
As Graymist talks more to Squirrelflight she finds that her beliefs about outsiders starts to crumble. She starts realizing how silly it is to seperate the clans in the first place. She starts wishing that she could live in a world where all the fighting would stop and the clans would work together.
What solidifies this view is when a drought takes the life of Voletooth. The same drought that takes the lives of Blackclaw and Dawnflower. She thinks that maybe, just maybe, if the clans weren't so busy fighting, her clan mates wouldn't have starved. Maybe Vole would still be there. So she grows to despise fighting between the clans.
Her grief is shared by Mistyfoot, now Mistystar, who had lost her mate in the drought as well, along with her leader soon after. The two help eachother in their grief.
Afterwards, Graymist becomes vocal about her hate of the fighting between clans. She can't stand it anymore, not after all that she has lost. She moves to ThunderClan, a place that is far more accepting of outsiders and has far less fighting. She is happy there.
She finally feels she is fit to be a mother again and her and Squirrelflight have kits (sired by Bramble). These kits are Sparksparrow and Alderheart. They mean the world to Graymist, as does her mate.
Graymist finds that she feels that she belongs when she is with Squirrelflight.
So that's where she stays.
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