❄️ be like snow❄️

{ beautiful but cold } Lara // 8teen ; crying over korean guys ;

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Hays what happened to the old me who always had something to post? Is this the aftermath of deactivating? I changed url; theme and everything, nasama ata pati utak ko.

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It’s just… You don’t get it. You don’t fucking get it. You don’t know what it’s like to feel like you’ll never be loved. Like you’re garbage that no one will ever care about. When I’m bitter about people I graduated high school with getting married and being pregnant, it’s not necessarily because I wish I had exactly that. It’s just that I want to feel like I’m fucking worth something and no one will give me the time of day. I’m sorry I don’t know what it’s like to have guys falling all over me. I’m sorry I don’t know what it’s like to have a deep, mainingful relationship. I’m sorry I don’t know what it’s like to be loved by someone. I’m sorry I’m broken and alone and not able to fix it. I’m sorry I’m so lost and dead inside even though I have no right to feel that way because I’m so fucking privileged it makes me sick. I’m sorry I even exist. I’m sorry I want to get drunk and have a good time but you’re content with always staying at home. I’m just sorry. Believe me I wouldn’t blame you for leaving me. I don’t deserve friends. Just like I don’t deserve love. Romance wasn’t meant for me. But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt. I’m worthless trash and I don’t think you know what that feels like. You don’t know what it feels like to have fears confirmed. To feel like you have literally nothing to offer. To KNOW you have literally nothing to offer. You’re funny and driven and talented and smart and charming and beautiful and I’m nothing. So forgive me for not being able to dig myself out. I don’t have anything to hold on to.

[zemblxnity]

[quietlovers]

[aintnorayofsuuunshine]

I have to accept the fact that our chapter has come to an end.

[themadkidinside-deactivated2018]

Plot Twist: Book 2

[aintnorayofsuuunshine]

Laslas. Hahahha

[c0ntemplations]

You don’t need someone who asks how your day was. Because you’ll say ‘it was fine’ or ‘it was good’. Because that’s what we do. We lie. No one who says they’re fine is ever fine. What you need is someone who looks past that and asks you, ‘are you though? Are you really fine?’

(via c0ntemplations)

[sh1ttt-happens]

[xristianism]

Your TA or fan mail can make me smile.

[scntrx-deactivated20191108]

I can take the pain as long as it’s meaningful. 

[lauramercierbodyscrub]

shout out to all the people still following me even though im a fucking idiot

[squisooxviii-blog]

Leche kasi hahahahaha dun kasi sa kanta na 'Lady Luck' may naungol na babae tas nakaheadset ako tas di ko namalayan na malapit na yung part nung pag-ungol hahahahaha e tinagtag ko headset tas pinlay ko saka ko nilaksan tas sabi ng Mama 'hoy ano pinapanuod mo?!' Hahahahahhaha pucha buti nalang may mga ibangsounds pa hahahah pero nangingibabaw talaga yung ungol dun e hahahahahaha

[misteristupido-deactivated20151]

Wag ka puro Like, landiin mo rin ako, please.

[sikolohistang-baliw-deactivated]

Torn between hating you for leaving me without any valid reason and hating myself for expecting so much from you.

[squisooxviii-blog]

Hindi man ako kasing puti nila, atleast hindi ako kagaya nila na kulay lang ang nagdadala.

[squisooxviii-blog]

You think I care? Well, you're delusional.

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[atomiicfrogz]

Perks of dating me:

• Cuddles. • Sometimes, I’m funny. • I won’t cheat because I hate everyone. • Surprise hugs. • Random kisses. • Actually respond to your texts. • Play video games or listen to music. • More cuddles. • Butt touches. • We can eat lots of snacks.