notes to myself

thoughts about things. thoughts about everything.

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It's been years. But your birthday is still engrained in my memory no matter how many places I've deleted you.

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What I'm trying to say is, be with someone you want to do the dishes with for the rest of your life.

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As you get older you start doing things in reverse. You start cutting people out from your life. Your Christmas list becomes practically nonexistent. You don’t need to be the first in line for everything. You take less pictures because some memories are best kept in your heart and not your hard drive. And instead of looking for love, you dig for it from within.

bookmarks in my life (via c0ntemplations)

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It’s not my time to be with someone. It’s my time to try to be someone.

note to self  (via c0ntemplations)

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Whoever taught us that closure was sitting down and having coffee with someone to talk about what happened and why it all went wrong? Sometimes closure is just one conversation too long that opens up another can of worms and a whole lot of heartache. Maybe closure is just you, on your own, deciding it’s no longer important enough to be in your life.

phone calls with a wise friend.

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Mirrors lie; If you want to see yourself as you should be as you could be as you are, try looking into the eyes of someone who loves you.

note to self (via c0ntemplations)

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at some point in your life you just stop begging for things. attention, friends, whatever that’s not given freely. because why would you want something that didn’t even want you in the first place? it’s about self-respect. it’s about learning your worth. once you realize that you’ve unlocked another level of life.

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things i absolutely detest and avoid at all cost: forced socializing

things that are necessary to get anywhere in your career: forced socializing

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things that make me smile:

guys holding flowers in their hands because you know he’s about to make someone’s day 

couples who are obviously on a first date and are still in that shy yet eager getting to know you phase

anyone who gets up for old people on the bus or train 

the pleasantly shocked and surprised face of said old person because they realize that kindness isn’t dead

handwritten letters

people holding hands with their parents (especially if they aren’t children anymore) 

friends saying ‘i love you’ to each other because platonic love is so so underrated 

the face of a student who studied so hard for a test and actually did really well 

people who admit that they are wrong without resentment and are willing to learn from their mistakes

someone who makes you feel like there’s still something worth smiling about in this world when you think you might not make it

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And someday you’ll find somebody else. She will know all the things I know about you. She’ll be the first person you call when you need to vent and the last person you think about at night. And I’ll be with somebody new. Someone who knows the crinkles and creases of my thoughts. But no matter how much time goes by and whoever comes into our lives I’m glad that we got to experience life together for a little bit.

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Lazy cafe days are my favorite. I could people watch for hours. Everyone has a story to tell, and sometimes, if you look close enough, you’ll catch a glimpse of what they can’t say with words.

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“I know we’re going to grow up and we’re not going to be as close as we are now. We’re going to have our own lives and we’ll forget all the promises we made to each other. I know this. And it breaks my heart. But you know you can always count on me, right? You call, I’ll pick up.”

— some friendships defy everything. (via c0ntemplations)

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go where your heart is calling.

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This. This blog. All I can say is thank you. I needed to stumble on this. I’m pretty sure you can figure out who I am from the likes. But thank you for being raw and writing such relatable things.

😭🙏🏻

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What is your New Year's resolution for 2020?

Be more comfortable being unproductive. Relaxing and not feeling guilty. Trying to find value in myself without my accomplishments.

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There’s something about sunsets that make you wonder where your other half is.

[norahpennwright]

They’re probably looking at the sunrise thinking the same thing about you.

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never trust anyone who argues with strangers in the comments section of things