ShanaChanTT

Not many people know when love really starts… More than a friend, but not quite lovers. A delicate relationship like this changes gradually once it is noticed, and keeps on blossoming, Just like the changing seasons.

[ss4chris]

using tumblr to express my emotions. it just isnt working. who cares what ppl on fb think or say. if they took the time to read it that time could have been used to delete me instead. I have no use for tumblr. its been fun. sort of. BUt my depression wont go away expressing myself on here alone.

[ss4chris]

mom: dont let her win. Its not a matter of letting her win. Its feeling depressed and lost.

[ss4chris]

i thought my mom was dead... god damn my assumptions are off.

[ss4chris]

i cant trust anyone. shes turned everyone against me. what is this shit. Ya live your life but can you keep others out of it? sigh. and yet i still care. man i must like suffering.

[ss4chris]

when the whole world is against you. what do you do.

[ss4chris]

I cant even express myself on fb without getting trolled. aaaaaaa. Fuck her and her happiness. and turning my friends against me. just fuck her. Bleh.

[ss4chris]

first thing i see when i step out of the apt in the morning.. a Kia Soul. Kill me plz.

[ss4chris]

a friend wanted to take me out my birthday and I said some b.s. lie to get out of it. I'm literally terrified breakdown when I go out side. I didn't want them seeing that.

[ss4chris]

happy birthday to me.

[ss4chris]

literally the only way my depression stabilizes if  worlds is on every day for the rest of my life.

[ss4chris]

I can’t sleep. My Birthday is in 2 days and I dont wanna live. Can I just be killed/ dead before then? I dont know waht to do with my life anymore. I just dont know waht to do.

[ss4chris]

when youre watching youtube vids and playing phone games and you start randomly crying.. why.. Just why.

[ss4chris]

I hate staring at my computer screen thinking about them all depressed. sigh*.

[lovelymojobrand]

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[ss4chris]

Ha. cant wait to  find what my mood is lol..

[ss4chris]

I feel like Zero’s friend taking over as Zero with ALovelyAnxiety  because my phone no longer has service to get the pw for my twitch accounts.. sigh*

[ss4chris]

my birthday is on Sunday..  Maybe ill be ded before then. Keep your fingers crossed.

[ss4chris]

I just got to take it one day at a time. tough it out. Hope it will get better.  If I really wanted to kill myself i would have just let myself fall down the stairs. Instead I grabbed the fail. i guess it was instinct/ fight or flight.