𝓼𝓪𝓻𝓼

𝓼𝓽𝓾𝓬𝓴 𝓲𝓷 𝓵𝓲𝓶𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓷𝓬𝓮

[st3fan0vska]

hej, na svežo mleko miriše dan

ptice pevaju na sav glas

jutro njiše vetar

dodirni mi kolena, to bih baš volela

[st3fan0vska]

it's so sweet, knowing that you love me

though we don't need to say it to each other, sweet

knowing that I love you and running my fingers through your hair

it's so sweet.

[st3fan0vska]

idk what to do anymore

I feel like i can't do anything right and that I'll never be able to achieve success in my life. I'm afraid that no matter how hard I try that I will still fail. I'm not scared of failure, bc ik that it's normal to fall down. But what if I fall one too many times and there's no one left to pick me up? What, then? Will I have the willpower to get up by myself like I did all those years ago when I felt like no one cared? I have a family that loves me and friends who are there for me. But sometimes, I feel as if I'm all alone. Like even if I speak my mind, it will be taken as something "easy." I think I just need to cry my eyes out, but it doesn't work. Because I'm crying right now, and those thoughts and emotions that no one cares where I will be in the future scare and overwhelm me. It's times like these that I just want to close my eyes and hope that everything will work out. But I can't. Because I'm not smart, I'm not rich, I'm not strong. Everyone around me is, though. I'm not jealous, but I also feel like I deserve at least something for always being there for everyone and never leaving time for myself because I can "take it." I'll never blame the people around me. I blame myself. I blame me for not being able to stand out and be someone.