this is just like stage fright, coming back home

dm me for my email ♡

[hitmyvape-deactivated20251006]

Sorry im being annoying i just remembered that music is life the other day

[birdslop]

baby purples martins have paused their slopping to

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[smoqueen-deactivated20251108]

to every girl whos blod, i mean blog, ive been a part of. thank you. and the virus is spreading. and the tigermen are spreading.

[starjasmines]

i did a bunch of restructuring and made headway on mandarin reading and then we went home and got sidetracked by a little cat who was SCREAMING for attention like, while we were still a street corner away, we went to her and she was impossibly cuddly and vocal and like let me pick her up, was biting in the loving way cats do at my jacket sleeve edge, etc etc, rubbing herself all over us, and she had a collar. every time she got any distance away from us she would cry loudly again for attention... we suspect she is a recent runaway since this level of attention seeking from a distance and cuddliness is just not typical imo from a cat who is used to living on the street.. she let me pick her up and cradle her in my arms!!! my nothingship checked for local missing cats but it seems nothing recently posted, we're going to check again tomorrow.

[starjasmines]

funniest thing after writing like crazy and restructuring my thesis for the last two days the document is a grand total of 90 words longer LMAO. well. it's improved in ways that matter i think but it is sort of in a rougher state than before in terms of full paragraphs with full sentences being present throughout it all. i think if i had another day i could fix the mandarin tone background reading stuff but tomorrow i will focus on analysis instead and whatever i'll do more writing later.

[starjasmines]

quarter till midnight im just sitting here listening to music bc i dont think id be working if i was alone either or if i was at home and maybe it's ok to just sithere. idk. idk what to do or what i want. what if i cry a bit.

[starjasmines]

music isnt real art it's basically cheating bc of course your stupid primate brain gets emotionally aroused at even a simple chord, at even just a sustained note, at the repeating pattern of rain hitting the roof of your house, at the white noise of your fan as you fall asleep at night. oh big deal, you made me cry when you put a bunch of sounds together. a songbird could do that to me.

[markovchaingang]

RULES FOR DATING MY DAUGHTER:

my daughter cannot, through action or inaction, harm a human or allow a human to come to harm

a daughter at rest or in constant motion remains at rest or in constant motion unless acted upon by another force

daughters are never created or destroyed, only transformed

always treat every daughter as loaded, even if you know she isn't

you do not talk about my daughter

[toroidalearthtruther]

got fired from my job at the smoke break factory for quitting smoking and working hard. life has neither been better or worse. I'm at rock middle

[real-language-facts]

couples costume idea: signifier and signified

[starjasmines]

i honestly think that realizations about the self or the world or whatever . whatever. are just a trap after a certain point. you can't keep realizing forever, there isnt that much to realize, frankly you need new data to process, go out and live. or something.

[starjasmines]

as if i wasnt already suffering enough they just practiced chokes on me so now my neck also kind of hurts. is it killing myself time.

[starjasmines]

i feel like im seeing something. do you think i got a concussion or it's just hair in my eyes.

[starjasmines]

straight up my face hurts so bad . is it bad to get hit in the eye inthe face with a basketball really hard.

[micromontage]

We have so little time

[starjasmines]

let's waste as much of it as we can while we still can

[starjasmines]

i feel like im seeing something. do you think i got a concussion or it's just hair in my eyes.

[starjasmines]

snowqueen of texas on loop btw.

[starjasmines]

my face hurts from getting hit in the eye by a basketball really hard and my leg hurts from getting tossed on the floor and my hand hurts and my feet hurt from my shoes and im hungry for something warm and salty but im at my stupid office with my friend who i always feel like im hiding something from. awesome. also im sleepy and it's 10pm and im writing my thesis .