this is just like stage fright, coming back home

dm me for my email ♡

[hitmyvape-deactivated20251006]

Sorry im being annoying i just remembered that music is life the other day

[starjasmines]

i wish i had a passion for things that mattered in any way whatsoever instead of stupid pointless things that suck

[starjasmines]

brand identity is important to "me" (the starjasmines corp)

[starjasmines]

nobody wants to take responsibility for anything, least of all me. but it's the only way.

[treecitysessions]

There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think this

[starjasmines]

i also told him i like being into people i can't have cuz it's a safe fun marble to roll around in my mind when everything else in my life is stressing me out. like uni and.. visas.. the big future & my fear that i have no passions in life at all and no direction and all i do is waste the resources i was so lucky to be born with. thinking and talking about these things is so distressing, so i have hobbies, and one them happens to be rumination about my romantic life or lack thereof.

[starjasmines]

i had to make it clear to my friend today during the debrief that im under no delusion that they have feelings for me, i get that they just wanted to hook up when we first met & that window is closed now presumably for good, im literally just trying to enjoy my homoerotic friendship bc it's a nice experience in and of itself to spend so much time with someone who you get along with well & it doesnt hurt that i find them nice to look at.. and i will face whatever suffering i deserve for this indulgence when the semester ends and im all alone again.

[starjasmines]

maybe his words will put an end to the madness for once and for all

[starjasmines]

it might be working.

[starjasmines]

have added an entirely new section/concept to my thesis and it's not just any concept, it's predictive coding.. lol. it's been on my mind since literally the inception of the project but it's not mentioned at ALL in the two papers ive built this analysis on and so i refrained from talking about it, i thought maybe i'll sprinkle it in, but i was just writing and writing today and i realized it simply had to be a section. this is good but also bad bc im already feeling so so so behind and now i have to ... read a lot more >.<

[starjasmines]

wrote 600 words and listened to the entirety of innocence reaches, hope these things are not related

[badwitchmarisa]

"do you think that just because youre lesbian it makes that sentence any less patheric" i dont think experiencing or needing love makes anyone pathetic. we all want it one way or another. but yes it does.

[feastofsnakes]

hey sorry I snapped at you, I've just had a really hard day and [remembers focusing on myself is selfish] maybe it's your fault for provoking me?

[starjasmines]

abstractions are just so so so nice and economical can we abstract everything i dont see any point in the real world when we have all these categories we can sort things into instead

[starjasmines]

i might be the first person who is objectively right about everything

[camerahoax]

[hypnagogue-i]

None of this will even Appear in my next life

[starjasmines]

on the note of divesting possessions: my friend took my giant mortar & pestle off my hands as well as two glass jars i never use. fantastic.