this is just like stage fright, coming back home

dm me for my email ♡

[hitmyvape-deactivated20251006]

Sorry im being annoying i just remembered that music is life the other day

[starjasmines]

have added an entirely new section/concept to my thesis and it's not just any concept, it's predictive coding.. lol. it's been on my mind since literally the inception of the project but it's not mentioned at ALL in the two papers ive built this analysis on and so i refrained from talking about it, i thought maybe i'll sprinkle it in, but i was just writing and writing today and i realized it simply had to be a section. this is good but also bad bc im already feeling so so so behind and now i have to ... read a lot more >.<

[starjasmines]

wrote 600 words and listened to the entirety of innocence reaches, hope these things are not related

[badwitchmarisa]

"do you think that just because youre lesbian it makes that sentence any less patheric" i dont think experiencing or needing love makes anyone pathetic. we all want it one way or another. but yes it does.

[feastofsnakes]

hey sorry I snapped at you, I've just had a really hard day and [remembers focusing on myself is selfish] maybe it's your fault for provoking me?

[starjasmines]

abstractions are just so so so nice and economical can we abstract everything i dont see any point in the real world when we have all these categories we can sort things into instead

[starjasmines]

i might be the first person who is objectively right about everything

[camerahoax]

[hypnagogue-i]

None of this will even Appear in my next life

[starjasmines]

on the note of divesting possessions: my friend took my giant mortar & pestle off my hands as well as two glass jars i never use. fantastic.

[starjasmines]

maybe his words will put an end to the madness for once and for all

[starjasmines]

what does it say about my priorities that my biggest concern around skipping this week's lab meeting was that i would miss an opportunity to advertise the choir concert.. to be fair it's just a mock defense for someone who i do not really know and also im skipping to spend more time on my thesis and not just skiving for the hell of it. but. (luckily we have a meeting next week at which i will be advertising so im all clear).

[starjasmines]

about to go to brunch with friend and im feeling strangely nervous. this is a friend i see usually every week regularly & also had brunch/icecream/shopping with just two weeks ago so there is no reason for this. wait.. im shy.

[kuruk]

Today we smile

[starjasmines]

im so glad im a pretty & outwardly normal young woman bc if i was an old man i would for sure be seen as a creep and pervert and menace to society. but as a young woman you can get away with being a creep and a pervert and some people are even into it. though actually. i guess people are into those qualities for old men as well. just not me personally..

[starjasmines]

i hate that skeletal lamping is such a good album sonically cuz by god the lyrics are so embarrassing to listen to at times.

[starjasmines]

oM & editing my intro <3