Ghost in the Garden

[starlightxfairy]

my agenda:

❤︎︎ be kind

❤︎︎ be loving

[starlightxfairy]

im done fetishizing my pain

[starlightxfairy]

here might be the only place i feel any kind of safe and secure….

have i been terrible… disillusioned and…

[dark-nymph3t]

[autailome]

“We have too much self. We are too full of ourselves. We always have too much us in us. Julian [of Norwich] wants us to push ourselves aside and see that although we are in so much pain, woe, and unrest, we can be at great rest if we have patience, if we wait, if we attend to that which exceeds us and our creaturely strivings. This excess is the experience of ecstatic love. And this is a much harder lesson than misery. It requires giving ourselves up, as much as possible, giving ourselves over to that which is larger than the self, outside the self: a pliable ground of love that is prior to the will.”

Simon Critchley, Mysticism

[classicalcanvas]

The Secret Rendezvous by Pierre Charles Comte

[starlightxfairy]

but really i just want to go home… whatever home is…

a happy, safe, and loving place…

[starlightxfairy]

i think its all taking a huge toll on me…. Mentally… spiritually

[starlightxfairy]

i feel guilty as sin staying here

every time i eat, spend money, or do anything i feel extremely guilty. and shame. i feel guilty for existing so then i dont want to exist.

“home”? is one person caring for….. five people plus animals. i dont want to be a bigger burden somewhere else.

as much as others have wronged me and possibly judged me as well… i still feel responsible for myself and my own flaws/failings.

i will take any job. aside from sex work. thats where i am drawing the line.

[melanchol1e-deactivated20250809]

[pisces-core]

[florianpainkesblog]

Luminescence

2019-04-19 / 7.1439

[piranhagal]

[princesssokphanny]

A once-in-a-lifetime shot — the moon perfectly framed by a rainbow. Caught at just the right time. 🌈 🌕

[cyberxbattalion]

[starlightxfairy]

i wanna be wealthy so i may create an animal sanctuary

[starlightxfairy]

my coloring book came in <3