ONE GIRL, MANY THOUGHTS

18yo. ENG/IND. Hanya seorang gadis dengan pikirannya. aku menulis apa yang aku ingin.

[starlingdmoon]

i wanna be as free as the sky

i wanna go wherever clouds taking me

but i will do it my way

so I'll be happy.

[themidnightwriter23]

A storm of grey clouds overcast the moonlit night

Dingy dark deserted alleys with jarring secrets alight

I ventured to the furthest one for I, ever in illusion

Couldn't perceive the howling winds as a premonition.

The journey was like walking down the lanes of past

Flashbacks like spirits apparate and leave me aghast

Who knew I'd lose myself when I'd reach the end

There I stood quivering, shattered, lost and broken

Like an oasis in desert, I found a shallow stream

I peeped in to see my reflection but it made me scream

In place of my visage, there stood these devils

Staring back at me, reckoning my evils

It was who I'd become inside, contemptuous and cold

Indifferece laced veins, tale contrary to my heroics told

The devil had comsumed my soul till it killed my conscience

There is no retreat for it controls my subconscious

Now there is no regret for my deeds nor reproach

A heartless beast with no care was my approach

I had sheltered my demons not knowing they fed on me

Now I run away from me only to run into me...

~Namra Siddiqui

[starlingdmoon]

hello, you..

how are you?

you should be happy today

which i wish you are.

I'm sorry

if i can't say it to you directly

but happy birthday..

— To you

Whom i secretly wanna hug right now,

but I can't.

[starlingdmoon]

it's such a waste,

that..

we didn't ended up being a soulmate

not even close to best friend anymore..

[starlingdmoon]

You have a wonderful and blessed rest of your life and make sure to continue on spreading the love and I hope down the line you get everything you ever wished for and more. much love. Hope you and your family are all doing well during this worldwide crisis 🙏

thankyou!

who ever you are, but you are one of the reason i smiled today

stay safe! 🤘✨

[starlingdmoon]

Tuhan Tolong,

Jangan biarkan aku jatuh,

saat aku bahkan belum siap untuk terbang.

[starlingdmoon]

ive been feeling so numb

for so long

i want to feel something again..

please someone

can you find me and make me feel alive again?

so that..

i dont need to cut and hurt myself

just to feel alive

so that i will only get hurt

to see my blood

just to make sure that I'm alive.

[where-is-love]

[cheolshu]

mafia!Seventeen

[cheolshu]

Mingyu moments I think about a lot..

Happy birthday to Seventeen’s giant puppy, Kim Mingyu ♡  #HAPPYMINGYUDAY #나의_봄_민규야_생일축하해

[chickun]

NCT 127: Touch / Palette

[starlingdmoon]

tau tidak?

saat kamu tersenyum,

saat kamu tertawa,

aku suka memandang wajahmu dalam diam,

tapi mungkin kau tidak akan pernah tau

ditambah kita semakin jauh,

tapi bisakah aku melihatmu dalam diam sampai aku 'pulih' dan 'berpaling'?

-

x,

teruntuk kamu, lautan dan hangatku.

[starlingdmoon]

Selalu begini,

Hanya aku yang mencintai..

Seperti layaknya mengejar awan dan terjatuh,

Layaknya aku yang mencintai sendiri dalam diam sementara kau entah dibelahan dunia mana memikirkan 'DIA' yang kau kagumi di belah pihakmu sendiri..

- gadis yang tidak pernah kau lihat.

[starlingdmoon]

"The girl with the broken smile; she will be loved"

Maroon 5

[starlingdmoon]

I sink into something calm and beautiful inside your eyes and behind your smile.

Myself

[starlingdmoon]

Andaikan..

Malam ini,  Aku sulit menutup mataku, Kamu terlintas dipikiranku tak pandaiku menghilangkan kamu dipikiranku, aku mengalah memutuskan untuk melarutkan pikiranku..

Kau tau tidak?  Malam ini aku merindukanmu, gila memang Kita baru saja bertemu,  Bertatap saja mungkin baru sesekali atau dua kali, apalagi berbicara dan mengobrol

Hebatnya aku, Aku belum dalam mengenalmu tapi sudah bisa mengagumi dalam diam..

Diriku yang lemah ini berandai, Apa kita bisa dekat? Apa kita bisa menjadi insan yang satu? Apa aku bisa mengagumi dari dekat? 

Lalu, apakah waktu akan menjawabnya? haruskah ada penantian lagi?..

teruntuk kamu; yang sedang ada dipikiranku..

[starlingdmoon]

Karena terkadang yang mengerti hanya Tuhan dan Dunia imajinasiku..