caught in a lie

noah. 18. they/them. welcome to my mental illness sideblog. under construction.

[starryillness]

ive had an okay week lads

[serotnin]

sometimes i forget my traumas are actually real, like that’s how disconnected i am from everything

[diaryofaborderlineman]

*takes a depression nap after waking up from a 12hr depression sleep*

[violentviolette]

sometimes i am suddenly reminded that childhood abuse is not a universal experience and that some people have loving and supportive parents who have never traumatized them and im just like ????

[5amsuggestions]

person: u act older than u are me struggling w years of trauma & having to be the adult in situations that i shouldnt be in: i get that alot

[adrianna-rcissist]

“everyone’s been through trauma!” no, no they haven’t. hardship ≠ trauma.

[adrianna-rcissist]

trauma is described by the dsm as “outside the normal range of human experiences”

OUTSIDE. THE NORMAL RANGE. OF HUMAN EXPERIENCES

[cannabiscomrade]

Not to start #discourse or anything but fuck your unhealthy coping mechanism if you practice it in a place that can directly harm other survivors

[aspergersissues]

[sseoulful]

Daydreaming about alternative lives to escape my own has become a coping mechanism which I have internalised so much that it happens unconsciously throughout the day. I’ll be always daydreaming in the back of my head no matter what I do

[mentallykrill]

someone: *completes basic tasks and functions normally*

me, elbowing the person beside me and laughing heartily: i’ll have whatever that guy’s having

[schizobling]

I’m almost laughing at my deteriorating mental health at this point because it’s just so ridiculous that this many symptoms are acting up at once

[tellyjpg]

sleeping is nice until u wake up and realize ur still sad lol

[fireheartwrites]

the problem with depression is it always feels like an excuse. it is valid that you are not getting work done because you’re too depressed to leave your bed. it is valid that you can’t bring yourself to care about your marks because hey, at least you’re surviving. 

but to me it will always feel like laziness. like if i could just stop being silly and get out of bed i could get that A+ and feel a bit better about myself. but how do i explain that i feel too empty to work to my group members for this assignment. how am i not letting them down by being too depressed to work on anything.

i don’t need to tell anyone about my personal life and mental health but i always look capable on the surface. and if you knew me in high school, i got those grades that everyone else wanted. so what happened to that person now?

where did they go?

[thatthursdaygirl]

[starryillness]

dont tell an abuse survivor whether they should or shouldn’t forgive their abuser(s)

[quietpagan]

DON’T TELL AN ABUSE SURVIVOR WHETHER THEY SHOULD OR SHOULDN’T FORGIVE THEIR  ABUSER(S)

DON’T FUCKING DO IT

[wetorturedsomefolks]

the real depression nap is when you go to bed at 10pm just because you can’t think of any reason to be awake

[starryillness]

so guys,,im ready to die