It's been a while since I done this, so let's hope I done it right. Nor did I want to be on here. I changed the url so you might not recognise it, but I wanted to give writing another shot, sorry for that confusion. It's John McGraw, Gabby. I tried to reach you on Twitter but to no avail via Solitares. I really messed up that up and how to approach you, sorry.
I know we can have a chat on here these days via messaging, and there's a few things I need it want to speak to you about, or even know something. More so than before.
I know I made some stupid mistakes that probably hurt you at the time, and I can't apologise enough for it. You probably don't want to dig all that up again nine years, I understand that. You don't owe me any of your time but I would like to be able to. Either on here or Discord, whichever works best for you. All I'd like is ten or fifteen minutes of your time. Hell, you can respond through this post, or even let me know? I wanted to say more but I don't want to push. It's your choice. Or I'm making a fool of myself to you by saying or doing any of this.
I won't lie but I'd like to be friends again and to be able to speak again. If anything to make up for everything, or because I want to get to know you again after all these years. I'm getting ahead of myself, I know. Or to start anew. Either way, I'm hoping you'll respond, and I still did this post right. This is why I decided against writing on here, this site is confusing to use for this old guy to get to grips with.
I'll edit and add what I wanted to say here instead. I could talk about the past but I know I was to treat you as I did the last time because I was frustrated at the distance (I have an idea why you were now). I can't apologise enough for it, and I can only say I'm not that way anymore. And I lost all I wanted to say, damn. I'll try remember what I said. I realised I made a lot of mistakes from day one with you, small ones but they added up. You didn't deserve any of it. I enjoyed speaking to you but suffocated you by speaking daily, stuff like that. I regret all this because you were the kindest, warmest, sweetest person I've known (back then). I don't know how you feel or felt or think about me after all that. but you had a big impact on me and changed me for the better despite the short time we've spoken and known each other. I'm not happy to be trying to reach out because I feel selfish after all that and I'm trying to come back into your life, when you could be happy and a better place than before. I've always wanted the best for you and to be happy, and I'm sorry I'm doing this. I'm only asking for a chance to prove I'm sincere, I've changed, and in wanting to be friends again, start anew, and get to know each other again in a fresh slate. All I know is I can't show you anything by mere words but acting. Then again, It's all your call, your pace, if you want to do this. I dropped a lot on you and I'll give you as much time as you need to think, if you do. If you don't then it's fine, I had my chances. Like I said, I want the best for you and if speaking to me will stop that or upset you, that's fine. Anyway I'll be either on Twitter as Solitares (steelandsilence), here, or Discord on solitares6714 if you do decide to give me a chance.
