Hidden Demons

|BLOCK DONT REPORT| ✨Stay safe loves✨ |16|5’6| disclaimer: i am in no way trying to endorse or encourage any eating disorders. these posts are only to hold me accountable. stay safe everyone

[starve2skinny]

Bought a scale and I weighed my self. I shouldn’t have done that I was better off not knowing.

[starve2skinny]

Me: doesn’t eat all day

Also me: smokes then eats like 500 cals 😐

[starve2skinny]

Been restricting slowly for about a week and haven’t eaten in over 24hrs. Feeling pretty good about it. 😊🙂

[mushrumps-deactivated20190626]

Yeah I have disordered eating habits and a skewed self image but I don’t tolerate fat shaming

[starve2skinny]

Some thinspo to remind me of why I’m fasting rn lmao.

[pretty-little-boy]

ed tumblr is so safe..✨

eating disorder accounts on Twitter are toxic asf, i had Twitter for so long but it just completely destroyed me. people on there would have a bmi of 13 and still get genuine comments saying they needed to lose more weight.

accounts on Instagram are self absorbed.. they aren’t worried about other people and get pissed when someone gives them advice

the people on here are so kind and gentle. there’s reminders to take your meds/vitamins and to drink water. you all are so perfect and it pains me to know you don’t see yourself that way. the kindness and humanity on this platform brings me peace.

shoutout to all the people that make tumblr so safe and gentle... you keep me calm and give me hope 😌✨

[starve2skinny]

Why is tiktok becoming ED tumbler. It honestly makes me so upset. There are so many young kids on that app and the thought of one of them seeing those tiktoks and developing an ED breaks my heart.

[skinnynowplease]

I can't believe I made myself fat like what the fuck is wrong with me?

[starve2skinny]

I think about this on a daily basis. Like how did I let myself get this fat like holy fuck.

[starve2skinny]

Been fasting for 16 hours and I’m going for 20. I’m supposed to end my fast at 9 pm but I have a rule of not eating after 8pm. I also don’t eat before 2pm so I guess I’ll just wait to break my fast till tomorrow at 2pm.

Some thinspo to remind me of why I’m doing this.

[starve2skinny]

Saturday, August 8th

Hummus + Bell pepper

* 73 calories

Cracker cake

* 300 calories

Dinner

-like half a small steak

-sausage

-like 2 bites of a potatoe

-5 chicken wings

-salad

* 800 calories

Total calories: 1173 calories

Steps taken: 6447 steps taken

Calories burned: 334 calories

Late night workout

* 50 squats

* 15 tricep dips

* 25 sit ups

* 30 leg lifts

I overate like the idiot I am but I did work a lot of it off. Still doesn’t mean that I’m not disappointed in myself. I went to the store after being forced to eat dinner with my family. I was seriously debating throwing up the food in like a bush or something but I didn’t. I probably should have.

[sxinnydreaming]

i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat i’m not gonna eat

IM NOT GONNA EAT

[starve2skinny]

I’ve lost some weight in the past few months but not nearly enough. I’m not going to let that discourage me. I will lose this weight. I will be able to wear nice outfits. I will be confident in my body. I need to get thinner.