Year of Mistakes

Aspiring to be better. To refine the senseless self ~ramblings of the overwhelmed~ On the road of Eating Disorder recovery.

[weltenwellen]

Goatsong Leila Chatti

[starving-muslimah]

It’s been 10 years since I went to an ED clinic and I thought I could have a McDonald’s burger after a rough day.

No

Still a bulimic

I had myself convinced this wasn’t an emotional

That I could choose to eat and not regret my decision, that I wouldn’t end up face first in the toilet. 10 years and I don’t have the self control or the tools.

[weltenwellen]

Wildness Before Something Sublime Leila Chatti

[weltenwellen]

Wildness Before Something Sublime Leila Chatti

[starving-muslimah]

Hating myself comes easy, I am prone to disapprove. I need nothing to help me slide into anger, you disappoint me so. I look at you in disregard, look in anger, do you follow failure, or does it follow you. Look in the mirror, haunting truth. I hate myself.

[weltenwellen]

Andrea Gibson, Lord of the Butterflies

[weltenwellen]

Nikki Giovanni, The Collected Poetry, 1968-1998

[weltenwellen]

Leila Chatti, from "I Went Out to Hear"

[feral-ballad]

I have needed fixing from the moment I was born. I can feel myself falling apart. Does it matter that I am afraid?

Molly McCully Brown, from Places I've Taken My Body: Essays

[weltenwellen]

Czeslaw Milosz, New and Collected Poems: 1931-2001

[naderdawah]

اللهم كن لأهلنا في غزة, اللهم اطعمهم وأمنهم, اللهم انتقم ممن قتلهم وخذلهم

اللهم انصر المجاهدين في الميدان وسدد رميهم يارب العالمين

[eternal-gardens]

He arranges (every) matter... {32:5}

[djappleblush]

Have you ever sat down to read 17 fics all at once that the plots start to merge and you suddenly get an incoherent, jumbled mess of scenarios in your head you are no longer sure of what is happening

Or are you normal?

[eternal-gardens]

[starving-muslimah]

“Don’t give people so much power over you that their silence leaves you questioning your worth.”

— (via sadafatima)

[jfaisal]

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

“It takes me days to recover after a dream with you in it.”

– K

[fromdarzaitoleeza]

{ Words by: Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation //Susan Abulhawa, from Against the Loveless World: A Novel }

[fromdarzaitoleeza]

{Marya Hornbacher from Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia//stay away but come closer via Altusboy on Tumblr}