Ghost

Ghost ED Diary mdni mildly toxic vents

[starvingloverxo]

carving your name into my flesh to match the wound in my heart

you really fucked me over but you still take up too much space in my brain

[starvingloverxo]

guys im so fucking sick of this shit

i just need to be the skinniest bitch ever

[starvingloverxo]

im getting tired of this. my body is so fucked from my habits around my ed that i can't eat anything without my body revolting. usually i can get by with just a stomach ache and mild discomfort but i just at a "normal" amount and almost immediately puked. like my body started to let the food settle and decided pretty quickly it didn't want to bother digesting it. so now im sitting in the bathroom wondering if i got all of it out or if there's more and whether or not it's worth the risk to just go back to what i was doing before. at least im home alone so i don't have to be quiet.

[janetwebberssecret]

My body is filthy and disgusting, I can’t stand to live in it

[starvingloverxo]

will you still be attracted to me when i take off my clothes? when the layers are removed, leaving scars and cuts eager to be seen? marks begging to be noticed finally seeing the light of day once more? a show i want to perform for someone? will you still be interested when i sit down in front of you, blade in my hand begging you to witness my ritual? would you still want me to be your boyfriend when i dig into my flesh and spill my blood for you to watch?

[starvingloverxo]

i dropped 5lb, who cheered?

[starvingloverxo]

admitting to having a high sw on edinternet feels like admitting to commiting a crime or smth

there's a lot of shame with it and you're always comparing yourself. eventually you either lose it all and are one of the thinspo pics that inspired you or you feel helpless and never fully commit, instead binging and gaining/maintaining despite how desperately you wanna be the folks in the pictures you save and the influencers you follow.

[starvingloverxo]

i want to make a friend irl w a similar weight to me so we can compete irl and spiral together but idk how

[starvingloverxo]

i want irl friends who're on this side of the web

[bunnyangelprincesskitten]

guys is ts tuff

[aetherette]

junk0r3x1c as in if you give me a pizza ill have the whole thing at once but im not having a thing for the next week

[starvingloverxo]

fucking end me

[24anastasia24]

[ineedketamine]

id rather have an ana face rather than the fat face i have now

[starvingloverxo]

if i have to be around food with the expectation to eat any longer i am going to lose my fucking mind

[ineedketamine]

if i see the scale go up one more time im killing myself on the spot

[starvingloverxo]