assam

rant acc of a 17 year old practicing muslim girl obsessed with pan islamism

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I miss my girlblogging account

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I hate getting laughed at but I love wearing the niqab for the sake of Allah. the latter will always be a stronger feeling to bear the pain of the first.

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my first like on this account is from a bondage lover

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Am i closer to my period or is everything in my life just fucking horrible

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It's odd how I can type out any deranged thought that comes in my head on this app (haven't done it yet but it feels easy and I can see myself doing that a lot in the future) compared to when I hold an actual paper and pen and try to write my feelings out and then (suddenly i feel disgusted with myself feeling like a hypocrite performative drama queen telling myself nothing is that deep and i should not write anything at all)

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marriage or career

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Health and physical education is fucking boring. I don't want to learn about fucking volleyball and what meter the whole ground is. UGH

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I mean I like it when they talk about touching grass and how dangerous the revolutionary gadgets are and how we're all doomed and the world will end up horribly if we don't get in touch with nature

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I suddenly feel so happy with my life knowing my mum loves me and treats me like a human and doesn't despise me even though i practice niqab (things were different before) alhamdulillah mannnnn

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I love you but you don't understand me

I love you but you don't understand me

I love you but you don't understand me

I love you buy you don't understand me

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وَاذْكُرْ رَبَّكَ فِي نَفْسِكَ

And remember your Lord within yourself

Al-A'raf 7:205

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I miss him but I FUCKING HATE HIM LOL i hope he dies. Ugh but how I miss him. And how i despise every son of Adam that's not him

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Health and physical education is fucking boring. I don't want to learn about fucking volleyball and what meter the whole ground is. UGH

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I belong to no internet culture niche and I'm probably gonna get 0 follows for at least a couple of months but it's fine

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"i hate purity culture" oh ok I didn't ask get well soon i guess

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how I feel wearing a niqab in my muslim majority school (everyone still stares at me like it's something odd but I still love wearing it)

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I am naturally distant. naturally selective. I may be putting a limit to myself by defining myself as certain something but the truth is this is what I've accepted myself into becoming and I feel free to be like this. My energy is not for everyone. I can be nice to everyone but please do not expect me to cater to your needs and existence just because I know you. I like it better and I will always prefer the relations I chose myself. They will always be more beloved to me than situationships (people naturally put in my life). Because I'm the one to choose. I'm the one to let you in my life and allow you to know me and then entertain you accordingly.

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I love you but you don't understand me