I know there are already a lot of great analyses on the Bridge Kiss but I’m just going to throw in my take within the context of the episode and the context of Nick and June’s relationship throughout the series because something I found interesting was the concept of choice and the parallels between Nick and Luke.
As I’ve already mentioned, I am not the hugest fan of Luke but I objectively feel bad for him and one thing I could appreciate about the first three episodes was the exploration of complicated feelings and complicated consequences of certain choices i.e. June didn’t think of what life is like for a child in Gilead, she knew that it would be best for them to leave in the long run (and some immediately) but that some children had attachments and affection for their captors who they view as families, so we see that with Asher/James, with Moira we see her wrestle with her guilt and her love of June but also the way her actions have an impact on her, which is also echoed by Emily, and then we have Luke, who is effectively being torn apart (I think his best acting to date) by knowing that June is doing something that is right and necessary but at the expense of potentially ever coming home to him, and while he can intellectually grasp that,
he still struggles to really understand that and to understand how her love for him fits into that. And that isn’t necessarily his fault, he didn’t live through Gilead so while he can rationalize June’s behaviour and be proud of her and love her, he could never truly understand it, which is why he is asking questions such as, did she choose this? And you can see that disconnect in Moira’s reaction, she doesn’t shame him for asking the question, but her expression is shocked and incredulous
because if he knew what it was like he would never ask that question.
I’m just going to back up a little. I’ve mentioned before in my posts that I love the in between moments of Nick and June in seasons 1 and 2 but particularly season 2:
I think it’s clear that June loves Nick […] what makes it clear for me, are the moments between that, because that’s when you see her struggle and attempt to reconcile all of her situations.
Like I mentioned this before, in 2x03, I think their hug is important, not only because June turns away from Nick and then turns back to him for an embrace:
but because we watch her slowly give into how she feels about the embrace:
and it’s like in 2x09, which I mentioned last week too. After hearing about Luke and Moira and having that life reawakened sort of within her, when Nick tells her he loves her, she can’t say it back:
but when he leans in to kiss her on the cheek, she’s giving into that intimacy and to what she feels and living in that moment with Nick too:
and then I’ve mentioned how also in 2x07 after she allows herself to just be in the kiss,
there’s that sense of guilt that she did do that
and I’ve mentioned that in season 3, with her tape to Luke, she loves him enough to let him know that she found a way to love in Gilead and it was explaining to him that it was OK to let her go
but I think 4x03 truly indicates to her just how much things have changed. Not that she hadn’t known that before but Hannah being scared of her obviously shook her and it devastated her
and obviously she is never going to give up on her daughter and she’s never going to let her go, that’s not going to happen, and the fact that Nick assures her that Hannah loves her emphasizes that
but I think the fact that she pauses and turns back around
but to tell him that she loves him
is her making a choice, which is that this is a man, this is a person who understands her as she is now, who loves her as she is now, who says the things she needs to hear as she is now, who provides her the comfort and will she needs to go on as she is now, this is the person she loves as she is now and I think that’s an organic and beautiful evolution of their relationship.
thank you @splitscreen and @pegscarter for the good gifs!