The Handler

I will not fail. - Warning: possibly disturbing content, 18+ MDNI

[stevie-grant-rogers]

INFO: Welcome to the Handler AU RP!! Handler Au!Bucky RP account: @james-barnes-bucky For handler Au lore/Art: @digital-nocturne This Rp will be exploring themes that may be triggering or disturbing. Please be mindful, Subjects are listed below. Please reference this page when needed, as the list will update as the RP goes.

Self harm/suicidal thoughts medical malpractice abuse (mental and physical)

[stevie-grant-rogers]

Your title says you’re the handler. What are you the handler of?

I’m the designated handler of the own winter soldier, or “asset”. It killed its last Handler, or that’s what I’m told.

And suprisingly it hasn’t killed me yet. I’m sure one day it will, but not yet.

More importantly, who are you?

[stevie-grant-rogers]

Entry #5

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Location: ???

We’re being shipped out tonight. The asset has been prepped, it’s waiting for me and the team in the jet, I almost feel bad seeing it hunched over like that.

The mission has been made clear, at 08:00 tomorrow I’m to take the asset into the city d take out a target. The assignment seems too simple for the ammount of precaution we’re taking.

Anyways— this device hasn’t been discovered yet, Surprisingly. But it has so many interesting features…

[stevie-grant-rogers]

Entry #4

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My heads pounding, I feel naked…the doctor flayed me. This isn’t new, it’s all for improvement.

The treatment makes me stronger. With each dose I’m better.

I was told that I’m being shipped out with the soldier and the S.T.R.I.K.E team tomorrow, DC.

They’ve made it clear this is a big job, I must be perfect, and keep my asset in line.

[stevie-grant-rogers]

Entry #3

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Location: Kennel

Time-Date: 10:47am 04/11/2014

We had a recon mission, went fine I suppose. I couldn’t focus, my orders were sloppy.

But it was difficult to focus on the mission, my superiors have been whispering. They’ve gathered a ‘team’ of some kind. Whatever they’re planning it’s big.

Big enough they’ve started tending to us more often. The asset has been tended to, it’s already returned back to the kennel…I suppose I’m next.

Im scared.

[stevie-grant-rogers]

Entry #2

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Location: Kennel

Time-Date: ??? 2014

My superiors pass by the kennels more often, watching, examining the asset and I. They mumble to eachother and stare, I must’ve done something wrong.

They’ll fix me.

[stevie-grant-rogers]

Entry #1 ----------- Location: Kennel Time-Date: 12:30am ??/??/2014 I found this device on one of my targets, it seems mostly broken but I have this place. From here on out I will use it as my new notebook, mine is too full anyhow, I passed one along to the Asset as well. I'm not sure if it knows how to use it, or even if it knows how to type for that matter. I can see it hunched over in the corner, doing whatever on it's device.

Well, I suppose I should rest for now, if there's anyone out there...hello.

[stevie-grant-rogers]

I don't think Bucky will be mad at you, I think he'll be upset with himself. Does anyone else know yet like Nat or Sam?

I hope not, but yes Sam and Nat know, they came by to drop off the girls and stayed with me for a while.

Making sure I was okay and all that, they absolutely adore the new addition already. Natasha made sure I got in bed and helped set up the babies spot, she’s such a softy…

I’ve decided on a name, Arthur. Of course nothings final until buckys home, hopefully he’ll be back today.

[stevie-grant-rogers]

All clean…I’m exhausted.

The girls should be home, thank god Sam and Nat stepped in to bring them to play group and home.

[stevie-grant-rogers]

Bucky is gonna pissed af

Do you think…? I tried to call him, I really hope he isn’t upset with me😢

[stevie-grant-rogers]

It’s a boy…I need to clean this up, and call @bucky-b-barnes

[stevie-grant-rogers]

Are you in labour and on your own right now?

YES AND IT FUCKING HURTS— I Don’t know what I’m doing!!

[stevie-grant-rogers]

Fuck! Nobody’s picking up— I can do this I can do this. ((?&

Nes/$$/!/‘l-;;/

[stevie-grant-rogers]

Hey, Steve, you good? Do you need someone to call Bucky for you?

Call him, call please! Fuck I don’t remember this being so painful?!

I just— I got to get through this.

Piece of cake, right? Yeah…

[stevie-grant-rogers]

Steve, no. Call Bucky or at least have SOMEONE with you if you're having contractions strong enough to make you want to rest on the floor

No no I’m alright, I’m just resting!

It’s too early for the baby— my due date isn’t till next week. It can’t, I….oh shit.

[stevie-grant-rogers]

I’ve been feeling a lot of braxton hicks these last few days.

But the ones I’m feeling today have taken me down to the floor ha— I just need to rest I think.

[stevie-grant-rogers]

Girls are all set for play group! I’m still feeling a bit off, so luckily Natasha and Sam pitched in to take them to school and to pick them up!