I Just Want To Be Better
I just want to be better. I just want to love you. I just want to make you love me. I just want for you to understand my passion for you. I want things to work. I never want to have things fail. I understand the things that are wrong & I’m trying to be better. I understand how it may take time to mend things back to where they should be. Learning who I am as a person & understanding who the person I love is taking time for me. This is something that is new for me.
I never thought in a million years that things would be like this. I never thought that it would take me this long in my life to learn how to appreciate you. I’m still learning. The only thing in my life that I want to work on is myself. I want to understand how to deal with things that I do not understand or never experienced before. I never thought that I would ever fall so hard for someone I never ever experienced life with.
I only want to understand what this is. I only want to breathe. My chest has caved in & my mind is crowded. Nothing will ever stop me from loving who you are. I understand I had my reservations about everything & as I grew to know you & understand you I never thought about anyone else. Can there be a silver lining at the end of all this. Is this just a test for me, for you or just for us to grow as a single person or as a couple? I hope and pray that things get better, well I know that things will only have to get better because today felt like I hit rock bottom & hope can help me to keep going.
Can we work? Only time will tell…
