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When you help someone, you help everyone. peter parker, penned by xan. formerly boywebbed

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a study in: intention vs. attention, always getting back up , guilt, processing grief, life behind a mask, self-identity, the weight of responsibility, living a double life, learning how to share that weight & how the person you become affects the people around you.

under co. very duplicate friendly. minors dni. extremely LOW activity.

currently reading: Peter Parker, the Spectacular Spider-Man (1976 - 1998)

**MINORS DNI** if you are under 18, i dont want to talk to you! i do not want to talk to children on the internet. if you hide your age & i find out about it, i will block you immediately.

hi! i'm xan, i'm 25 & i never learned how to fucking read. jokes aside, i've been writing peter on & off since 2018. i was formerly at spiderwebbed & boywebbed, but i thought it was time for a fresh start. i've built a mixed canon timeline that cherry picks from my favorite peters & headcanons alike. there is a lot of information to take in & i don't expect anyone to know all of it! I will be highlighting the most important parts of his story on his timeline when i am done reworking it. the last time it was updated was 2022 & there is a lot to add & rearrange. i do ask that if you have any questions about the progression of his story, feel free to ask. i prefer to talk things out than leave any questions hanging.

on that note, tumblr rp is a social hobby as much as it is a creative one to me & i love keeping in contact with my mutuals. however, on this blog it is especially vital to building long-lasting relationships ic & ooc. my availability it not always consistent because i am Literally Insane & need to be away from tumblr sometimes, but that doesn't mean i value the friendships & relationships i make here any less.

i do not practice exclusivity. nothing against anyone who does, it's just not for me! i do, however, have mains. what are mains on this blog? they're characters written by friends who i will go to first for plot ideas. my mains will usually be woven into blog canon, one way or another whether or not that character is written in tumblr! if that is not something that appeals you, that's okay!

i have notoriously spotty activity. it's part of my flavor . it stems from a mix of mental illness & blanacing life, but this is just a hobby to me & it utilizes any energy i have leftover from everything else i have to do to live. this being said, if i don't respond to you ooc right away, again, it is nothing personal. i prefer having friendships & building them up over time, but it does take time & it is not always easy. active on the dash = / = active ooc& if you try to guilt me about this, i will block you <3

i do not have any triggers. i have a few icks, but nothing that triggers a huge emotional reaction from me. i will do my best to be mindful of any triggers that might appear on this blog, but if there is anything i fail to tag please feel free to point it out to me. i would like to maintain a safe space i can share with my friends!

if i'm following you, i absolutely want to interact with you. i want to write with you. i want to plot with you. i reblog a lot of memes & try to send a lot as well. this being said, i do not expect you to respond to everything i send you & vice versa.

i prefer to plot & send memes over starter calls starter calls are fine & dandy, i just become overwhelmed by them quicker than i care to admit & usually do not finish them. i prefer plotted starters & memes with a place we can start already defined.

if we have any problems, i would rather talk about them than leave them hanging between us. if it's worth unfollowing me over, please block me instead. i hate softblocking, I've never understood it & would rather just be blocked. i know this is not always possible because there are sooo many reasons someone might softblock me, but if you don't hardblock me i will probably refollow you without thinking about it.

don't be an asshole. it's easy, it's simple. treat people the way you would like to be treated. if you vague, i will block you. if you bring drama onto my blog, i will block you. i am here to play barbies not mean girls.

i do make art for peter, but it will always be tagged as my art. whether i post it here or on a personal blog, it will be tagged as something i made. if anyone wants to use my art for any reason, just make sure to dredit one of my blogs!

i am so duplicate friendly. i am so thrilled for the opportunity to discuss & share thoughts on peter parker with anyone willing to do so. i do understand, however, that not everyone shares this sentiment. do what you need to do to keep your space safe if you write peter & need to avoid other peter blogs, but if you ever want to talk shop i am sooo super game.

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anyways, i am terribly sorry for going mia across the board. i started a new job, i barely have any writing time & honestly... i have been spending most of my spare time on a hazbin hotel blog. i don't feel super comfortable throwing it in everyone's face because of the source media, but if you like this post i will give you a follow from where i've been writing <3

if you want to chat & DO NOT want to encounter any overlap w that fandom, as always, my discord is human_spine <3!!! all mutuals are welcome to chat w me there.

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anon privileges are gone ❤️

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I recently BURSTED through my writers block via @xbornhungry... so I am going to put in some time on my drafts here tonight!

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Spider-Man by Peach Momoko

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there's a bit of cleanup i need to do on this but i would love some opinions & feedback - something needs to be done to this & i cant figure out what

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okay so i took a little bit of an impromptu writing hiatus. there was just so much going on, i'm working on those art commissions & honestly i dumped all my recreation time into minecraft LOL. i just didn't have any room for writing & i'm Aching for it, so things will be back in action soon! i have the house to myself tonight so i think that is what i'm going to do after dnd <3 i am going to try to catch up w messages from friends, old & new from the past few weeks as well. i've got a productivity dog in me right now & its howling

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&. 𝐡𝐨𝐳𝐢𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐬 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

(  lyric  dialogue  prompts  taken  from  various  hozier  songs.  free  to  change  how  you  seem  fit.  )

❛ i’ve walked the earth and there are so few here that know how dark the night and just how cold the wind can blow. ❜

❛ i’ve no more kept my warmth than blood upon the snow. ❜

❛ it’s not my arms that will fail me, but this world takes more strength than it gave me. ❜

❛ the only heaven i’ll be sent to is when i’m alone with you. ❜

❛ i’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies. ❜

❛ i’ll tell you my sins so you can sharpen your knife. ❜

❛ good god, let me give you my life. ❜

❛ so tired trying to see from behind the red in my eyes. ❜

❛ every version of me dead and buried in the yard outside. ❜

❛ you knew who i was with every step that i ran to you. ❜

❛ would things be easier if there was a right way? ❜

❛ honey, there is no right way. ❜

❛ i fall in love just a little, a little bit every day with someone new. ❜

❛ when you kill the lights and kiss my eyes, i feel like a person for a moment of my life. ❜

❛ you don’t know what hell you put me through. ❜

❛ there’s something tragic about you. ❜

❛ i have never known peace like the damp grass that yields to me. ❜

❛ i have never known hunger like these insects that feast on me. ❜

❛ i’d be home with you. ❜

❛ there’s nothing sweeter than my baby. ❜

❛ no grave can hold my body down, i’ll crawl home to her. ❜

❛ what did you bury before those hands pulled me from the earth? ❜

❛ i will not ask where you came from. i will not ask and neither should you. ❜

❛ just put your sweet lips on my lips. we should just kiss like real people do. ❜

❛ i know who i am when i’m alone. i’m something else when i see you. ❜

❛ you don’t understand, you should never know, how easy you are to need. ❜

❛ don’t let me in with no intention to keep me. ❜

❛ don’t feed me — i will come back. ❜

❛ i’ve known the warmth of your doorways. through the cold, i’ll find my way back to you. ❜

❛ still my heart is heavy with the hate of some other man’s beliefs. ❜

❛ i need you to run to me, run until you feel your lungs bleeding. ❜

❛ when i was a child, i heard voices… some would sing and some would scream. ❜

❛ i learned the voices died with me. ❜

❛ don’t you ever tame your demons, but always keep ‘em on a leash. ❜

❛ you’ve done me wrong for a long time. but after all you’ve done, i never changed my mind. ❜

❛ honey please, try to love me. my love will never die. ❜

❛ nothing fucks with my baby. ❜

❛ if i was born as a black thorn tree, i’d wanna be felled by you, held by you, fuel the pyre of your enemies. ❜

❛ ain’t it warming you, the world going up in flames? ❜

❛ i couldn’t utter my love when it counted, but i’m singing like a bird about it now.❜

❛ i’m almost me again, she’s almost you. ❜

❛ i’ve had no love like your love. from nobody. ❜

❛ make your good love known to me, or just tell me about your day. ❜

❛ i’d suffer hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight. ❜

❛ that’s the kinda love i’ve been dreaming of. ❜

❛ i fell in love with the fire long ago. ❜

❛ with each love i cut loose, i was never the same. ❜

❛ i had been lost to you, sunlight, and flew like a moth to you. ❜

❛ know that i would gladly be the icarus to your certainty, oh my sunlight. ❜

❛ i have never loved a darker blue than the darkness i have known in you. ❜

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i will be putting this update on the commissions post as well, but twix made it home! thanks to everyone who come together to help support me & me girl we put together the money to get her to the vet & get her home ( which includes a car ride from indiana to virgnia )

she's back on the right food & has been given steroids & antibiotics to help her bounce back. she ended up having a cyst on her mouth that the antibiotics are helping with & ulcers on her tummy from stress & overgrooming. we also ended up removing one of the kittens my sister had in her care because of the unsafe conditions the cats were being kept in. we are going to foster her for a little while & rehome her in a few months when she's big enough to eat normal kitten food!

she is on the way to recovery as we speak, but she still has some vet care in her future so i will keep the commissions post up. she is safe, she is recovering & all i can do now is keep up on her care until she bounces back. i can't thank everyone enough for coming together & giving me a real sense of community. thank you again - here is twix at home at last! tw for the ulcers on her belly. they are already looking better than when i picked her up, thankfully!

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thanks to the support of my really amazing, wonderful friends twix is home. she saw a vet yesterday & we drove out & brought her home the night of. she has a long road to recovery, but she is home now. we also ended up stealing a kitten my sister had because of some unsafe conditions who we're planning on rehoming but needed to be removed from that environment.

i will make a more detailed update post on twix & the vet's verdict when i'm not so exhausted. she has external stress unduced ulcers & a cyst on her mouth, all of which can be treated but it might take a few months for her to bounce back.

but thank you so, so much to everyone who gave a fuck. it really reminded me what it felt like to have a community that you love & exist in & it was really touching for people to care about me & my girl like that. honestly, i need to play some fucking minecraft or i'm going to explode but i needed to express my gratitude before i could really settle into the peace so many loved ones have come together to enable.

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okay, everyone! i usually try to keep my struggles off of this blog because i do treat it as a safe place to draw & exist & not worry. however, my sweet little cat twix ( alternatively known as tweeb, twee bob boo bop or tweeby deeby ) does not have that luxury. i trusted my elderly cat into my sister's care two months ago because of a cross country move + a cat limit on my lease. i thought i could trust her with twix's special needs, but i was mistaken. she has gone downhill severely in those two months & i am trying to raise funds to take her to the vet & go & get her!

this is the only way i know how. so, for a limited time i am offering cheap commissions in order to do so! featured above are examples of the different kind of art i can offer. below the cut are going to be brief descriptions of what those include.

donations are greatly appreciated & encouraged. message me via tumblr im's if you're interested in a commission! venmo: ( edit: my venmo was not working so i am using my roomate's venmo now! ) amber-stockman-123

$20 headshots: a full color digital drawing featuring your character from the shoulders up on a textured or flat background. +$10 for extra elements like flowers, hands or backgrounds! this can be flexible.

$30 half body: a full color digital drawing feautring your character from the waist or knees up. this includes a simple background ( ex: a desk, a window, the sky. ) + $10 for extra elements like writing in a journal, drinking coffee, holding an animal.

$50 sketch page: an uncolored page of at least five drawings of your character. this includes extra elements, animals, characters & actions. + $10 for any extra sketch over the five included + $10 to color every sketch on the page

$60 tarot inspired drawing: a fully rendered drawing inspired by a tarot card. this can reflect a specific card or just the overall style of one, but this includes all extra single character elements ( background, animals, castles, you name it! ) it will be +$15 for any extra characters in these drawings because of the effort that goes into rendering them!

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Let me know what you think of this comic style! I'm having fun with ecm lately haha

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final destination au where our muses are the last in the death order trying to escape their fates,

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🐢 turtle of positivity says: just remember you're loved. you're appreciated. your muse / muses are unique. and you're an important part of the rpc ! 🐢

i am holding this turtle so gently in my hands rn. thank you for sending this <3 i have been feeling very in like, a creative rut when it comes to writing lately? i talked to a friend recently about like. how i am recognizing things in my writing i don't like & i'm trying to learn how to change & grow beyond those things. it's a big part of why its been so hard to write here. usually, i am writing in my notebook all the time regardless of if i have time to sit at my computer or not but it's just not been working tht way lately. that plus how busy i've been ooc have been making me feel really disconnected with the community & my friends so it hit very hard when you sent this to me & like shared that positivity. idk there is something very special about being reminded that friends still think of me even if i'm not around & it just hit a little harder than usual. so thank you i appreciate this so much <3

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There.

Oh, right there. Peter's cry was pure music to Jason's ears as he kept working his lips and fingers where Peter craved him the most. And the praise falling from Peter's lips on choked off moans, had him grinding his own hard cock into the sheets. But apart from that small indulgence, Jason ignored his own mounting need in favor for Peter's pleasure, because each moan held a promise of how beautiful it would be when Jason would bring the other man to his peak... and Jason was hungry for it. The press of his finger pumping into him was steady, and Jason made sure to keep the crook of his fingers just so that Peter's legs quivered around him. That's it - let it go, sweetheart, I have you - Jason couldn't say it, not with his mouth as occupied as it was, but their eyes met, and the words lingered heavily in the air between their bodies.

oh, how sweet it was to see they way jason grinds & groans! it's not something peter ever wants to forget. to his credit, peter does try to hold on a little bit longer. he was a stubborn bastard on his best day & he's got a point to prove. except, jason has done precisely what he promised he'd do.

it was hard to think beyond the way he worked peter's body, from the building pressure, from the assurance in the way jason holds him, the way he looks at him. rarely did he let himself want anything like he wanted jason now. he cries out again with jason's silent permission, his body is taken by a wave of fire. his sensitive body recoils. he's breathing heavily when he scoots back & away from jason's attentive touch.

a few breaths scarcely pass before peter is sitting up. he whimpers at the friction between his legs from the movement, but eager brown eyes are fixated on jason. there is no overthinking behind them, they burn with something else. there is a sincerity in his hunger when he shifts to crawl towards jason, an action driven by desire. peter places a hand on the back of jason's neck & steals his mouth in a furious kiss. when he breaks away, he breathes his words against jason's lips, desperate, " let me touch you, please, " his voice cracks, repeating, " please. "

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He was doing it.

Funny, how meeting up with his new neighbor made him realize that he was doing it. Ever since coming to New York, Jason had just thrown himself into the work, into the applications, into the courses, and hadn't stopped to think. Hadn't stopped to look back at what he had already achieved.

And Peter just casually mentioned it, with something close to pride in his voice.

Jason stepped away from the edge, towards Peter. ''After showing me this, you've earned my curiosity. Lead on.''

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peter knew what it was to keep moving. to not give himself enough room to stop & look at what he had done so far. so there is something about jason's gaze that strikes a chord within him, something familiar & different all at once. he sucks in a quick breath before nodding. peter had made made way through college quickly. there had been many close calls, missed tests, emails begging for extensions... but he had never been good at staying down. now he was always chasing any internship, any job looking to hire someone with his experience. it wasn't like his old boss, doc oc, could give him a reference, after all!

so, he had a few different study spots across the city from the good ol' days. he still uses them if he needs a quiet place to work on his research papers, on his job applications, on anything he needed a fresh environment to focus. it's inching closer towards lunchtime & peter thinks that maybe he can hit two birds with one stone. he takes jason to a cafe, a few blocks away. it's nestled in the bricks of an old building, one that's been there many years beyond the cafe itself. even from outside he can see the array of plants the owners have placed in the windows, offering some sense of privacy against the city's streets.

" okay, so, so this is a student hotspot. my old roommate & i used to come here & find study-buddies all the time, " he rambles... he hadn't come here in too long. some part of him still expected to see harry sitting in their old spot. he diverts his attention from nostalgia onto jason, a joke stealing his voice, " only the cool english majors hang out here. plus, the building's historic! "

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' once upon a time, i had somebody that i cared about '

" that sounds ominous, " spider-man pokes at the other, keeping a thin veil of sarcasm over his voice. even that cannot hide his curiosity. losing people was a part of the job, a part of the lives they led... but peter had the privilege of choosing that life. the loss inflicted upon him was of his own making, carrying that blame often kept peter tethered to the world. bucky, however, was not so lucky. there were many pieces of bucky's story that were written by another hand. spoken by other voices.

" well, 'once upon a time' or not they must be pretty special, " he continues. there is something intimate at the thought of bucky caring about someone, about the thought of him missing them. he wonders if they creep into his mind when their favorite weather happens or when he drinks their favorite drink. how long had it been since he'd seen them? who were they, who was he, really? " wanna tell me about them? "