Doing so without a thought.
Sitting in unpleasant irony.
The right hand grasps my knee.
Knowing, feeling, every nerve.
Pulses of torturing electricity.
I wish this not upon my son,
A seed grows inside of me.
A tree of consistent agony.
All from such a tiny boulder.
Itās roots setting deep,
right leg, left arm, right shoulder.
A healthful plant, you see.
As itās made itself a happy home,
Fierce a furnace stoked alight,
of Hellfire and Brimstone.
To Satans horrible delight,
cackling from his throne.
I bite down tight as a carpenters clamp.
Grinding my teeth as a miller does grain.
The brain has its tricks of fighting,
And when itās all calmed over,
I just wait to weather it again.