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[mournfulroses]

Ariel Day, from a poem titled "Games," featured in Black Roses: Poems about Love, Heartbreak, Mental Health, Self Love

[96kia-deactivated20220818]

Of course I touch myself a lot. Wouldn’t you touch me too?

[somewordsarebiggerthanothers]

[whyenn-reader]

as good of a time as any to share my list of activities I do during what i like to call Scheduled Soul Maintenence to avoid burnout

go on an aimless bike/ride/walk - move your body, do it for as long as you feel like it, discover new places near you weather that is a frog or a cafe

watch a new movie/read a new book/listen to a new album - get inspired, excercise having opinions and longer attention span, break out of consuming content and make a choice about what you want to expirience

create something in a medium i haven't used in a while - get out of a habit, rekindle a flame you haven't been upkeeping, making a friendship bracelet counts

go have a fun new drink/snack - arguably most important, have a little treat without rush, slow down and focus on physical sensations, treat yourself in a way that isn't landfillcore

meet with friends and/or go to a place where you meet strangers - human connection is good for you, (maybe some casual sex if you like that/try something new with your partner)

make some bad art - create for the sake of creating without any expectations

play an instrument - this can be anything that makes you reach a kind of flow state

go see something you haven't yet - get to know the cultural/geographical map of your area, this includes events, places, or just anything that makes you go out of your way to expirience something new, can be like a viewpoint or it can be a museum exhibit, anything you find cool

cook/bake something new - nurish your body, break out of cooking habits and routine, make it an event, plate it nicely too and i would like to point out that none of these have to cost more money than your usual lifestyle.

[wordslaver]

I told you what hurt me most and you did it perfectly.

[isolate]

“You make me happier than I ever thought I could be. And if you let me, I will spend the rest of my life trying to make you feel the same way.”

- Chandler Bing, May 18th 2000.

[str8-as-a-circle]

“When it comes to feeling suicidal, people stop taking you seriously after awhile. If you were going to kill yourself, surely you would have done it by now. The thing about “Crying Wolf” is that the wolf is invisible, but it’s still there. The wolf is inside my head snarling with its sharp teeth dripping blood, its cold dead eyes never blinking, its hunger unsatisfied. The reason I’m crying wolf, is because the wolf is going to kill me.”

— Jaiden Jarvis (via jaidos13)

[str8-as-a-circle]

“And when you don’t reply the anxiety kicks in, screaming that you want me gone from your life and that you find me annoying and no matter how hard I try I can’t block out the voices, I can’t stop annoying you because you are the only person who calms the voices…”

— (via typical-suicidal-teen)

[tellherium]

I didn't deserve it. I know that now. I knew it then. I guess it's partly my fault, too. Neither of us treated me like someone we loved.

[str8-as-a-circle]

“The trees have been telling me to go home ever since I came here, but I don’t know where that is. Home used to be with you and you are gone now, so that was what I wanted to be, too. To be so far gone that all pain is dulled, to be so far gone I’d forget why I even came here. But the river won’t let me forget. The moon won’t let me forget. And the trees, oh the trees, they’re telling me this is not where I’ll find what I’m looking for. But what if what I’ve been so desperately trying to get back was never you to begin with? What if I lost something fundamental on the day you left that had never anything to do with you? I’ll follow the whispers, I think. The whispers I can only hear when the doubts inside of me have died down and I’ve finally learnt how to listen.”

— gone / n.j. (via ninasdrafts)

[poetsbloom]

I feel too small for the world tonight,

But that's okay.

Sometimes i like the thought of travelling the earth unnoticed.

[str8-as-a-circle]

“Appreciation is the final resting place of grief. I learned this when her goodbye was how I realized that I loved her from the moment she said hello. I listen nowadays to the songs we sang when we were together, and some days I cry but not always out of pain but for the honor of meeting someone who meant the whole world to me even when during those moments I didn’t know she was the love of my life. I treat the memories of her like a library, and I am silent because it is a sacred place where I grew in the wisdom that sometimes we need to let go of someone not because we no longer love them but because we always will and what matters most is the happiness they deserve even when we’re no longer a part of it like the death of a star that gives birth to a supernova and the memories catches its last breath and moves on. I miss her, and I guess a part of me will carry that feeling till’ the day I die, but as long as I’m alive, I will carry on with grace in my heart, and perhaps one day when I meet her at a corner of the street, a soft café or anywhere on this earth I will thank her for the privilege of sharing my brightest days with her and know that I wouldn’t have missed that for the world.”

— Juansen Ryne Dizon, Sunset (via juansendizon)

[stolen-ferrari]

“Hell is other people.”

— Jean-Paul Sartre (via neckkiss)

[missinyouiskillingme]

You knew what you were doing and you knew it would hurt me, but somehow that didn’t stop you..

[-ellolovely]

[logophile-teen]

"I am writing this to say

I am not leaving you forever

I am going to get better

and then I'll come home"

- "Soup Is One Form Of Salt Water" by Heather Christle

[perfectquote]

“Lately I’ve been thinking about who I want to love, and how I want to love, and why I want to love the way I want to love, and what I need to learn to love that way, and who I need to become to become the kind of love I want to be…and when I break it all down, when I whittle it into a single breath, it essentially comes out like this: Before I die, I want to be somebody’s favorite hiding place, the place they can put everything they know they need to survive, every secret, every solitude, every nervous prayer, and be absolutely certain I will keep it safe. I will keep it safe.”

— Andrea Gibson