Service with a smile.

I'M PAULA Full of random and mostly useless facts.

[straightpeachyco]

Hai First selfie of 2018

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[jjjjjjjjjjohn]

top 9 favorites of 2019.  see you in the twenties :)

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[straightpeachyco]

Gbye friendo,

I always appreciated you being there. You held my tears as I broke down, you held my smoke as I smoked my feelings away. You provided me with the transportation to get away when I moved out and ultimately to get away from Indiana. You never ceased to be unreliable. You started up every damn time. Sometimes your electrical was fucked but you always got me where I needed to go.

Although you were so good to me, you harbored a lot of bad memories. And because of those memories, I fucking hated you. You were purchased by an asshole. You were purchased because I was driving a car that he wanted, that he specifically went out of his way to get. That he specifically did not list me on the insurance for so I couldn't drive it.

So sayonara you rattler. I won't miss you, but thank you for being there through the toughest time of my life.

[insomniacsarchive]

My ex liked this on Facebook, and I saw it and had a fucking meltdown. So here is my response to him, that he’ll never see. But I needed to get it out. And if you do see it, fucker, please read it, understand it, and kindly fuck off. And yeah I don’t care how I sound, looking at what my ex liked on fb. We have a ton of mutual friends after having been inseparable for 5 years, and I just happened to see. Went ahead and blocked him again because I can’t deal with it. He’s out living a great life with her and I’m just here.

“Oh. Is that your take on what happened?

Because you didn’t have a conversation with me. You just told me you were leaving. I asked for weeks. I asked pretty much everyday. I asked you what I did wrong. I begged you for some sort of explanation for closure. But I didn’t get that. Because you didn’t have the most basic decency, or respect for me to even let me in on why my life had to crumble away. You didn’t want to have a conversation. You just wanted to fuck some girl you knew from work. Who you literally referred to as a child a month or so prior when explaining that Devon at work had been hitting on her. You told me you started your relationship with her because I asked. You told me that, verbally, the last time I ever spoke to you. And I ended up blocking you from texting and on social media the next day, because I knew at that point I would never get the closure I needed and you owe to me. So don’t fucking try to sit there and say we had a conversation and I didn’t take it well, or didn’t understand, or whatever. You LIED to me. You BETRAYED me. You USED me. It’s no coincidence that you left me immediately after filing your paperwork for citizenship. And it hurts me badly to even acknowledge that. You would call everyone else trash for doing exactly what you did. But it’s okay because it’s you who did it this time, right? Right.”

[straightpeachyco]

I'm gonna highjack this real quick for the MINISCULE chance that you would see this. I hope that you have a period in your life for self reflection to think about what you've done. You've never been single in your life- all you do is jump girl to girl and use them for your own gain and dump them as soon as they've given you what you needed in that time. All you did was lie to me through our relationship. You ignored me for MONTHS stating at first that you were too stressed because we couldn't afford things and towards the end, told me that you left me because I've been working too much. WELL WHICH WAS IT?

We did everything to make you happy. If anything YOU left US because we had conversations about our feelings, standards, and/or expectations too much.

One day, years from now, I hope that you give everyone the closure they deserve. How long has it been since us? 6 years? 7 years? Now I'm in a happy relationship- absolutely no contact for these years. I don't doubt my relationship or fear that he'll cheat on me or manipulate me like you did. But there are days that I still struggle with thinking that there is a CHANCE that anyone I value in life will do that to me. To this day, I still haven't had closure. I really feel like everything I knew during 'us' was nothing but a goddamn lie.

I hope your purgatory is forced reflection on what pain and suffering you've inflicted on people who didn't deserve it.

[gotitforcheap-deactivated201611]

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I want to Die

[princesstigerbelle]

When u go into work and realize ur gonna be working short staffed

[straightpeachyco]

[valtsv]

“being into (genuinely harmless thing which annoys some people but isn’t actually hurting anyone) is kinda cringe lol”

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[breeeliss]

they don’t tell you what anxious impulsivity looks like. 

when people imagine anxiety, they always imagine risk averse behavior. you overthink, you’re deliberate, your thinking is catastrophic, and you’re always thinking through seventeen possible scenarios in which things can go wrong. 

but sometimes you’re so anxious and things feel so horrible that you do things without thinking because you want the bad feelings to stop. you say something stupid in a group chat, so you immediately leave all of your servers and block your friends so that you don’t have to see the aftermath. you’re unsure about your relationship, so you break up with your partner out of nowhere or you wake up one morning and just decide to ghost them so you don’t have to deal with it anymore. you’re uncomfortable at a party with people you don’t know, so you run outside and take the train home at 3am without realizing how dangerous that is because you just need to leave. 

your anxiety can get so bad that, in an attempt to feel safe and secure, you can’t predict what you’ll do next. 

[straightpeachyco]

HOLY FUCK YOU PUT IT IN ACTUAL WORKS

[quotemadness]

“My mother said the cure for thinking too much about yourself was helping somebody who was worse off than you.”

— Sylvia Plath

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Via bidoof apologist