strange-kaleidoscope

she/they "the only water in the forest is the river" interests: chemistry, math, music, chinese culture, sewing, philosophy, the color blue, cpop, and sci-fi chronically tired bi girl :P

[grouphug33]

Eva and Grace’s dynamic is so important to me. They’re in love platonically. Like, that’s not a common dynamic. She put the way he likes his coffee into the ship’s computer. He follows her around like a puppy. In the book, she cracks jokes with him and him only. She cares about his opinion. He was the only one she asked about the coma gene, wondering if it was worth it.

He’s her best friend, and she doesn’t even know it. They’re so close, that in the book, people think they’re sleeping together, and poor Grace is so confused because he thought that was his platonic work wife, wdym people think we’re sleeping together, that’s my person that I crack jokes with and then she glares at me because they’re not funny.

She’s softer with him than anybody else and is only ever vulnerable around him. We see in the movie, he’s the only one who ever gets her to smile, and sometimes even laugh, and then she serenades all of them, but mainly him, and he stares at her with those big, shiny eyes so lovingly, and she points at him when she sings, “everything’s gonna be alright”, and then she gives him those eyes, so loving.

And then she’s trying to stop herself from crying when she’s sending him away because, against her will, he’s become her person, and somewhere along the way, she’s become his, and they will have forever ended this relationship on bad terms, and nothing can fix that.

It’s a platonic tragedy. It’s a platonic love story. This is something we don’t get often, or, like, ever, and it’s deep and it’s tragic and it’s sad.

But even after, Eva’s still taking care of him. Packing clothes she knew would bring him comfort. Programming the ship to know how he likes his coffee. And Grace is still watching out for her, speaking to her directly in his video logs, with that same lopsided smile he used to throw her way.

He uses Rocky’s sign for goodbye, and she uses it back, and how did this book and movie give us such a deep platonic friendship because, guys, this NEVER HAPPENS.

Eva and Grace, the platonic male/female friendship of all time.

[crabussy]

I bet it feels real good to be a sailing ship when they tighten the rigging

[crabussy]

wrong. everyone get more perverted about marine vessels now and I'm not kidding

[crabussy]

this post reaching Actual Ship Captains is beyond delightful holy moly

[goatedgreen]

every person you meet will have one bit that only they find funny. it is important that you hate that bit as much as possible in order to enrich their experience of doing the bit. it is part of the enjoyment of the bit

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

Defend disabled people who aren't only making the healthiest possible choices forever. We need to stop holding the people with the least resources to the highest standards of health. We need to stop pointing fingers at disabled people who aren't even doing anything your average abled person isn't also doing.

[positivelyqueer]

hey here’s a secret: self esteem and self worth are actually different things.

I struggled for the longest time because people (usually therapists) assumed I had poor self esteem. But I don’t. I genuinely think I’m a wonderful, kind and strong person who makes meaningful art and puts kindness out into the world.

But self worth is believing you are worth something just as you are. On your bad days. That you’re not your productivity, or your creative output, or your usefulness to others. Just as you are right now.

And so long as you think your worth is tied to any of those things you’re going to burn yourself out in a self imposed meritocracy. You are worthy of love and care and kindness just as you are. And of food and joy and rest. You never have to earn any of these things.

[000l]

You meet someone new and y'all bond so effortlessly and you are like "where have you been all my life?'' then two weeks later they go back to where they have been all your life lol and the cycle continues

[synnthamonsugar]

Embrace your divine feminine energy by taking part in traditional women's hobbies & interests like experimenting with radioactive materials, developing mathematics, programming computers, piloting aircraft and practicing marksmanship.

[strange-kaleidoscope]

2nd week of chem eng internship in the books 🧪💕

there's this really nice walkway with trees on my way to work and it's quickly becoming one of my favorite routes!

my mentor said that i am going to be working on how to minimize mass transfer limitations through doing reactions in droplet form, so one of my tasks for now is to figure out how to make the reaction and flow rate work! essentially they are paying me to make bubbles! how fun! i learned that droplets are called "plugs" and the spaces between them are called "slugs" and it has never been harder for me to take a paper seriously 😭

also went to a revolving sushi place and an ice cream place w my sister 💚

[strange-kaleidoscope]

met up w/ my friend in boston this past friday and went for a walk :)

[greppelheks]

@adelinejclose

[strange-kaleidoscope]

train ride from boston back to my house :) i love trains

i had to unfold all my kusudama and they fit nicely into this small ziploc! i also made this new yellow and blue kusudama

[strange-kaleidoscope]

first week of chem eng internship!! 🧪💕

i've been looking forward to starting my internship for a while, and it definitely did not disappoint. since i started, ive been enlightened as to how much i still Do Not Know and how much (or how little) i do know. which is fun!!! getting to work in the lab and do science every day while broadening my knowledge is amazing, and i think i might have found my calling even though there is still so much to learn about and do in scientific research.

everyone here is so nice and even though they have multiple degrees in their fields and know a lot about what they are doing, they don't make me feel inferior for asking about things i have yet to understand (such as nmr spectroscopy). i also bought this general chemistry book that i hope to go through slowly in the next 2 months so that i know more chemistry.

in my free time i make kusudamas, read, practice, and hang out with my sister. i also might be able to sail later this month!

i genuinely can't remember a time when i was this happy lol

[strange-kaleidoscope]

balls lately :)

lately i've been really into making kusudama!! i spent approximately 25 dollars to buy 1000 sheets of origami paper on a whim and ive been having sm fun folding :))

these are all icosahedral, with the exception of the cube and the fan-patterned red and blue kusudama with curved petals. my fav is the pink/midnight blue one (the pic with my computer in it), it now lives on my desk at the place i intern at.

im always looking for new kusudama patterns/tutorials so if you have a cool one just drop it in the replies and i can try it :)

[slightfal]

at my desk. straight up "passing it". and by "it", haha, well. let's justr say. My class

[thememedaddy]

[mathysphere]

HAPPY PI DAY!

For this year's celebratory pattern I wanted to tackle a dream project of mine: stitching a functional unit circle. The French knots (all 100 of them!) around the lower circle represent the coordinates of each point (sans radicals and negative signs), and the upper circle shows how sine and cosine can be found by following a point around a circle's circumference.

[pattern here] [previous pi day patterns here]

[ziggyplayedd]

things that made me stop wanting to die that require no effort whatsoever

change the color used to highlight text on your laptop

move the pictures on your wall

stack whatever clutter is in your room into piles even if you don’t have time to clean it all

slightly vary your commute, even just by one street

change where you sit and scroll aimlessly on your phone even if it’s only to the chair in your room instead of your bed

drink water or juice out of a wine glass in the morning because nothing is real

shower with the lights off, without music

buy $3 flowers at trader joe’s—they look bad next to the more expensive ones but they look so good in your room

start typing things you don’t post into your notes. your thoughts can be worth documenting even if you don’t deem them worth sharing

wake up super early just once. you don’t have to make it a habit it’s just extra satisfying to go to bed that night

listen to the entirety of your favorite album from 2015

[sandersstudies]

Almost all of these are about variety. Humans need stimulation! We need enrichment! We literally cannot do the same thing every day!

The other day I was feeling miserable, so I hopped on a bus and rode it all the way back to where I’d started, and my brain, which had finally had some proper stimulation via new environments, was suddenly ready to go again!

This is why taking walks/drives and trying new hobbies are good for you! Don’t turn yourself into a sad zoo animal! You need some pumpkins to roll around in your enclosure!

[yippeeepenid]

ITS BACK!!!!!

god i fucking love the quote “dont turn yourself into a sad zoo animal” it has really inspired me!