ღ A toi, pour toujours

⊹ Cammie Nhi Nguyen ⊹ French, Chinese & Vietnamese ⊹ College Student ⊹ ISFP ⊹ I live to eat & travel ღ I have an obsession with Rilakkuma and Korilakkuma ⊹ Here is where I blog about things that linger in my mind...

[strawberrienhi]

I didn't realize it was possible to hold both love and loss so deeply at the same time. I’m grateful to have found someone who makes me feel seen. Who lets me miss and grieve my James without question, and who quietly walks beside me as I navigate this journey. It’s a reminder that love after loss doesn’t erase... It gently makes room.

[strawberrienhi]

"The reason you dissociate in your towel after you shower, sit in your car after you park and mindlessly scroll social media all night after work is because you're living in a "functional freeze state" where you can still get things done, but it takes every once of your energy to do it. This is why you're chronically exhausted, space out often, and why you can be social at work but then ignore every text once you get home."

[strawberrienhi]

Today marks one year since James left this world.

Life without him has been tough, and I sometimes wanted to give up. But our family and friends have been my pillars of strength, supporting me when I felt I couldn’t continue.

James - You will always be in my heart until we see each other again.

[ff-t]

[strawberrienhi]

On what should have been our 9th anniversary, I can still feel your laughter and happiness in the air, even though the past 8 months have been extremely tough without you. Missing you so much, but finding some comfort in thinking you're watching over me.

[strawberrienhi]

It's more than the absence of joy; it's a profound emptiness that tugs at the edges of my being. The weight of missing him amplifies, tears tracing a poignant narrative in the shadows where I find solace

[strawberrienhi]

The memories I hold of him serve as an anchor, allowing me to hold on to the cherished moments, the very essence of who he was, and the previous treasures I never want to let go

[strawberrienhi]

My love, there isn't a day that goes by without you in my thoughts. You will forever live in my heart.

[strawberrienhi]

I miss you in waves and tonight I'm drowning.

[nightlyquotes]

“Someday, someone is going to look at you with a light in their eyes you’ve never seen, they’ll look at you like you’re everything they’ve been looking for their entire lives. Wait for it.”

— Unknown

[strawberrienhi]

Saying goodbye isn't always an option we have. And that's truly heart-wrenching. Because when I last saw him, it never crossed my mind that it might be our final farewell.

[strawberrienhi]

I still remember the days when you were here with me. The days I looked at you and you were already looking at me. The days when I wake up and find your sweet good morning texts. The days when you would surprise me from behind, saying hi and wrapping your arms around me. I cherish those memories dearly and miss them, and most of all, I miss you.

I wish you were still here with me.

[strawberrienhi]

I miss you in ways that not even words can understand.

[strawberrienhi]

Your memory holds a special place in my heart, like a comforting home. Even when my thoughts wander, they inevitably return to you, drawn by the warmth and familiarity you've left behind.

[lsleofskye]

[strawberrienhi]

There are moments when I really want to bring him down from heaven. I long to spend one more day with him, to embrace him tightly, to bid him farewell with another kiss, or to hear his voice once more. I want one more opportunity to say "I love you."

[lll-ll-ll-lll]