i'm gonna take a moment to appreciate this work. Literary had me in tears, it's currently 1 AM as i write this. The whole rollercoaster ride of emotions was just sickening, Jude being an asshole made me want to hug Sharpness genuinely. AND THE FACT THAT HE CUT OFF HIS HAIR LITERARY HURT MY HEART.
Another thing that really hit me was the fact that Sharpness got so used to hearing Jude's angry voice to the point where he yearned to hear him say something in his normal voice broke me so much i spent 5 minutes crying /gen
But that's the whole point of a story, no?
High five to Aekerontik, truly a goated writer, i will be waiting for more of your works.
( @theriverofwoe << author! go support them!! (≧▽≦) )
Sharpness, on total accident, once heard JudeLow mentioning ‘Gold Scar’. It was usually to suddenly mention it, so with all hope, he decided to ask Godis. Little did he know that ‘Gold Scar’ was JudeLow's nickname (or code name?) for him. Oh—and the fact that Godis and Parker are their wing men.. Who would've known?
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judelow — “text”
sharpness — “text”
godispasen — “text”
parkergamebrain — “text”
[ AO3 VERSION ]
“Yo Godis!”
Godis quickly whipped around, finding JudeLow—our favourite trapper, run up to him as Sharpness follows behind. “Can you be our middle man? We're making a trade and i don't trust Sharp.” Sharpness seems to pout a little at that.
Godis tilts his head in confusion, but after remembering that these two basically has no trust over each other (especially after Sharpness betrayed Jude and blew up his base twice).
Godis quickly takes his communicator out, typing a message as the public chat instantly gets it. Sharpness whips his communicator open, Jude tries to look over at it, but Sharpness just swats his head away. Jude groans slightly, finally taking out his own.
> godispasen: sure
> godispasen: what's the trade?
“I'm giving him my mace for like.. a whole bunch of things- i honestly forgot already.” Jude looks up a little, rubbing his own chin. “5 stacks of golden apples, 1 gear set and 2 swords.” Sharpness answers for him. “3 swords. Don't try to gaslight me, now.” Jude whips his head at Sharpness, who simply stuck his tongue out.
> godispasen: nice
> godispasen: give me the items
Jude drops his mace, punching Sharpness away so that Godis could actually pick it up. Sharpness let's out a little whiny “Hey!” at that, but Jude just chuckles. Sharpness rolls his eyes, dropping his shulker box full of those items, and punches Jude in return (who didn't even try to get it).
Godis checks the shulker box, confirming the items, then finalizing the trade. He hands Jude the shulker box and gives Sharpness the mace. Sharpness seems a little excited to finally have a mace, quickly mutters a thanks and runs off.
“Well, at least he didn't scam me.” Jude says, watching as Sharpness go. He turns back to Godis, his bunny ears flat behind his head. Godis nods, agreeing with Jude's words. He's quite suprised that Sharpness didn't try to scam him.
Jude feels his communicator viberate, checking it.
> godispasen whispers to you: isn't the mace more valuable than that shulker tho?
> godispasen whispers to you: since only a few people have it and you basically trapped everyone who did have it lol
> godispasen whispers to you: i'm surprised you gave it to him!
Jude chuckles a bit to himself. “I'm fully aware, but gold scar seemed very desperate to have one. I couldn't resist. I mean, do you see how happy he looks just getting a stupid mace?” Jude's left bunny ear twitches at the thought.
> godispasen whispers to you: who knew you could be so kind lol
“Okay.. i'm not that rude.”
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“GODIS!!!!”
Godis was definitely not expecting someone to yell today (again), and especially not his name (again). Sharpness almost tripped on the copper stairs, thankfully Godis managed to catch him before he fell face first. “Godis! Thaaaankk god, you're online!”
Godis simply nods, watching as Sharpness dust off his armor. “Great catch by the way.” Sharpness compliments, Godis was the type of guy to be used with compliments, but yet never not appreciates them.
“Mind doing me a favor?” Godis' eyes perked, pulling out his communicator. Sharpness obviously did the same, not to be rude, but this type of interaction is really weird to Sharpness. But he can't exactly force a mute person to speak.
> godispasen whispers to you: depends, what's the favor?
Sharpness looks up, trying to form a sentence for it that doesn't sound insane. “You're friends with Jude, right?” Godis was about to type on his communicator before Sharpness interrupts. Godis was about to type on his communicator before Sharpness interrupts. “No need! I know the answer is a yes.” Godis looks up, his expression giving ‘oh’, but in a nice way, of course.
“I basically need you to somehow bait him into going to spawn and so that i can jump him.” Godis raises an eyebrow. That's.. a weird request. “Uh.. You must be asking why. Well, recently i heard he's been saying ‘gold scar’ alot to Parker. I've been meaning to find out what that means. I mean, i know it's some super epic rare weapon but like, there's no gold scar in Minecraft.”
Godis' eyes widen, his mind mentally saying ‘ahh..’ in an understanding tone. He types on the communicator again.
> godispasen whispers to you: there's no need for you to bait him for that
> godispasen whispers to you: i know what it means and i can tell you
“Oh really? Sick! What does it mean, Godis?” Godis stays silent for a minute. Should he do this? Because this is a private nickname between Jude and his closest friends. “Are you leaving me hanging?” Godis lifts his hand up in a ‘stop’ motion. Asking Sharpness to give him a second.
He walks back inside his base while Sharpness waits outside. He then pulls out his communicator again and selects JudeLow.
> You whisper to JudeLow: hey Jude
> You whisper to JudeLow: Jude
> JudeLow whispers to you: ?
> JudeLow whispers to you: what is it, Godis?
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Jude stares at his communicator, Parker is adjusting some redstone. They're currently underground making some traps before Godis inturrupted them.
> godispasen whispers to you: Sharpness is at my base asking me what ‘gold scar’ mwans
> godispasen whispers to you: means*
> godispasen whispers to you: can i tell him? or no?
Sharpness? Why—how did he know about the gold scar thing? Parker seems to notice how stunned Jude is. “Why are you so stiff?” He turns his head towards him. “Godis just told me that Sharpness is asking him what ‘gold scar’ means.”
Parker sits a little straighter at that. “Oh shit, did he heard you mention it once or something?” Jude looks back at bis communicator for a second. “I mean, probably. Godis is asking if he could tell Sharpness or not.” Parker tilts his head, before shifting it back to the banners in the stone walls.
“Up to you, man. You started that nickname for him.” Jude nodded to himself, Parker was right. But should Sharpness know this? You know what? Fuck it, it doesn't matter.
> You whisper to godispasen: Yeah just tell him
> You whisper to godispasen: Idm
> godispasen whispers to you: if you say so
> godispasen whispers to you: i'll be back
Jude nods again, knowing Godis isn't able to see it anyway. He shoves the communicator back onto his pocket, returning to the redstone dust on the floor.
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Godis lifts his head up, looking back at the enterance where Sharpness was still waiting. Godis takes a small sigh, walking up to him. “Oh you're back, what took you so long?” Sharpness complains, but Godis only rolls his eyes with a smile.
Sharpness looks down at his communicator
> godispasen whispers to you: i had to ask Jude if i could tell you
> godispasen whispers to you: he said sure so
> godispasen whispers to you: by gold scar, he means you
Sharpness' eyes seems to perk at that. Gold scar.. is.. him? But Gold scar is the most valuable weapon in some other game (that he forgot the name of), so is Jude basically calling him special?
Forget that, Jude has a special nickname for him! That's enough to make him flustered, and guess what? His face is pink and so is the tip of his ears that are turning to a shade of red at the thought.
Godis obviously notices, giving a small smile at the sight of how affected Sharpness is by this. “Are you for real?” Sharpness asks, his voice suddenly filled with so much hope.
> godispasen whispers to you: yes, i'm serious
> godispasen whispers to you: well i'm pretty sure it was supposed to be a code word at first
> godispasen whispers to you: and it somehow adapted to becoming his nickname for you
> godispasen whispers to you: though, he isn't quite fond with anyone else using it
“He isn't?” Sharpness' eyed widen in slight shock. There's no way that JudeLow is protective over some special nickname he gave to Sharpness. It's hard to believe, yet, possible. “Huh.. That explains why i never heard of it till now!” Sharpness finally pieces it together.
Godis nods again, confirming that Sharpness' allegations is correct. Sharpness seems to be overjoyed with happiness, bouncing off his feet a little. Godis noticed, obviously.
> godispasen whispers to you: anything else you need help with, Sharp?
> godispasen whispers to you: you seem excited
“Huh? Oh.. uh.. i guess i do, huh?” He pet's out a shaky laugh. “Um.. if you know where he is that could help.” Godis looks over at his communicator.
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> godispasen whispers to you: Judee
> godispasen whispers to you: Jude
Jude was startled a bit at the viberation from his pocket, he's literary assembling some pistons right now. This couldn't be a better timing. “Parker, helppp..” He drags out the words, turning his head to face Parker.
“Wha?” He replied. “Can you read what Godis—well, probably Godis, sent me?” Parker nods, grabbing the communicator from Jude's pocket. Parker's eyes widen a bit after reading. “He said Sharpness asked where you're at.” Jude whips his head back towards Parker.
“Shoot, really? Ask em why.” Parker started typing on the communicator.
> You whisper to godispasen: Why?
> You whisper to godispasen: It's Parker btw, Jude is assembling some piston we somehow destroyed
> godispasen whispers to you: i'm not sure
> godispasen whispers to you: Sharpness looks very happy tho
> godispasen whispers to you: it must be because of the gold scar thing, no?
> godispasen whispers to you: he seems so happy knowing that Jude has a nickname for him
> godispasen whispers to you: it's cute to see
> You whisper to godispasen: LMAOO SharpLow content
> godispasen whispers to you: i suppose!
> godispasen whispers to you: are you able to share coords or something?
> You whisper to godispasen: Oh shoot holdon
“Yo, he said he wasn't sure but Sharpness is basically a beaming ball of energy knowing you have a specific special nickname for him.” Jude's rabbit ears twitched at that, a little faster than his usual twitches. “Oh?” He could only mutter.
His eyes was still on the piston, but his mind? Elsewhere. He could practically feel Parker's teasing smirk without even turning around.
“SharpLo-”
“Shut the fuck up.”
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“Sooo.. any updates on where he is?” Sharpness chirps in. Godis finally looks up, remembering that Sharpness is literary still here, waiting. Godis gives a small shrug.
> godispasen whispers to you: they haven't replied
> godispasen whispers to you: usually that means Jude is very vunerable or making traps
“Yeah, probably the second option. Nobody has died yet today. Except for Jepex but he was being an idiot.” Godis almost chuckles at that, but of course, the muted man held it back. “So.. what now?”
Godis shrugs one more time. Looking around his own base, checking if maybe maybe Jude was near. But of course, he wasn't. Sharpness stood there thinking (or zoning out, hard to tell) for a moment.
Godis then gets an idea. He grabs Sharpness' shoulder to get his attention, using his free hand to point at Jude's base. “What? Jude's base? What do you want me to do? Blow it up again?” Jesus Sharpness, think of a more creative insult!
Godis quickly shook his head. No, not again. He will not rebuild Jude's base for the third time. Not even for money, he's done with that. He points at it a bit more aggresively. “Huh? Do you.. want me to wait there?” Godis sighs in relief, nodding rapidly.
Sharpness raises an eyebrow, but nods, and walks over to Jude's base. As soon as Godis was out of Sharpness' line of sight, he whips out his communicator again.
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> godispasen whispers to you: JUDEE
> godispasen whispers to you: or Parker
> godispasen whispers to you: GO TO JUDE'S BASE
> godispasen whispers to you: Sharpness is waiting
> godispasen whispers to you: Sharpness is waiting
> godispasen whispers to you: Sharpness is waiting
Parker almost dropped the communicator, he was too focused on teasing Jude. After reading Godis' rapid messages, “Jude go to your base!!” He quickly repeats. Jude's arbbit ears perked up in confusion. “What? Wh-”
“JUST GO! Nooow! I can handle this trap making myself!” Jude hesitates, but stands up. “Uhh.. Okay..?” Parker shoves his communicator back to Jude's hands and basically shoo's him out. Jude, still so confused, decided to listen anyway.
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He grabs his elytra, taking off to head back to spawn. It wasn't.. far. Just.. a few thousand blocks out, that's it. Eventually, he reaches the enterance of his base, instantly noticing Sharpness' name tag. Oh god- did both Parker and Godis set him up?
Jude hesitates, but walks down, finding Sharpness sitting on a crafting table that he probably left there. The second Sharpness notices him, he jumps, leaps onto Jude and crashes him onto a hug. Jude instantly yelps, falling to the ground.
“Y-You had some stupid nickname for me—and i never knew?!” Sharpness mumbles into his shirt. Jude was honestly still stunned by being jumped by Sharpness- and how freaking tight this hug is. “Well.. uh-”
“So you do think i'm special?”
Jude freezes even more at that, he can already feel Sharpness nuzzling onto his neck. Jude's rabbit ears drops to his sides, before he sighs, and gives the smallest nod ever. But Sharpness notices, of course he did.
He lifts his head just to look at Jude's face. It was slightly tinted red, almost flustered. Sharpness seemed to find it cute. And so, he leans in.
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Parker walks out of Jude's base, a small grin on his face. Godis, who was walking by, instantly types to Parker.
> godispasen whispers to you: how did my plan go?
Parker gives a small chuckle, “Flawlessly.” Godis' eyes brighten, waiting for more news. “Because they're literary making out right now.” Godis couldn't help but smile a little brighter. He puts his hand up, and so Parker gives him a high five.
i'm gonna take a moment to appreciate this work. Literary had me in tears, it's currently 1 AM as i write this. The whole rollercoaster ride of emotions was just sickening, Jude being an asshole made me want to hug Sharpness genuinely. AND THE FACT THAT HE CUT OFF HIS HAIR LITERARY HURT MY HEART.
Another thing that really hit me was the fact that Sharpness got so used to hearing Jude's angry voice to the point where he yearned to hear him say something in his normal voice broke me so much i spent 5 minutes crying /gen
But that's the whole point of a story, no?
High five to Aekerontik, truly a goated writer, i will be waiting for more of your works.
( @theriverofwoe << author! go support them!! (≧▽≦) )
this is a rant talking about the topic of minecraft youtuber's boundries being broken such as deep topics that can easily make someone uncomfortable, it's advised to not view if you easily get disgusted or uncomfy. This rant was made to spread awareness and also because i am pissed and i wanna talk about it. Thank you :P
!! RANT UNDER CUT !!
In the topic of Minecraft Youtubers, boundries are often (yes, often) broken. Most common being extreme gore & NSFW. And having a hyperfixation that is a ship between two Minecraft Youtubers is a death sentence.
For anyone who doesn't know what AO3 is, AO3 is a website where anyone is able to make fanfictions/stories about characters and people freely. When making a post, you are given the option to give tags that match to the vibe/type of story you post.
In AO3, you have to give the correct tags and correct warnings in your posts, as that is what people look at to make sure they are comfortable with reading your post. The one i found did none of that.
I was searching for SharpLow fanfictions to read, and as usually i read every single tag and warning before clicking on one. I found one that has the “No Smut” tag. I figured this was the perfect one to read and so i did.
Now tell me why was there flipping SA in there?? Mind you, there was no warning telling me that the fanfiction involved SA or sexual actions in general. This is just terrible considering how both Minecraft Youtubers are uncomfortable with NSFW in general, SA just makes everything worse.
Neither Minecraft Youtubers would SA anyone (or anything for that matter), this is basically just an example of how fucked up this generation is, and also an example how being famous means basically hiding from your weird fans as much as possible.
By the time i'm writing this, i can't find the fanfiction anymore so it could be deleted (i mean i hope), but this was just traumatising considering how normalized SA is these days. Also it was not just “kissing without consent”, no, it was a full SA scene that the creator wrote and thought “yeah this is okay”.
That's all i have to say, i'm mainly just super pissed about this, it almost ruined my whole day considering how much SharpLow means to me not just as a ship. But uh yeah thanks for staying..
Here's some SharpLow art on your way out, have a nice day and take care!
February 14th, the most romantic day of the year. Sharpness, in desperate needs to let his emotions out, decided to tell Tai how he's been feeling about JudeLow. Tai in return, attempts to give him some advice. With some flustered confidence, Sharpness eventually confessed to the rabbit, who returned it.
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judelow — “text”
sharpness — “text”
tai — “text”
[ ONE SHOT ] — [ AO3 VER + ENTIRE WORK ]
February 14th.
“Okay okay so—why are you telling ME this?”
Tai crosses his arms, sitting on the single chair in his base (more chairs will be added soon, promised Noob). “Because- i- i don't know who else to tell. And nobody has been online for 5 hours now.” Sharpness' grip on his sword tightens.
“Oookkaayy.. so what exactly did you expect from me?” Tai tilted his head, gaze still looked onto Sharpness who is now pacing back and fourth in front of him. “I was expecting, i don't know, some—wait! Are you not shocked?” Sharpness pauses his pacing to look over at Tai's small smirk.
“Obviously. The whole server has neen shipping you two together since forever now. So this isn't even a surprise for me.” Sharpness rolls his eyes, right, the SharpLow allegations. “I guess.. but uh, i was expecting some motivation or like.. what to do.”
“Generous of you to assume i have relationship experience, or advice.” Sharpness' face turns from panicked to more deadpan. “Okay—just, try to give me advice.” Tai pauses for moment, trying to think of something plain. “Mmm.. i'd say..”
“Just go for it.”
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“Bunnyyyyy!”
Jude's rabbit ears perked. Lord Jesus, he just got on. What could Sharpness possibly want? And that stupid nickname again, Sharpness has been calling him that for days now. Jude whips around to see Sharpness on the last step of stairs. “Hi.” Jude replies flat toned. “I've been waiting for you to get on for hours.”
Jude scoffs, eating a golden apple (just in case). “What, so you could kill me?” A smile finally landed on the trapper's face. “Nooo.. Not exactly. I just wanted toooo... Hang out?” Sharpness pulls his sword away from Jude, trying to signal that's being for real.
“You serious? This isn't some sort of bait?”
Of course, the rabbit is cautious, not stupid (like Sharpness). Sharpness nodded his head. “Yeah i'm serious. You're my rival but—i don't wanna fight all the time.” Sharpness whips out an excuse. Jude tlited his head slightly away from Sharpness.
“First time i ever heard a bloodthirsty person say that.” Sharpness let's out a small giggle, true, this isn't something he'd do nornally. And soon on, Jude catched up that Sharpness is planning something, but he doesn't mention it. Not yet at least.
“So.. yes or i kill you right here?” Jude's head finally swings back to him. “Fine. But you better not betray me like last time.” Sharpness' eyes seemed to look like emeralds for a bit, shining in pure joy. “Okay, yay!” Yay? Jude repeated in his head. Is he actually serious about the hanging out thing?
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He really was. They spent the whole day together. Getting extra loot for their ender chests, gossiping (slightly), some pvp, Jude even taught Sharpness how to build a flatground trap (it took him about 5 minutes to understand the first step).
Jude was still on edge, but every second felt genuine, soon, he forgot about his doubts and just went all in with his time with Sharpness. At some point, he looks over at the calendar. February 14th. Valentine's day.
There's no way that's the reason why Sharpness wanted to hang out, right? But the more he stared at the date, the more he kind of wants it to be the reason why. He bonked his own head at the thought and walked off to finish his day.
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“Today was fun.” Sharpness speaks up, out of energy. “Mhm.” Jude only replied with a hum, staring at a blueprint for some complex trap that Sharpness will probably be a victim of. “Did you have fun?” He mutters to Jude. “Fun? Uh.. yeah.” He stutters a bit, his head wandering off.
“...And uh.. Happy Valentines day.” It sounded more like a question then a normal sentance. Jude's rabbit ears flip up, was he right about this Valentine's day thing? Or is this purely platonic? “Uh.. yeah. Happy Valentine's day, Sharp.” He mutters back, embarassed to even say it.
“You.. look pretty.” Sharpness froze at his own words, that was supposed to stay in his head. Jude, too, froze. Face heating up, what should he even respond with? “Y-You're uh- pretty too.” Fuck, that was a bad thing to say was it? Can he even say that?
Sharpness looked away in pure flusteredness, face heating up just like Jude's, but less obvious. Now they're just two men sitting in a couch looking like red tomatoes. “T-Thanks..?” Sharpness whispers, his voice hoarse for some reason, for which he totally cursed.
The silence streched for about good 20 minutes. None of them speaking, Jude tried to keep himself busy by looking back at the blueprint, yet his mind wouldn't stop focusing on Sharpness. Sharpness, on the other hand, fidgets with his own hair, looking out in the windows like nature was beautiful (it is, just not in the Strength SMP).
Finally, one spoke,
“Look i—”
“Sharp i have—”
Or two. They both pause at the same time, finally glancing back at each other. “You.. go ahead.” Sharpness gladly took Jude the lead for the conversation, mainly because he didn't want to be the one to confess, not in a sistuation like this at least.
Jude takes a deep breath. “I have something to ask.” Whilst Jude was organizing his words, Sharpness held his own breath. “Why did you want to hang out with me? The real reason.” Fuck. He had it coming, yet he still isn't ready.
Sharpness glances away, hands curling in his lap. Should he do it? What if this ruins their already complicated friendship? What if Jude didn't feel the same way? What if he fucks up and Jude thinks he's weird for doing so? Or should he just lie? Maybe he coul—
Just go for it.
“I like you.”
The air seems to get thicker as Jude sat in silence. He pridected this, didn't he? But now that it's actually happening, he panics for a bit. “Like?” “Lovers.” Sharpness instantly replies, trying to get Jude on the same track.
“...You're basically asking me to be your boyfriend right now?” Jude's own voice cracks, Sharpness nods eagerly, wanting a reply and wanting it fast.
“..Well- then.. I feel the same way.”
Sharpness felt his hard stop for a bit, his hand clutched onto the other. “Serious?!” He hadn't mean to yell, just super excited. “Yes, serious.” Before Jude could take it all in, Sharpness lunged him. Not to fight, but to hug him tight and burrying his face in Jude's chest.
“Physical touch already?” Jude mutters, but doesn't pull away. He's been rejecting affection his whole life, so this feels weird as hell. But his arms slowly rise to wrap around Sharpness' back. Without a single thought, Jude places a kiss on his temple.
“I'm gonna need to make more traps.” Sharpness slightly looks up at that. “Why?” He mumbles, his voice mainly covered from the fabric. “Because i just blinked and i now have a valentine and boyfriend.”
“And i have someone to lose.”
Sharpness seems to be thrilled by that, hugging tighter. Basically cuddling him, and Jude couldn't care less. He's not single anymore.
JudeLow is still desperate for Sharpness' love despite the betrayal, everything seems to empty without him. Eventually, in shame, JudeLow reached out to Sharpness, begging him to stay and ‘accidentally’ confesses his thoughts. Sharpness, in shock, couldn't help but feel guilty. Feel like the reason why JudeLow is suffering is because of him (which is true). So he gave in despite his pride.
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! WARNING !
mentions of gore, mentions of cannibalism, obsessive behaviour
do not read if uncomfortable.
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judelow — “text”
sharpness — “text”
[ ONE SHOT ] — [ AO3 VER + ENTIRE WORK ]
“So we were just.. nothing to you?”
The last words Jude has said to Sharpness before they stopped talking. Jude never got his answers to that question, since Sharpness just froze and left. What an asshole.
But no matter what, everything in his mind is only filled with the thought of Sharpness, what their friendship meant, or what they even were. He was really committed to the thought that they were something, maybe everything, but yet, he still pushed that button to prove his words wrong.
But he still wants it. He wants Sharpness so bad that it hurts. Every slight mention of him, places they used to be, teasing from Parker, even certain meals, makes him go insane. Nothing in his life isn't about Sharpness, it was almost like he was built for him.
As much he wanted to hate on Sharpness, want to have the feeling to rip him apart and tear out his heart, he still oh desperately wants that heart. That love, affection, admiration. Yes, he knew it was toxic, but there was no stopping it now.
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“Sharpness, we have to talk—please.” The rabbit desperately begged, yet Sharpness was only confused, and maybe a little surprised Jude still wanted to talk to him after what he's done. “What is there to even talk about?”
Sharpness tries to decline him, facing the other direction and attempting to walk off, but Jude held his wrist—tight, not letting him go. “I forgive you.”
Sharpness froze. Forgiveness? For betrayal? Jude has never been this stupid to trust someone that betrayed him not once—but twice. Sharpness moved his head, just a bit over his shoulder to look at Jude.
“What?”
“You heard me, Sharpness. Don't make me repeat it.” Jude looks up at Sharpness, face serious, dead calm, as if this was a normal thing to forgive. “A-Are you insane?! Haven't i made it clear i don't want you—that i never loved or cared about you?” Sharpness shoves his hand away from Jude's grasp, eyes widening in shock, anger.. and.. fear.
“Does it matter?” Jude's monotone voice seemed to scared the crap out of Sharpness as he takes a step back. “Yes! Yes it does matter, you- you're not- why.. Tell me one reason why you forgive me!”
“Because it's you.” Sharpness froze. The rabbit ears on Jude's head seems to flop down onto his sides, face serious like that was a normal thing to say to a mortal rival. “Why do you think i let you do this to me? All those times you practically hurt me, destoryed me, despised me, why do you think i let you continue?”
“Y-You're crazy. Why would you ever love someone that's like.. like me?” Sharpness' eyes closed normal, his gaze somewhere else. Jude is crazy to think that this is love, that having your heart be eaten and torn apart if affection, that everything Sharpness has done was because of ‘feelings’. But yet, it was almost true.
“I need you. I need every part of you, even if it hurts me. It's intoxicating, i'm aware. But could you really blame me? I can't resist you.” Jude's voice turns smaller. Sharpness could only stand there in pure shock. Confusion, shock, and guilt creeping into the back of his mind. He lifts his hand, attempting to reach out but pauses.
“Jude...” He whispers, he opens his mouth to speak again, yet nothing came out. JudeLow avoided eye contact, slightly ashamed of admitting it, arms crossed.
“..Fuck.”
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“Things would've been so much better if you weren't like this, Sharpness. We had something going on and you ruined it.”
Sharpness flinched slightly at the words, but he didn't back down, because what more is there to a PVPer that isn't involving pride? “I did what i always wanted to do.” Sharpness responds, voice cold.
“To betray me? Act like i'm some toy for you to break and put back together over and over again?” Jude bites back, hand tightening on the grip of his sword. “Yes. Exactly that. It's stupid how you think i'd actually care about you. We're rivals after all.”
“Oh so everything about our bond is just hatred? Is that it? Because i don't agree on that—i felt happy to be around you. It felt like i belonged.” Jude's voice slightly rises, heart biten in half. “Well you don't belong! Not in my life at least.”
“Then where do i belong?! Tell me, where in this god forsaken world do i belong that isn't your life, Sharpness?!” Sharpness froze, thinking of a way to answer Jude's ourburst. “In hell.” He mutters, glancing away from Jude's shocked face.
A part of him regretted saying that, a part of him wants to take it back, wants to go back to the bond they had but of course his pride wins over all.
“So we were just.. nothing to you?”
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Sharpness held Jude tight, arms wrapped around his chest. Jude is still frozen in shock, but awkwardly returns to it. “..Why do you care so fucking much about me?” Sharpness' voice cracks on the swear, holding him tighter despite his rude words.
“I'm not sure. But it feels right. It's almost like my heart is always yours, even if you eat it.” Sharpness buries his face in Jude's neck, trying not to look desperate but at the same time nuzzling closer. “But love is cannibalism, isn't it?”
“It shouldn't have to be. I'm just an asshole.”
The corner of Jude's mouth lifted into a small smile, hugging Sharpness just as tightly. His hair smelled like vanilla and.. sunflowers? Perhaps shampoo? Unsure. Sharpness has extreme care for his stupid blonde-golden-shiny hair. And Jude loved that part of him.
“I am too.”
“No you're not!!”
Jude almost laughed at Sharpness' whiny tone. Sharpness almost felt it, placing a small kiss on his neck before nuzzling even closer. Comfortable in his arms now.
Sharpness has been craving blood for so long now, the vampire, unable to hold it any longer, decided to feed on his ‘enemy’, JudeLow. JudeLow was shocked by this, since all Sharpness did was take, he was sort of used to it. But despite this, it felt like pleasure, not that he'd ever admit it.
That's all Sharpness could think of- or feel. Just.. the desperate need to satisfy his hunger. Yet, animal blood isn't exactly the best flavor, and it'll only satisfy him for a little. He needs human blood- or at least rabbit's blood.
A rabbit blood is much sweeter, more delicious, one that can satisfy him for weeks. Even if he doesn't want to do this, his mind is getting hazy and uncontrollable without getting fed. His only resort left is Jude, ‘give it a chance’, his mind would mutter. Despite him and Jude not having the best relationship, perhaps this could work out.
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Jude drinks a cup of soda from his glass cup, looking at a trap blueprint. It's interesting how a prey is making traps for the predators. But still, brilliant as always. The sounds of footsteps jog him alert, rabbit ears spiking as he snaps his head towards the enterance of his base.
Sharpness.
Of course. The vampire loves annoying the shit out of him. But at this hour? Not common. Jude places his blueprint down, standing up with the glass of soda still in his hands. “Well?” He blurted out, waiting for a reason from Sharpness.
Yet, he seems to already notice how slump he is, Jude's eyes squinted for a bit. Is he hungry? Must be, there is nothing else that would make him this weak. Sharpness tried to blur something, but only a groan came out.
Jude walks closer to him, examining him, watching him struggling in the need to feed. It was almost cute. In Jude's twisted mind, it was. But all of our minds our twisted in some way, isn't it?
“N-Need-” Sharpness tried to speak, but his mind is already gone. Before Jude could even reply, the vampire latches onto him. Biting his neck down hard. Jude yelps in surprise, the glass of soda dropping from his hands and shattering on the floor with a loud CLINK.
Jude holds his own breath, trying not to focus on the ungodly pain he is feeling. Sharpness wraps his arms around Jude's waist, holding him in place, and sure as hell being greedy. Drinking blood like a madman.
Jude's mind starts to get hazy and dizzy. His rabbit ears flopping down besides his ears, body language weak. He eventually collapses onto the floor, Sharpness falling along with him, only then did Sharpness pull away.
Watching him. And gosh, if he didn't look so beautiful here, he had no way else to describe the view. “You taste amazing.” Sharpness cups his cheek. Ignoring the shattered glass surrounding them, and ignoring Jude's weak body. But he's still alive.
“W-What.. fuck w-rong with y-..” Sharpness shuts him down by placing his hand on Jude's mouth. “The red means i love you, Jude. I love you so much.” Jude's rabbit ear still managed to twitch.
Sharpness licks his lips, still desperate to taste more, but he doesn't, knowing that it'll possibly kill him, and he's not ready for that. Not yet at least. “You're so beautiful like this, don't you know that?”
Jude let's out a slight pathetic whimper, one of the glass shards cutting his left palm. Sharpness grabs his wrist on the same hand that was hurting, and pulls the shard out. Jude let's out a small noise—that sounded similar to pain. Or perhaps pleasure.
Sharpness brings the bleeding cut to his mouth, kissing it. “I'll take care of you, i promise.” He kisses it again, slower, then licks the blood. “You're mine, after all.”
Mine.
Yours.
Jude's free hand tugs on Sharpness' hand, the one covering his mouth, signaling that he wants to speak. Sharpness pulls his own hands away, suddenly desperate to hear Jude's lovely voice. “..P-Promise.. me.”
Sharpness' smile never leaves his face, staring right into Jude's mesmerizing eyes. “Promise you what, Љубави моја?” The Serbian slipped through before he could think anything about it, yet he doesn't correct himself. All he can think about is Jude, how adorable, and sweet he is. How red always looks good on him.
“..Care.” A single word could only slip, yet Sharpness understands instantly. Sharpness chuckles, as if caring was something he's always been doing. “I always care for you, Judey, how could i not?” The question lingers. Jude's head still hurts so bad- his body sore and tired.
Sharpness notices instantly, kissing his forehead, even whilst his lips still has some of Jude's blood on it. The kiss mark stays on the rabbit's forehead, blood, not lipstick, but still perfect in Sharpness' eyes.
“Rest, now. I'll watch over you.” Jude's fingers tremble, not trusting Sharpness, but not having a choice. The glass shatter lingers around them, one even stabbing Jude's toe, but it doesn't seem like he cares anymore.
What he cares about right now is Sharpness.
And if he is finally satisfied.
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Jude groans, his entire body sore as his eyes flutter open. His body resting out the couch, not the floor. Jude sits up, seeing the blood and glass shatters on the ground is all cleaned up now. Jude looks around, eventually finding Sharpness sitting on the floor besides him. Watching him.
And gosh, if he didn't look so adorable like this...
“Morning~” Sharpness' voice was slightly sing-song-y. Jude's rabbit tail twitches at it, his voice still so precious. “..Hi.” Jude could only say, spreading his legs instinctly as Sharpness curls his head on Jude's thighs.
“..I'm sorry, love.” He mutters out, arm wrapped around his waist. “Don't call me that after you almost killed me.” Despite sounding annoyed, Jude's hand lifted, stroking Sharpness' long hair. “Don't be so dramatic.” He bites back, a small smile forming on his face.
“Does it still hurt?”
“My neck? No, just sore. My ego and pride? Yes.”
Sharpness let's out a big laugh, one that made the rabbit's stomach feel like butterflies. One of Sharpness' hands grip his thigh, “I am actually sorry, though. I can get a little.. freaky when i'm not fed.” Jude finally let's out a small smirk. “I know.” His hands still striking Sharpness' hair gently.
Sharpness leans into it, sighing. “I.. Made you coffee. I hope i didn't bite you too hard.” Jude looks over at the mug on the coffee table. “You did.” His gaze return to Sharpness'. “I might do it again. Like—i might need to use you again.. Eventually.”
JudeLow has been missing his former teammate, Sharpness, for a while now. But no matter how much he tries, Sharpness seems to haunt him in every sleep, in the same dream. Sunflowers around them, perfect weather, beautiful scenery. He knows it's not real, but he still wants to live in it.
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Jude's eyes flutters open, his bed feels oddly comfortable. Wait- bed? He fell asleep on his couch, so what is this that's so warm and soft?
His eyes finally snap open, finding himself in a field of sunflowers. Each one more beautiful than the others. The sky was bright, sun shining, clouds positioned just right, something like this is phenemonal.
Jude rubs his eyes, trying to understand his surroundings, eventually, he stood up on his feet, looking at the field. And for alot, it was peaceful, beautiful, heavenly even. Jude started to drag his feet across the field, admiring the beautiful sunflowers that seem to all be facing where sun was in the sky.
He's been here before. Many times in fact. The same place, the same field, the same sky and positioning of sunflowers. Nothing seems to change at all. It was almost too perfect.
Out in the distance, stood someone with long blond hair tied up in a ponytail. Jude already knew who it was, he's been in here before. The same illusion, the same person, the same ending. Jude walks up to him, boots crushing some of the flowers beneath him.
The person seems to hear the sound, turning around and meeting Jude's eyes. Jude stayed frozen, just for a little while. No matter what, he couldn't seem to get over how beautiful he looked. It was almost like falling in love all over again, old married couples might say, but that isn't the case for Jude.
The rabbit hesitated, before muttering. “Sharpness?” It was quiet, almost too quiet. Like a part of him still hoped that this time, the dream would end up differently. “..Jude?” The other responds, fully turning towards him now.
JudeLow trembled, slightly. Because it felt so real, the voice, the face, the accent. Everything, but yet, he knew it was all fake. He knew it was just his mind playing tricks on him.
“You.. don't look that well.” The other, Sharpness, slowly walks over to him. Slowly, his hand rose. Not to intimidate, but to slowly, and gently, cherish his cheek. His thumb gently rubbing his cheekbone, a soft smile played on his lips.
this is too much.
“Are you alright?” Jude stiffens, but despite everything, he still answers. “..Never better.” Jude raises his own hand, placing it on top of Sharpness' on his face. Jude moved his head just a tiny bit, pressing a small kiss onto his palm.
He only smiled brighter. “You're hands.. how are they still so.. soft?” Jude questions, just like in the other dreams before. “Because.. it's yours.” The answer was different this time, but it only made Jude frown a bit more.
“...Right.” He responded, his voice sounding hollow. Sharpness eventually lifted his free hand, cupping Jude's face entirely. Yet, his expression was still so soft. He leans in, giving Jude every second to pull away, but he doesn't.
The kiss was soft. Angelic, it felt like heaven. Like the stars finally appearing at night. Jude slowly melts into it, deepening the kiss as much as he can. Because god, he doesn't want to let go. Not yet. Not when everything is so perfect.
this is making me sick.
Once they pull away, Sharpness let's go of him. Mutter his final words, “I'll go.” Jude instantly flared up, grabbing Sharpness' wrist before he could move any furthur. “Wait.” Jude cuts him off. “Please don't.” Jude looked so needy and desperate right now, but does any of them care?
Sharpness stayed frozen, watching Jude. “Please don't go. Not yet. N-Not when everything looks so perfect.” His voice cracks, not tears yet, just desperate, hoping that this dream can last forever. Sharpness tugs his his wrist away, trying to shake him off, but when that didn't work, he spoke.
“You're hurting yourself like this, don't you know?” Sharpness warns. “I know, Sharp. God, i've always known. But does it look like i care? Does it look like i can get over you?” Jude's palms trembled, still holding onto Sharpness.
“Jude. I betrayed you. You're being pathetic right now for even wanting me here.” Jude just shook his head, tears creeping in. “So what? All that we had, our teamwork, our nights together, was it just nothing to you? Was i another obstacle to you?!”
His voice rises slightly. Sharpness only stared at him, with coldness, that wramth all gone. Even the sunflowers around them seem to have withered. “Talk to me!” Jude yelled out, tears falling down.
“I never loved you.”
Jude stared at him, eyes widening in shock, tears still dropping uncontrollably. Sharpness shoves him off, shaking his hand were Jude's were holding him as if his touch disgusted him.
“...It's over.” Jude spoke up softly- quietly. Timid. Unlike of him. But he wasn't saying that to Sharpness. Not right now at least. It was back then. A long time ago—not too long that it's ancient, but long enough for him to miss it. Miss him.
“Sharp-” Jude looked up, only to find the other gone. Vanished into thin air with no trace. The sky is dark now, sunflowers wilted. And Jude standing in the middle of the sun‘flower’ field.
my heart hurts.
Jude tried his best, to keep himself together. To hold everything he owns safe, but nothing works anymore. A single drop falls one more time. Falling into his knees.
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Jude gasps, falling off the couch he was sleeping in. That same fucking dream. That same one that kept haunting him ever since Sharpness betrayed him. No matter what he did, that dream and illusions never seem to leave him.
Jude clutched his rabbit ears, pulling them down in irratiation. He doesn't want to miss Sharpness. Or anyone. He's one of the deadliest players here for god's sake, and he's crying over his ex teammate betraying him.
Jude climbs back onto the couch. Sinking into it. The thought of Sharpness flooded his mind. The nights they spent making dumb traps, the days the spent dominating the whole server, the evenings they spent just chilling in each others presence.
And Jude never got to say how he felt about all of it. He never got to tell Sharpness how much everything means to him, how much he means to him. The base is quiet, the entire server asleep. But Jude couldn't, not again. He's not risking falling asleep and seeing that damn nightmare.. or.. sweet dream ever again.
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