Myself suits me best.

Hi! I'm Chris Colfer, 23 and from a small town in California called Clovis where there are more cows than people. (No, I'm serious.) Watch out though, I'm not all that small minded otherwise I wouldn't be here but yeah, I'm just your regular, Harry Potter loving, acting and writing dork. Here's to learning more about myself and getting to know great people in the big city of LA. I'm really not used to this - wow... dreamer | writer | actor 7th in line for the British throne (DNA pending) Hi I'm Christopher Paul Colfer. In case you don't know who I am - I'm a professional Pinocchio impersonator! Okay, alright, I lied - I'm actually an author/actor who was lucky enough to land a role on the hit show Glee. Anyways, I promise I'm nice and usually don't bite so if you want to know something - just ask. xoxo

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Ash: Thanks boo. And anyway, Zach needs some Goddad time. Maybe you can read to him from your new book ;)

Ash: Yeah, I am too...

Chris: I should do that. Maybe mommy can keep us company. :P

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Ash: Yeah... yeah. We'll only be a few days, I'm trying to book a flight now. I've gotta go home for a few days. Love you too.

Chris: Of course...like I said - I got rooms to spare so just get here and stay for as long as you need. I'm so sorry about all of this...

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Ash: I'm already in the car... I just. I can't talk about it. I can't even... ugh.

Ugh!

Chris: Just get here safe, okay? Love you...

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Darren sighed and leaned into Chris´ touch, still making sure to keep him close. Darren wanted to sleep and his eyes were already burning from having to stay open for so long, but it still felt like he couldn´t let go, like his body and mind hadn´t fully understood that this wasn´t a dream and that Chris was actually there.

“I know…” he whispered eventually and tilted his head to press his lips against the other man´s again, sighing deeply. He didn´t want to be like this, he hated making Chris worry about him, and if he was being honest Darren had to admit that he hadn´t been liking himself very much during the last few weeks. He closed his eyes and tried to relax a little, curling up against his boyfriend´s side. “Can you just…tell me something? Anything really…just…I want to hear your voice,” Darren asked quietly.

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Chris slid his hand through Darren's hair gently, nuzzling and staying close to him.

He kissed his boyfriend back gently, nudging his nose against his. He bit his lip and kept rubbing at Darren's scalp and his other hand rested on his side gently. He held him close, nodding softly. "I - yeah," Chris chuckled. "Wow, I never thought anyone would tell me that. Ever...," he mumbled and kissed his forehead. "Well...let's see...what could I talk about," Chris rambled, grinning. "When I was younger I had horrible, horrible ways of sleeping and I also was overweight - as you saw in some pictures probably. One day when it was extremely bad and I honestly couldn't sleep - or so I thought I apparently walked downstairs without tripping which is a huge thing for me and made myself some cereal. When my mother came downstairs in the morning she practically found me cuddling with the cereal bowl," Chris laughed and shook his head. "At least Hannah had her fun with that..."

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Darren: Yeah... he better or he´s going to get punched pretty hard.

Chris: Baby...don't get too worked up, yeah?

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Darren: Good, you´re a great friend, you know that?

Chris: I'd hope so...I want to be. I just feel horrible about her because being cheated on is the worst feeling in the whole world...I just hope he has a proper explanation.

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Darren: Oh I will. Take care of Ash, yeah?

Chris: Of course! I told her she can stay for however long she needs to be there.

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Darren: Who else would I be talking about, I don´t just go around randomly punching people. I mean, what the hell?!

Chris: I know, baby...I can't even grasp it right now...I mean - it's Mark and they have Zach together. It's just breaking my heart right now so if you go punch him, punch him twice and tell him that was mine.

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Darren sighed at the way Chris´ hands were rubbing over his back and he leaned in closer, pressing his lips to every inch of skin he could reach. Darren hated that he was being like this, but he was tired and had been pretty lonely during the last few weeks, even though he´s had a blast on his tour, but he still had missed Chris, and the fact that he hadn´t known what exactly was happening between them had made it all just worse.

“I know…” he whispered after a while and sighed, leaning his head against his boyfriend´s chest. “I´m sorry I make you worry that much…but I´m not exactly fond of sleeping anymore,” there was another sigh before Darren looked up, his eyes searching for Chris´. “But …I can try…if that makes you feel better, I just…I want us both to be okay,”

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Chris kept Darren close, rubbing his hands over his arms gently before they wrapped around his torso. He hated that Darren had felt like that all along and kept him close, smiling at him weakly as he kissed his cheek.

He pulled him even closer and sighed deeply, kissing the top of his head. "Don't be sorry...I just hope you'll be able to sleep now that you're here with me," he whispered and nuzzled against his hair. He looked back at his boyfriend and slid his hand through his curls carefully. Chris nuzzled closer and shrugged. "Dare...I can't make you sleep, really...I just wish you could because you're safe here," he whispered. 

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Darren: I feel like I´m going to need to punch someone soon.

Chris: Are you talking about Mark? Because Ashley just asked me if she could stay at my house for a bit.

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Ash: Are you home and free?

Ash: Me and Zach need a place to stay tonight

Ash: I'm flipping out, Chris. I could kill him.

Chris: I am, honey!

Chris: I just saw it and I honestly can't believe it...but before we go all out on it just come here. You can stay at my house for as long as you need.

Chris: Are you okay to drive? I can come pick you two up if you need me to! I'm just kinda - at loss of words.

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Darren sighed into the kiss, almost whining as he felt Chris suck on his lower lip. For a moment he felt like getting lost in those kisses and Darren held on a little tighter to make sure he wouldn´t slip away to somewhere else. “Chris…” he mumbled, pulling the other man closer and with him so that they would eventually tumble onto the bed. It was weird how safe Darren felt with Chris, even though he was so scared of losing the other man, but he knew he was going to be okay as long as he could feel the other man close to him.

“I love you…” Darren mumbled, hands slipping under the hem of his boyfriend´s shirt so he could slide them over the smooth skin while capturing Chris´ lips with his own. “I don´t…want to sleep…not now, please…” he whispered.

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Chris hummed against Darren's lips when the other man kissed him, making him sigh and whine quietly when they slumped down on the bed. He tugged his boyfriend close, well aware that he needed him right there with him. A shiver went through his body and he rubbed his hands over Darren's back soothingly.

"I love you too," he whispered and gasped softly when he felt Darren's fingertips brush against his bare skin as they kissed. "I can't make you...I'm just worried, Dare," he murmured and kissed him again.

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Darren bit his lip and slowly began to walk towards Chris´ bedroom, trying to get a grip on himself. He didn´t want to be this freaked out, he wanted to be happy about having Chris this close and being with him, and yet he couldn´t seem to shake that awful feeling of having done something wrong or doing something wrong in the future.

“I…I´m glad you love me…I don´t…I hate this…” he whispered, shaking off his jacket but making sure to hold on to the other man´s hand again quickly. Darren took a deep breath and tried to relax, pulling Chris´ close again, one arm wrapping around his waist and the other coming up to his neck before being buried in the other man´s hair. “Can…you…can you please just kiss me?” he asked, voice breaking a little at the edges.

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"I do love you a lot, you know?" Chris asked softly, not expecting an answer as he let Darren dress out of his jacket. He sighed when Darren's arm wrapped around his waist and his other hand found his hair. He nodded eagerly and kissed Darren's cheek. "Of course I can. I'll kiss you for as long as you need me to," he murmured and kissed him deeply, sucking on his lower lip before leaning in more.

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Darren sighed deeply and just kept Chris close, kissing him again and again to distract himself from the twisting feeling in his stomach and that little voice in his head, telling him that he would fuck up again. “I know…I just…I don´t want to sleep…I don´t like those fucking nightmares…” he muttered under his breath and just buried his face in Chris´ neck, trying to get a hold of himself. Darren was tired as hell, but he hated the nightmares and he wanted to feel Chris close to him, not sleep and fear to be woken up the next day without someone, without Chris next to him.

“I love you…” he mumbled and drew in a shaky breath, pulling Chris closer before sniffling and closing his eyes. “But we can…go lie down…I just…I want…I need to…feel you,” Darren whispered, hand wandering down to intertwine their fingers. “Please?” He asked, tugging at the other man´s hand softly.

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Chris leaned into the kisses and returned them with so much love that he hoped he could make Darren understand. He nodded quietly and rubbed his hands over Darren's back gently, squeezing at his sides. "But Dare...I'm here now, okay?" He whispered.

"I love you so much, Dare...," He mumbled soothingly, holding his boyfriend closer as he nodded. "Of course we can lay down...maybe it'll get you tired even," the younger man whispered and squeezed Darren's hand gently, letting Darren tug on his hand.

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Darren felt his heart pounding against his ribcage and he desperately tried to stop the tears so he wouldn´t end up as more of a sobbing mess than he already was. “Okay…” he whispered, biting his lip and leaning into Chris´ touch before he managed to wrap his arms around the other man´s waist to pull him close. He leaned in and pressed his lips to Chris´ trying not to seem too desperate, but he just needed to feel his boyfriend. This whole time without seeing him had driven Darren crazy and he had turned the thought of Chris being his boyfriend over and over in his head, until he had made himself believe that maybe he had made it all up.

Holding and kissing him like this definitely helped, but he couldn´t quite shake the awful feeling that had been nagging on him for the past few weeks. “I…Chris…” Darren mumbled between kisses, already out of breath but not caring because he didn´t want to let go and he didn´t want to stop kissing Chris either. He was exhausted, but he didn´t want to stop, this was something he had been dying to do for so long, something to hold on to, someone that reminded him that he wasn´t crazy, and Darren wasn´t going to let it go again.

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Chris kept Darren closer, trying to stop him from crying. "Dare...please...," he whispered and kissed his cheek, sighing deeply as he held him close, so eager to soothe him. His head was spinning and he didn't understand why Darren was so scared of losing him when he had no intention of leaving him ever.

"Shh...it's okay. You're here. I'm yours," Chris whispered helplessly, kissing Darren deeply, panting softly with the desperation that came with it. He shivered and pulled his boyfriend closer. "You need to rest...," the younger man whispered when they parted for a moment. Chris looked at him and kissed him again, rubbing his hands over his back.