I really do love having the privilege and being able to appreciate such simple things in my life, thereās so much I love about living sometimes man.
Like yeah it sucks when I get bad anxiety, when I have bad thoughts, when I struggle to do things I enjoy or eat. But like I think the good really helps balances the bigs out. Just small things yk?
For example, that feeling of being clean I just absolutely love. I talked to a friend about it and he didnāt really know what I mean it seemed. Just the subtle difference in how your skin feels when youāre dry after a shower (or bath) and just being able to bask in that feeling. Like I know itās not uncommon to like the feeling of being clean but dude I love it so much itās so nice. And leg hair. I love leg hair.
Also being in a family where I can fully be my weird and odd self! I really got lucky with my family, they piss me off sometimes but they fully embrace and are sometimes equally as weird. Theyāre used to it. I can be sitting in the floor of my kitchen with a mysterious mug of goo and watching videos and they simply work around me (which isnāt hard thanks to our kitchen layout) and not question why I am there. (Itās what Iām currently doing which made me think and appreciate all of this actually, I do a lot of my best thinking sitting in an odd place.)
Another thing is just how Iām able to have the internet In My Hand. One thing I love doing every few months is trying out different mug brownie recipes. I do it every few months cause usually theyāre kinda bad or average and I need time to recover. Iām making a mental note in my head of each one in hopes of finding the best (so far theyāre all like. Mid at best.) and itās what led to the mysterious goo actually. It turned out quite good but it was hot so I put a bit of ice cream on top (a lot of ice cream, I miscalculated ā¹ļø) and it turned into a liquid again. Doesnāt taste too bad though!
Being able to listen to music is great too. Like anything I want. And I can yap about whatever I want on this app and maybe no one will see or care but I can still do it! I love that I can do that! I could write paragraphās about whatever I wanted (which Iām kinda doing now) and no one can stop me!
I love having this ability and privilege, I wish everyone had this, everyone deserves to enjoy life. Even just the small simple things like long car rides, or the warmth of the sun. It makes me appreciate what I have dude everyone deserves this. I truly wish I could share my enjoyment of life with everyone. I donāt get how millionaires and billionaires care so much about having more money than they can shove up their bum hole when thereās so many things that are better than birding wealth? Like Wdym you wanna have The Most Money? How does that bring you joy, youāre never gonna have a need for all that money?
Millionaires need to go outside and touch some grass, just look at nature and see the beauty dude. Stop being a pussy and enjoy it.
Anyway uuhhhh Iām done rambling now I think. I love life, I hope anyone reading this can love life at some point, I wish everyone could love life. Iāve been in such a happy state recently I wish I could spread my happiness and joy like an incurable disease! FEEL THE JOYā¼ļø
