Under Construction!!

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[So, the reason for officially saying that this blog (and possible future blogs) are gonna be low-activity is because I’m trying to put more focus on my art to hopefully get to the point of doing indie comics. It’s something I’ve always wanted to do, and I’m finally in a community that encourages my growth. 

This doesn’t mean that I’ll leaving, but I’m gonna be focusing on more things outside of roleplaying on tumblr. I’ll still be lurking around, and there will definitely be periods where I’m on here, but this hobby is going to be on the backburner. If any of you are curious of this side of me and want to see what i do and still keep in contact with me: 

My art tumblr (there isn’t anything on there yet, but there will be tomorrow. It’s still sparse and I’m building it up) topazisdrawing

My discord (the best place to reach me): pazzy#1166

My twitter (I’m not on there as much, but go nuts): @pazzy_zap 

My Camilla roleplay discord incase you want to do small rp things: camilla#5977

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[It's been five months since I last posted on here, and it'll likely be longer if I decide to be active on here again.

I haven't been in the best of places mentally recently, so I decided to take an unannounced hiatus. I don't plan to stop anytime soon. For those who have my discord, you know where to reach me if you want to.]

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[I'm reading about dark stars and dark matter, and all I'm saying is that I'm taking notes for research.]

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[The icons might need to be smaller too lol.]

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[Which one looks better? Been trying to make the borders similar to cards, but maybe something different is needed.] 

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// Once I’m fully back, make new icons, and revamp this blog, you better watch out 🥴

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// *casually pops my head up in this post*

Camilla with little magical creatures, Disney Princess-style. Thank you for your time.

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//Might be active here sometime soon for a bit. As soon as I get my new computer set up, that is.

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// this month has been a lot. I’m on the look out for a new laptop, and just...the holidays, man.

Merry Christmas, y’all!

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[I have new ideas for Cam’s background and the things she struggles with and her powers, but I only have the energy to daydream about them. LMAO.]

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Camilla: I don’t have a type.

*handsome older butch looking dapper as fuck walks in*

Camilla: I am a Liar and gay as fuck.

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// @soulstcne ugly mobile post but I’m YELLING!!!

I love all of them so much, but the one I’m most focused on is the post-endgame one cuz of this:

Space marriage. They get married and broadcast is across the universe. The avengers attend via zoom/google hangout. Also Peter, Shuri, some other personal friends are also attending. Everyone sobs. Sappy kisses, and everyone has champagne/wine/tea/coffee/sparkling water/juice and they all toast to the newly-weds. The other life forms Aisling and Cam saved on their adventures are cheering. Everyone celebrating and give them their blessings.

It’s a good day for everyone.

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// I literally had a dream where I went to somewhere in the mountains, with thousands of trees, a beautiful view, and when someone told me to “go home, oh my god, you’re not supposed to be here, why are you here?”

And there I am, waiting at the bus stop, saying in a low voice, “I was having trouble sleeping.”

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credit .

‘ did it really happen if i can’t remember it ? ’ ‘ but you kept trying , didn’t you ? ’ ‘ how can someone be too young to be in love ? ’ ‘ i will never forgive you ’ ‘ you have been the star of each and every one of my nightmares ’ ‘ i’m sorry if i wasn’t the child you had in mind ’ ‘ i only ever wanted to make you proud ’ ‘ silence has always been my loudest scream ’ ‘ i used to think i was broken ’ ‘ i’ve always felt like a stranger in my skin ’ ‘ i still wonder who i would have been ’ ‘ i didn’t realize i could be my own knight ’ ‘ i’m not scared of the monsters hidden underneath my bed ’ ‘ some names will always be cursed ’ ‘ i have so much love to give , but no one ever wants it ’ ‘ in all my dreams i could find myself picking my teeth out of the carpet ’ ‘ i’m sick to death of everyone telling me how strong i am ’ ‘ death is one of the senses ’ ‘ children are not meant to die before their parents ’ ‘ fate is a fucking lie ’ ‘ everyone i love leaves ’ ‘ i’m terrified down to my very roots that there are parts of myself that can never be filled ’ ‘ fuck the idea that there is such a thing as destiny ’ ‘ the pain did not make me a better person ’ ‘ i burned the bridges to all the things i could not repair ’ ‘ i would thank you , but we both know you don’t deserve it ’ ‘ i bet you regret making an enemy out of me ’ ‘ you can hate me forever if that’s what you really want ’ ‘ hurting others is a choice ’ ‘ you can have my forgiveness but you can’t have me ’ ‘ please believe me when i say revenge was never my intention ’ ‘ i am strong enough for anything ’ ‘ i am so glad we were born during the same lifetime ’ ‘ i may not believe in fate , but i believe in you ’ ‘ i am allowed to live my life ’ ‘ do not waste a minute mourning me ’ ‘ maybe you should start treating people better for a change ’ ‘ it is a fucking tragedy when the world does not stop for you when you give it every last drop of your blood ’ ‘ your failures are just what happened — they don’t have to be who you are ’ ‘ you have to keep moving forward ’ ‘ don’t allow the world to take your kindness ’ ‘ you owe no one your forgiveness ’ ‘ love is never a weakness ’

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// I’ve been drawing lots of Camilla things 👀

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// I reblogged something while thinking I was on my art tumblr. It’s time to go to bed lmao ✌🏽

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   “Fuck...I need a drink.”

She says...while holding a beer............ .......she needs another bottle. Maybe 12.