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[gymaaholic]

Investing in your health has the highest return on investment

That should be your highest priority.

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[suavecitojay]

To add to my last post we are still in communication and now it’s just going to give it time and see…

[suavecitojay]

10/31/25

It ended.. no more casi algo and it hurts more then anyone thinks, I’m doing my best to keep my head up and use it for myself to get my shit together. I guess I was right inside it was always just me and she just enjoyed the attention and everything that came with it. We finally had kissed this year and now she’s trying to joke about her being in charge until I have a GF. Too soon and I’m going to set my boundaries and I’m going to stick to them. I took everything I had off that will remind me of her. And I will not pay for anything anymore. I can’t it’s only going to hurt me more then I already feel. Tomorrow will be day one at the gym it’s me time and I’m going to stick too it. I have too or I have to go to therapy. Or even both. I guess the saying is true nice guys finish last. Having a good heart will only get you hurt.. anyways I’ll prob be using this to journal more. I took her off my pin on my texts too & the search bar on IG I can not be looking at her stories or anything eventually I’ll delete the photos in the hidden but for now it’s good to know that at I got to enjoy her.. I will miss you M I loved you and I hoped it would of worked but you never know maybe life is going to bring us back but I’m not going to hold my breath to that. It’s ME time. No dating either. Just me

[suavecitojay]

Antarctica by suicideboys hit so hard rn.. 8/2/25

[suavecitojay]

5/5/25

Cinco de mayo, not feeling my best but I’m trying to get better. I feel like I’ve been drowning and I can’t catch a break. I love what I do but I don’t feel the love. I feel like I’m just an employee and it’s useless. I’m stronger then I know it I showed it. But I still get talked to but I’m learning to hold my ground and I won’t be tolerate getting belittle I will just say okay and walk away. With all this going on I end up fucking up and telling the 2nd most important woman in my life happy birthday. I feel like crap. But I think made it up to her today. Here at the gym as I write this. Got a solid workout in cardio and ate good I feel good definitely the gym helped me out. I just have this is my 9 years anniversary doing this and part of me wants to quit and do real estate or filming.. might just do it on the side

[suavecitojay]

2/13/25

Welp another day off but this time not by choice but being told.

Actions have consequences and consequences are by actions.

Learning my lesson but also a harsh truth there are no friends in sales and everyone is just in it for themselves and that’s it.

As I’m typing this I’m in the sauna at the gym first day back leg day and I’m couldn’t even do 10 mins on stairs I need to remember who the fuck I am and how I need to get shit done. Pity on myself is for the weak. I have to chase my dreams my goals I’ve been stuck in this complacent funk that I can’t get out of but I’m not there anymore I’m going to do the moves I need to do for myself starting today I promise my self it. The way I felt heavy breathing I love this shit it pushes me drives me I feel stress free I want this more then anything this will drive me at work. I know it because I’ve done it.

[suavecitojay]

Goals achievements 2025

Sell 132 cars well 15 a month

Travel once with my family once with Mabi

Make more $ saving up

Back to the gym to eating 100% no more slacking I feel it.

Keep on my social medias it’s my internet

Work smarter not harder

Learn to say no

Spend more time with Mabi, introduce her to my parents or her to the girls.

Stop talking tho the one who owes me money

Gym 5 days a week 6 days cardio

Meal prepping

Keep helping my brother and his wife

Ask out Mabi at Disney for valentines

Find out why Brandon doesn’t care for me.

Clean up my work desk. Files etc.

Time management

Quit vaping for good.

Talk to my parents more often, including coming to the house.

3rd house if possible

Raise the rent on the rental

Keep communication good with Mabi and I get her to open up more to me. And me to her.

Possibly look for new jobs.

Updated 12/31/24

[suavecitojay]

So today I lost internet, but I think I’m going about it wrong way.

If I want to grow, I need to say okay when or how

To define the person I’m dealing with.

[suavecitojay]

Feeling like I’ve done too much and gotten a little in return but in a way I knew what I was getting myself into and doing I made her feel some type of way and hopefully sparked something in her to realize that I’m not just anyone that I’m more then just a friend. But idk maybe I’m wrong and I’m hopeful for the best. I guess only time will tell.

[suavecitojay]

Sometimes life gets too complicated and overwhelming that you just shut down and don’t think how it can affect those around you the most.. but we all deal with shit in our own way.. I guess you just shut down more than i thought. I worry about you and care about you. But ima give you your space aver que..

[suavecitojay]

6/4/24

Feeling little down. Emotionally. I don’t like that you’re pulling away again and that I seen some guy commenting hearts on your page while you have my car to use. But what comes around goes around I just have to stay strong.

[suavecitojay]

Life

Things are getting funky, with my situation ship.

But I guess that’s just part of life and I need to learn that it’s just life. You can’t control, how the other people feels. Just know that all I done, did it been out of kindness and from my heart, if things end now then it will be what it is, like I said to you. You hold a very special place in my heart. That won’t change does it hurt yes it does, but that’s just part of what makes us human. Your going through things as well that you can’t tell me.

Im not looking to date if this ends, I need time to heal and feel what im going through just focus on myself and my health and work. That’s just who I am. My communication skills have changed but it’s still things I need to learn.

No matter what I’m going to be here for you M.A.V 🩷

Supporting you and rooting for you even it is at a distance and your girls.

3/29/24

[suavecitojay]

3/16

Oh tumblr you’ve been there for me for things I can’t tell others and things I keep bottled in…

What do you do when you have feelings for someone who isn’t ready to date but when you’re together things are different.. evening I’ve done for her and her girls I’ve done because it’s coming from me, I’ve never expected anything back things have just happened.. why now tho because you’ve been more distant. I notice it but I don’t say anything because I already know you’re dealing with your things and that’s how you deal with them.. should I say something? Or just let it be, someone who truly understands you lets you do things on your own because that’s how you deal with them. You just offer to be there.. they aren’t going to fight on why you haven’t talked to cause a fight that’s not how things work. Well not to me.

I just sucks because I want to wait for you, but I feel like you telling me that you don’t want to hold me back is you telling me to let you go and just move on. But I’m not going to go date anyone I’m just literally going to focus on working and making more money… that’s what I do it’s how I cope with things. And the gym which is on my list todo anyways.

I guess I need to focus on other things and not make you a priority but it’s been like this now for a year, you won’t admit it but I know you care more then just a friend. You’re just scared because of all the things you’ve been through…

For now it’s just taking it day by day. What life wants to happen will happen.. if life wants me out of your life or me out of yours then that’s going to be life..

I care for you more than I’ve cared for someone in a long long time but I guess that’s just me.

M❤️

[suavecitojay]

2024 goals

Sell 132 cars hit the yearly bonus

Get back on the gym 5 days a week get to my goal body weight and look.

Stop vaping for good.

Save 120k

Pay off the Amex

Get the new platinum card

Figure out what I’m going to do with the lease either buy it and or get a new one 1000 max payment

Travel to Mexico with family and then once alone or with friends

Take more risks

More content for work

Be happier learn to leave those behind who don’t want to be in my life.

Date I’m not getting any younger

[suavecitojay]

Things are better but still feel off. But I think it’s me more then anything.

I think it’s me in my mind that’s getting to me along with things that are going on at work and at home.

I need to figure out how to get out of my head. And just do what I need to do.

Besides that another of my friends just disappeared again

[suavecitojay]

Life is getting better, the feelings are still there somewhat. Things are up and down but that’s normal giving the circumstances.

Im just going along with things and seeing where they go.

But I’m also putting myself out there. So I can heal myself and see what’s out there too.

I don’t want to say too much but just letting the course so what is supposed todo.

For now just focusing on my work, myself and the gym

[suavecitojay]

Update, things seem better but still little confused on things. Not sure we’re we stand but getting photos and the calls are nice but not the same I feel like I’m changing too.

I feel like you want something but then again don’t. Then posting the indirects to someone. I’m not dumb either but that’s your life.

I feel like I’m just taking care of you and that’s all but In the end well see we shall see what happens

For now I’m just here waiting to see where things go.