Hope For The Damned

[nd-ramblings]

[sadallthedamntime-blog]

[a-healthy-dose-of-apathy]

[never-not-ever]

I can’t even count how many times I’ve thought this lately

[mangojuulpoddd]

[siickangel]

i feel too much or nothing at all // from my journal

[submissive-dreamer]

So it has been a very long time since I’ve touched this. All I can say is this will be my dumping ground for all the stuff I can’t post elsewhere. Welcome.

[submissive-dreamer]

Got my #embrace today as well at @apsaradancechester HELL YEAH 💪🏽 #improvingeveryday #poledancing #polefitness #poleislife #progress (at Apsara Dance)

[submissive-dreamer]

Got my #stag today at @apsaradancechester needs a little more work but not a bad start! #poleislife #polefitness #poledancing #improvingeveryday (at Apsara Dance)

[submissive-dreamer]

In celebration of #internationalwomensday on Saturday #feminist #feminism #equalityofthesexes #equalityforeveryone

[submissive-dreamer]

My love for Trevor Noah has merely expanded. He is an amazing and beautiful human being, and his comfy brightens up my life. I live for what he has to say

[submissive-dreamer]

Last night's showcase for @polefitness_ was an absolute blast. Totally would do it again and again 🖤 love my pole family 🖤 #universityofchester #poledancing #polefitness #showcase #mychesterstory #polefamily #poleislove #poleislife (at University of Chester)

[submissive-dreamer]

I love this tshirt from @turtlesandwich thank you!!!!! ❤💜💚💙🐼

[submissive-dreamer]

Got my new tattoo @vaudevilletattooco by Colm. I'm amazed with the quality and definitely want another! Might need to save up though 🖤😍 #tattoolover #newtattoo #frankenweenietattoo #frankenweenie #vaudevilletattooco

[submissive-dreamer]

I get asked a lot what does a bad day feel like to you? And I feel now is a good time to come to terms with it. A bad day for me is feeling empty, that I cannot accomplish anything at a specific moment despite previous achievements, these achievements will be dismissed by anxiety telling me that what I've done will never be enough whilst my depression tells me there's no use in trying. My PTSD then comes along and reminds me why I'm this way, allowing my depression to drag me down further in self hatred and despair. I will be consumed by an invisible nothingness that feels like a brick wall, stopping me from doing the simplest things like making a drink or even simply getting out of bed. Some days I can get past these feeling, other days it consumes me like a wave of instability. But I'm not ashamed of it, it's who I am and I will learn with time that all these episodes will pass and that they do not define my being. #survivor #mentalhealth #ptsd #anxiety #depression #yourfeelingsmatter #yourmentalhealthmatters #scarrednotscared

[nevver]

[idiona]