DOG SNORES @subterranean-shut-in - Tumblr Blog

Who needs healthy mental health anyway lol not me even if I try and get help because ill just be sent in circles and be worse off than when I started!!!

#personal #Im so frustrated #I hate everything #Fine Ill just go smoke weed and hide in my room for the rest of my life #I pushed myself to start this because I dont want to do it but know I need to do it to not be like this anymore #But now after hours on the phone and zero support from anyone im out of steam and just want to quit and cry forever!!!!

Really hoping i was just too high last night while playing strange antiquities and thats why I was so bad at it

#Guess we'll see how dumb i am today lol #Personal #Strange antiquities

I had so much energy to clean and do things earlier this week and now I'm can to bring a depressed blob. It was nice while it lasted i guess

#personal #Back to being sad

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I finally asked my psychiatrist for a referral to an intensive outpatient program and I have therapy today and I feel so relieved

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lol jk apparently I still have a bunch more hoops to jump thru before I get a referral since apparently one from my psychiatrist isn't enough

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I thought I had a full blown freak out in couples therapy last week when I thought i completely exploded, but my bf and therapist said I was fine and didn't think I melted down like I did and I can't stop thinking about it

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Like 10 years ago I got two rats and named them AJ(J) and Keasbey(nights) and now in a few weeks im going to see ajj open for streetlight✨️

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Waiting anxiously for couples therapy and preparing myself as much as I can for the fight I'm about to start with my therapist for dismissing me

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I have so much shit to talk to my therapist about today and im so excited to not have to hold all of this in anymore!!!!

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I finally asked my psychiatrist for a referral to an intensive outpatient program and I have therapy today and I feel so relieved

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Anyone else not able to listen to streetlight manifesto's new stuff because the music reminds you of all your dead friends who either showed you the band or used to scream the lyrics with lol its a very weird ironic feeling and I hate it

#I always wanted to listen to streetlight for the first time again #But now im doing it alone #Listening over my sobs while I sit alone in my room #Personal #I know I need to make new friends but whats the point when they die or abandon me for their new partners #I went and got my best friends ashes so now im not alone alone