Moved to @/identityduper. This is now an abandoned blog and likely outdated
Hi, I'm Fizz! I'm a he/him trans man jester clown freak. Idfk what my sexuality is. I guess I sort of like mascs/men, though?? Eh I'll try to figure it out eventually. I'm also a KAngel/Ame-chan kinnie and dogboykin/dogkin. Fun, right? /s
If you think you know me from anywhere else: No you don't. I only exist as this internet persona. Trust.
I'm a headmate/fictive of an OSDD system. My role(s) is something to do with NPD/HPD(?) symptoms, and also likely being a co-host or something idk. I got permission to hijack this account and make it my own, so I'll be the main one posting here! Expect lots of silly jester shenanigans. And by that I mean me being a mentally ill FREAK.
Also, if other headmates use my account, then they'll use a sign-off. No sign-off = me
Currently the host and BB are considering using my blog, as they don't want to make their own system sideblog, but still want to post about system stuff every now and then.
I can't ever shut up about myself, and keep embarrassing myself, too, cuz I just can't help myself, so expect me to die inside a lot teehee ;P
Anyway, my system as a whole has a concoction of mental illnesses. Most of them are undiagnosed, cuz the free healthcare here in Denmark is shit highkey. As an example: I got diagnosed with Aspergers in the big 2020. I just say I have autism/ASD, though, since I hate the term Aspergers. And that's not even mentioning the long ass waiting lists and it being random if you get a good professional.
So yeah, the most important disorders that show up the most for me as an alter is my very obvious NPD and my HPD traits. And I guess the autism, but that paints all my headmates' actions.
Also also, I might accidentally end up "lovebombing"/people pleasing at times. I just really want people to like me, so I try to appease them as much as possible by feeding their ego/complimenting them, and even tend to automatically mirror them/mirror their beliefs/personality. It's a pattern I noticed recently that my system does, so yeah.
I'll try to keep my toxic shit in check, though.
And just as an fyi: My entire jester persona thing is pretty much just an act/NPD thing teehe-
I'll try to stay out of discourse on this blog fyi cuz I just. I don't wanna engage with it. Too stressful to constantly worry about it on every blog ykyk. If I don't want you interacting with me, then you're getting blocked.
Also also, I use this blog to vent sometimes. I don't condone selfharm or getting worse in any sense. Managing your symptoms so you don't hurt yourself or others is important, yall.
So yeah. Hello. I am so normal and totally not chronically online and a weirdo little jester freak.
Timezone: CET/CEST ( I'm European lol )
Go check out my headmate Kris's blog at @krishateslife
