Personal Status Update
Hey, it’s been a few weeks! I realize that I kind of slipped out of certain SU fandom circles I was hanging out in around the time that the finale SU Future promo came out, and haven’t been working on @sufaeu at all, - so I just wanted to write a little about why that is, and confirm that I’m still around. Just keeping my distance for a bit.
One of the big things is that concretely finding out how soon SU was ending was actually kind of a bigger emotional blow than I expected. I completely withdrew from fandom stuff for a while after that promo, because honestly, even thinking about SU Future was making me sad, just because its something I have loved dearly since its early days. I’ve never actually been with a fandom that meant so much to me from start to finish before. Usually, my interest has trailed off before the end, or I’ve come in when it was already over.
Another thing was that SU fandom discussion had become/still is very leak focused - half of the meta posts I was seeing go around before March were about leaks, and sometimes wouldn’t be properly labeled, as if assuming everyone already knew about them. I’ve been steadfastly refusing to view leaks and have really wanted to experience SU’s end on my own terms, so it made the most sense to avoid fandom discussions until it’s all over.
A related factor is that a LOT of people are as emotional about this series as I am, which means that fandom has also been generating a lot of anxiety and worry. While I am utterly sympathetic to people fretting about how it will all wind up, I really couldn’t handle having my own anxiety stoked by other people, so I decided to severely moderate my fandom participation until the series was over. Large amounts of speculation wasn’t doing my brain any good.
So far, I’m very glad I made this decision - I’m happy to have avoided leaks, and to be experiencing the end without a lot of outside influence. I figure that stuff can wait until after we’ve seen it all play out. Having watched the episodes so far (up to Growing Pains at the time of writing) I am actually super pleased with the direction the series is going, and am super excited to see where it ends up. Even if I’m also sad to think about all the stuff that probably won’t be covered in more detail due to lack of time. (Where are you, Centi?!)
Still rooting for corruption theory (lol) but we’ll see.
Once the series is concluded I’m hoping to come back, and have plans to write a follow up to my fanfiction Divided - a thing that is very tied up in Steven’s trauma, so I definitely want to see where SUF goes before I do. I want to come back to @sufaeu as well. Just taking a break for the time being, to let the end of canon properly sink in.
I never really announced I was taking a break anywhere because it seemed presumptuous to think people would care, according to my own anxieties. But, I did want to say something at some point.













