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walking ㅤon ㅤshadows, i ㅤcan't ㅤlead ㅤhim ㅤback

[sufferwolf]

— ˀ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤslipknot — self titled album ask prompts.

all you have to do is get rid of me!

don't you fuckin' pity me.

you haven't learned a thing.

you want it, you need it.

you stupid fuck.

don't ever judge me!

what the fuck is up?

you can't begin to consider the palpable hate.

god, what the fuck is wrong?

i have sinned by just making my mind up.

how the hell did i get here?

i am my father's son.

'bout time i set this record straight.

i'm nothing short of being one complete catastrophe.

i've felt the hate rise up in me.

how many times have you wanted to kill?

you're leavin' me suspect, i'm leavin' you grotesque.

i am not ashamed.

i can't be blamed!

do you wanna feel pain?

all i ever wanted out of you was something you could never be.

maybe it's me, but i'm frantic in a panic.

what the hell did i do to deserve all of this?

i don't like a fuckin' thing.

this fucking life is killing me.

it isn't easy to be hated.

i feel safe.

feels like a burn from which you never learn.

spit it out.

i won't allow it.

you bet your bottom dollar i'm the top of the shit pile.

i wanna die, i'd rather die.

how many times have you wanted to die?

can you look in my eyes when my back's against the wall?

better get away from me.

all i wanna do is stamp you out.

never had peace but i gotta fight.

think i fear you? bullshit!

is there any way to break through the noise?

what the hell am i sayin'?

i'm cold, i'm ugly.

i'm gonna snap.

there's something inside me.

better get an army 'cause the fire left me unscathed.

what is vital isn't always humane.

cause and effect, you jealous ass.

i'm takin' names and gettin' pissed!

it is time!

it's all in your head.

forget today, forget whatever happened.

my state of mind gets so one-sided.

i don't want you to pay anyone when i die.

this'll better me, a part of me.

it doesn't matter what price, you win.

my heroes are dead, they died in my head.

what the hell have i done?

i can't control my shakes.

fuck you!

running out of ways to run.

get the fuck away.

where you gonna be in the next five years?

fuck me! i'm all out of enemies!

idiotic sense of yourself, are you that dumb?

the price is too human for fucking sake.

she's never coming back.

you got no pull, no power, no nothin'.

is it malice that makes you this way?

fuck this shit, i'm sick of it.

can't escape this place.

i am not a dog, but i'm the one you dog.

i wasn't very much fun to be with anyway.

have you ever seen god?

i have never felt so final.

seems you're saved.

keep in mind, i watch you.

all this attention is doing me in!

i don't need you anymore.

i found you.

now you start shit? well, ain't that somethin'?

then you're dumber than i thought.

you heard me right, bitch, i didn't stutter.

there's something in you i despise.

who the fuck am i to criticize your twisted state of mind?

every damn word i say is a sneak attack.

i can't be a part of a system such as this.

i see you in me.

someone in behind me.

you're goin' down, this is a war!

i haven't got time for the living.

something inside me has opened up again.

i make you my enemy.

what the fuck is this, another joke?

you keep mocking me.

did you never give a damn in the first place?

payoffs don't protect, and you can hide if you want—but i'll find you.

i can't believe i'm doin' this.

are you scared of me now?

now take a real good look at what you've fucking done to me.

do you know what it's like to live with that?

i can't think of any other words to say but fuck.

you lied to me for so long.

i know what you want, and i can give it to you.

you ain't no fucking friend of mine.

get off of my back.

you don't care 'cause you don't exist.

am i the only motherfucker with a brain?

this is no kind of life!

you won't bother me if you let me bother you.

good riddance—though i'm sad to say i didn't get to kill you.

i am the push that makes you move.

i'm hearing voices but all they do is complain.

all i see is hate.

fuck you all!

give me any reason why i'd need you.

i can't remember, i don't understand.

you don't matter!

you ain't shit, just a puddle on the bed spread.

man nearly killed me.

show me what you wanna be.

all i want is what is mine.

i don't wanna do a show with your shitty fuckin' band.

when i get my hands on you, ain't a fucking thing you can do.

get this or die!

i have to laugh out loud.

just do what you have to do to me.

even if you run, i will find you.

i am hungry and tired.

don't you know who you're dissin'?

i don't know about malevolent.

give me any reason not to fuck you up.

it's too late for me.

i can handle anything.

if you know what's good—just shut up and beg, brother.

i can hardly take it.

you don't give a shit.

i'm not the second coming, i'm the first wave.

i guess it's time to bury your ass with the chrome straight to the dome.

why am i so fascinated by bigger pictures, better things?

gotta be that way if you want it.

i wasn't promised a thing.

no one knows what it's like.

you suck, they suck, guess what? get fucked.

all you wanna do is drag me down.

i haven't changed a thing.

is it a dream or a memory?

you made your own fucking choice.

better make yourself at home, you're here to stay.

anybody else got pride?

life's so shitty, but ain't it fucking great?

too far gone, i'm catatonic.

you can't kill me 'cause i'm already inside you.

how long have i had this?

i can stare into a thousand eyes but every smile hides a bold-faced lie.

i think i'm slowly dying.

this is not the way i pictured me.

hard life is hard as hell.

i'm always confused by everything.

i am the very disease you pretend to be.

i wish i didn't like this.

i laugh 'cause there's nothing to say.

who the fuck are you?

you're all reality and sound bites.

you all stare, but you'll never see.

are you sick of me?

i don't care what you think, you'll never understand me.

lemme tell you somethin'—i'll push you back!

you don't care.

i don't give a shit, bitch.

just 'cause i have nerves, don't mean that i can feel.

forget about the battle, it's the war we gotta win.

the pain was always free.

carry it with you 'til someone forgives you.

fuck everything that you stand for!

biding my time until the time is right.

you act like you knew it all along.

why didn't i see this?

get a grip, don't let me slip

you can't stop me from breaking your face.

get this 'cause you're never gonna get me.

i am fucking gone, i think i'm fucking dying.

maybe it's time you had the tables turned.

just another dumb punk chompin' at this tit.

stay the fuck away from me!

life is just too fucking hard.

damn it, man, i knew it was a mistake.

can't you see it's gotta be this way?

the whole thing, i think it's sick.

don't berate me.

ain't never had a problem since you stopped coming here.

many have come and gone.

do you wanna take my life?

i don't need this.

all the doors are locked, all the windows shut.

say you'll do it, but never will.

here comes the pain.

only one of us walks away.

get outta my head 'cause i don't need this.

was it something that i said that got you bent?

[sufferwolf]

— ˀ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤlana del rey — a.k.a. lizzy grant ask prompts.

that's what i'm talking 'bout.

let me play with your new shotgun.

let me talk on your cb-walkie.

in a pickup truck.

you got the grin of a very old man.

i don't have to talk pretty for them no more.

i think we're gonna get along.

that's what happens when you're on your own.

honey, don't you know you have everything?

it wasn't anything.

well, i pawned the earrings that you gave me.

i'm in the shower.

i'm electrified, i'll be up all night now.

i don't play a good guitar but what do you want from me?

gramma said that somewhere out there there's a good man waiting for me.

i let the best man i knew go.

i want to be the whole world's girl.

let me put on a show for you, daddy.

i don't mind living on bread and oranges.

i'm taking off my wedding ring.

i gave you everything.

i can talk what i want.

you think i'm pretty and you like the way i talk.

tell me that you think i'm good.

it's like you said it's all been done before.

do you know i am going to leave you?

i'm trying to tell you what i dream of.

yo, you look so nice.

say you'll never leave me.

no man can keep me together, been broken since i was born.

i don't want to think i'm wrong just for feeling pretty.

dance me all around the room.

it's nice to love and be loved.

trouble's what feels good to me.

i like the way you wear your sweater off your shoulder.

maybe we could go to coney island?

do i make you feel like christmas time?

tell me that i'm just a baby, honey.

just do what you can.

this little world is yours tonight.

come as you are.

i didn't promise anything.

you have to take me right now.

don't you know, you don't need a thing?

all i want to do is play.

sing that song.

i'm in love with everyone.

what's your name, little buttercup?

maybe i could sing the national anthem?

i'd rather know what god knows.

you can be my daddy.

say i make you feel like like you did when you were thirteen.

it only takes two hours to nevada.

baby, if you loved me, you would call me your bunny.

i don't want to think i'm bad.

i'm the kind of girl you dream of.

gramma said she'll leave the lights on for me.

the stars fade from your eyes.

put me in a movie.

how are you getting so handsome, my boy?

i look for you in magazines.

he didn't know he'd have this much fun.

you know i can't make it on my own.

just do what you love.

every time you feel unsure, try remember what you are.

don't you know you are the world?

alright, you caught me.

maybe i could sing you to sleep?

tell me, do you think that's wrong?

i have done everything i can.

look what you done now.

well, i didn't know it would come to this.

don't trust anyone.

i like the snake on your tattoo.

i'm in love with a dying man.

[sufferwolf]

— ˀ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤlana del rey, as may jailer — sirens ask prompts.

when will i learn that there ain't nothing i can do?

don't ever pick up a man if you don't think he'll understand.

you didn't wanna go anywhere else.

don't let my momma hear your pretty song.

i want to stay home, be left alone.

there's something about seeing him die that puts it all into perspective.

can't put my finger on it, but i know i want it.

your hair exactly is what i like the best.

honey, i'll miss you.

they're trying to teach me about ways of forgiving.

i'm tired of making decisions without thinking.

you have this way of making me say the opposite of everything i mean.

i'll do what you tell me, we can have it your way.

my momma wouldn't say you were a nice guy.

he's so sure he's got a tragic lifestyle.

aren't you gonna miss me?

baby, you're standing so close.

i ain't got no money, baby.

so many people say that they have it together.

i got a bad disease.

do you think i'm crazy cause i'm up and leaving, baby?

i don't wanna keep thinking you love me just to find out you don't.

someone make my mind up so i don't have to decide.

i'll find my own way back to town.

i could not feel less connected from you.

i'm willing to try another way.

you're awfully pretty.

the way i'm feeling in this moment, it can't last my whole life.

making money's hard to do right.

i'll tell you the future.

i thought we were on the mend.

don't you want me?

i'm gonna be a star.

i don't really find it hard to get around.

come on, baby, don't be shy.

i've been searching everywhere.

i think we could be birds of a feather.

every waking moment i feel so unfulfilled.

i'm going out with a bang.

i am done now.

back and forth, i don't get anywhere.

my momma, she would say your hair was too long.

i'm gonna take you on

i lied just to meet you.

you make me better.

maybe you got your own problems, who doesn't?

it made me nervous to know you didn't like me, i really tried.

bet i can make you better.

jesus was a dying man, if he can't do it, no one can.

nothing could satisfy you 'til you left.

meet me in the morning.

i try to quiet the thoughts in the night.

i'm a nice man, i live a nice life.

why did you go?

i just wanna kiss you, tonight.

i'll be all right in a month or two.

i don't need anybody when i'm down.

they're trying to teach me about new ways of living.

you're making money and you're working hard.

it's fine if you're hateful.

funny, i don't feel free.

you were so nice.

hey, man, how you doing?

how do you know me so well after only one night?

would you like to sit next to me?

that's the only way i knew how to begin.

i have a great wife.

there's a fear i have of feeling real bad.

now he's in a jail cell for some thirty years now.

you have a right to live your life like no one else does.

i don't care what you think.

he was a nice guy, really bright.

is this what you wished, to leave me behind?

my momma, she would say that i deceived you.

i'm indebted to you.

i have nothing else to do this summer but commit it to you.

wrap your arms around me.

hey, there, what you doing?

it's time to be on my way.

most of us were in bed all right.

did you want to die?

you really put me in quite a position.

i don't know what i want to be.

if she ever saw you, she'd be smitten, too.

lately i've been thinking about making changes.

i think you're so fun.

don't you tell me how i need to be, that ain't up to anybody else but me.

i'll never take you home, i want you all for my own.

another day is over, another day is done.

where'd you go?

i don't feel like it's wrong.

what about us?

you really seem like a prize to me.

there is something about watching a crime.

i care about how this turns out.

me and my momma, we don't get along.

tell me that it's over, now that you have found me.

baby, go to hell.

i'm a fan of flying.

i know i caught you at a not-so-happy time of your life.

i heard the sirens interrupt the silence.

where are you now?

you don't think i'm that strange.

well, i ain't got nobody.

the future is not here.

i know i wanted all this in the beginning, i really tried.

it's something about seeing you fight, it makes me want to go out tonight.

is this what you wished, to commit a crime?

is this what you wished, to be serving time?

this is life.

my momma, she would love you like i love you if she ever met you.

maybe my question is, why must it come to this?

i don't believe you when you say you want to leave.

would you like a little company?

i think about him as he does time.

you saw life back in the countryside.

there's some reason why i can't sit still.

don't ever trust yourself if you have a history of being a loving fool.

i can't back down.

you're annoying.

we're going to go home again.

it's already time to go.

i'd be happier just drinking.

[sufferwolf]

— ˀ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤethel cain — carpet bed ask prompts.

i dreamed for weeks of you being my first.

you found a way to keep me here.

i hope you know that i think you look fucking cool.

daddy, there's pain in your smile.

i think of you when i'm drunk in the road in front of your old house.

i'm no good.

love's never been more than pain, so baby, show me how bad you hurt.

i miss what you'd do to me.

i'm sorry i went crazy.

i can't forget him or forgive what he did.

i won't be here forever.

it's no good.

you won't make it that far.

i tried to pull you out.

you knew nothing's that easy.

the baby's blood is on your hands.

you're just a feral dog i worship in bedroom ceremonials.

mama took the keys and she ran.

we're no good.

i told you i would be ok.

you'll never walk me down the aisle.

you walk a fine line between god and animal.

i hate that i can't love you.

i've never seen you so dark.

no one's ever gonna love me, no not like you do.

every night i'm crying in my sleep 'cause i'm dreaming about you.

i like you best when you're at home, giving it to me so nice and fucking slow.

i just thought i'd let you know.

i miss you, darling.

it's only been six weeks and i'm already like this.

we both know it's what you deserve.

you're no good.

you'll blame yourself cause it's all your fault.

i thought i loved you, but i can't take another hit.

i've tried so hard to quit you like i promised my mama i would.

i think of you while you're at work.

look at this hell you've caused.

i told you from the start i disappear when it gets cold.

for the first time in a long time, i don't want you to go away.

[sufferwolf]

— ˀ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤethel cain — golden age ask prompts.

you say i make you happy.

i don't have to wait to be happy when i'm old.

you never tell me that i'm pretty, you just say you like my tits.

i asked for it, i guess.

i like thinking i'm no different from you.

can she give you what i can't, the things i cry for every night?

i know your father hurt you.

you kill me any way but softly.

nothing hurts, not even you.

is there someone who has your heart that keeps you gone away from me?

does she smile the way i do when she has you in her mouth?

i don't wanna leave my house cause i know everybody's staring at me now.

you go on and on about some girl that you fucked in the past.

everything hurts except for you.

am i not good enough for you?

if you fuck me over i'll make sure that you can't do it again.

she's sweeter than you'll ever be when i give her kisses between her legs.

you don't know what i'd do.

you're such a man.

don't cry, you know you're mine.

baby, don't you lie to me.

do you not love me like you did when you told me that it's fine?

you don't deserve such pretty things when you all you do is shoot to kill.

i can't get out, can't run away.

am i just not what you want?

i don't want you to get tired of me.

sometimes you make me wanna put my fucking head through the wall.

was there something wrong with me?

is her skin softer than mine?

you'll never know and you'll never see.

baby, one of these days i'm gonna crack.

you'll still be alright, if you just make it to the other side.

it doesn't even matter that with or without you i can't breathe.

i think about how easy it would be to take your life away from you.

i'd take you from your crying mother and i'd never give you back.

there comes a point in every man's life where he gets the need to destroy.

girls will be bitches, and boys will be boys.

i don't hate you like i know i should.

tell me i'm no one else's but yours.

baby, we're alone now.

it'd be impossible to live without you here with me.

is she prettier than me?

show me love in whatever way it comes to you.

how am i supposed to feel good about myself when everything i do is wrong?

i saw her downtown and asked her out.

i hold my head underwater just to drown out the noise.

you're such a child and you know it.

you've still got time.

come into the room and make me cry all over again.

every drop of blood is love i don't get back.

sometimes i wonder if i even know you at all.

what a wondrous thing to be in love.

went to her house and we fucked in her bed.

i'm coming for you.

i know i'm gonna lose you.

i know i don't need you but i'm terrified of letting you go.

got what i wanted but it's never enough for me.

don't be a little bitch.

there's no escaping you now.

it feels like all i have is still just not enough.

i think that you're the best.

they wanna take me down.

there is nothing that i want but you.

i think you're so amazing.

i think about you every day.

i don't wanna be in my house anymore cause it just makes me sad.

cause when you fuck, you fuck until there's nothing left.

i want to hold you.

you know my weakness.

nothing hurts like you do, like the way you say i love you.

now that you're gone, i wanna die.

you always told me i could only leave you once we're both dead.

she'll love me and i'll love her better than you could.

i'll get over myself.

why the hell am i alive?

you say i make it a little better.

was i not good enough for you?

one of these days it'll come right back.

nothing in my heart is hoping you'll come back.

it's always my fault.

is it something in how she moves when you're undressed inside her house?

am i just that damn hard to love?

i'm still stupid and in love and i'd still let you fuck me.

you're such an angel.

do i look pretty?

i love you more than i thought i could.

i want to love you.

i don't wanna talk about love anymore, cause it's getting too much for me.

we've been cursed since the start.

i'm gonna hurt you.

i'm gonna die all alone, next to you, in this piece of shit town.

i just cry by myself at night.

i can't come close to you.

do you just want my blood?

there comes a point in every girl's life where she just wants to go fucking feral.

nothing can touch you.

you take all of your sins out on my body, like everyone else does.

all you know is how to feel and how to deal out pain.

is there something wrong with me?

i hate what love's turned out to be.

am i just not what you need?

trying on each dress i bought for you.

i bet that i could fuck her better than you can.

you won't ever change in your ways.

i'm just an ugly bitch, a fucking freak, and i don't wanna go on.

i think about the ways that i can get out of the hold you've got me in.

fuck the cops, and fuck god, and fuck this town for ruining us.

when you're torn apart, you'll destroy me again.

[sufferwolf]

— ˀ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤethel cain — inbred ask prompts.

i'll never be ready but i don't care.

if you could, you'd have fought it.

don't sink in me with your dog teeth.

maybe we could be together in another life.

i'm no good at goodbyes.

driving with my eyes closed, hope i crash.

that tunnelled light will always die with your youth.

show me where it hurts and i'll lick it better.

in no time, you'll forget the way we were supposed to be.

he's always had a problem saying no.

i forgot what stop means.

you don't know the things i've seen.

they ask how it felt to suffocate myself.

we don't even know where we are.

let go of the woe and hand it back over to me.

have i done enough for salvation?

you'll just want it more.

love is a nightmare and all that you've got.

i don't love you.

i'm all run and you're all fight.

i'm scared he was gone all along.

can you read my mind?

i shouldn't ask that of you.

you know it's true.

there's no silver line on a fucking disaster.

yeah i fucking better be.

i'm not scared of god.

you're already dead.

there comes a day you find out that you don't wanna die.

i'm spending my nights reliving it.

washed out days and stone-cold nights: best goddamn days of your whole life.

all my dreams take place in heaven where it's quiet, lying next to you.

i'm not gon' pull you out the den so they don't bite you.

maybe this could be forever in another timeline.

my baby says that he's not afraid of that.

his daddy's on death row.

i'll love 'til i'm sore.

it's yours.

i hate to let you go.

i see you, i feel you, i know you.

you need easy, you want weak.

baby, i know.

you drank the blood and bit the meat.

yeah right, he fucking loves me.

i was young and sweet, and then something happened.

touch me 'til i vomit.

we're already dead.

i need to pray hard.

everything's easier way out west.

i hope that you're happy.

you think you're someone else.

you should watch yourself.

maybe i'll just be crazy.

you were wrong.

what's the point if you're not by my side?

you missed the heart and you just hit all the meat.

party's over, go the fuck home.

jack the car and let it ride.

i'm too good for you.

mama's comatose, she can't leave the bed.

i don't know what happened.

where were you?

i owe you a black eye and two kisses.

i've been here too long.

we're hurting now so what are we to do 'til then?

do you think of me too?

he hates the way you look at me.

good men die too.

it hurts to grow up.

you're right, in a way.

his older brother bagged the valedictorian.

i lied when i said i didn't want you.

you'll die if you leave it up to god.

he's mean, i'm meaner.

you're just the worst of all my men.

i'm unpunishable.

i can't get enough of it.

i've been watching you.

welcome conflict and let crisis come and shake the ground beneath.

it's still never enough.

our kids will grow up with half as much.

who will take the fall?

you can fuck yourself.

you get off on innocence so you savor this.

he's so good to me and to nobody else.

i only want him if he says it first to me.

i learned a lesson.

couldn't fight to save your life but you look so cool.

how so, babe?

i would never tell you the truth.

i love you.

it's easy for him to get out of me.

you know she hates you.

who of us is stronger?

i've been drinking from this river 'til i bled it dry.

not everything feels like something else.

i won't feel good again until i'm up inside you.

we're better off if you let go.

will i always be crying during sex with you?

i've loved before, i'll kill again.

can you just tell me which way i'm driving?

the vertigo's fun til' you want it to stop.

right now i need you.

been scared of the dark for all of my life.

i told my mom about you, she just laughed.

i've been here for weeks, i've been here for years.

those thrilling highs and southern nights are always out of reach.

i sing the lord's euthanasia blues.

something's been feeling weird lately.

tell me when you wanna come and get 'em.

forgive me, my trespasses.

we wake up and all the fucking lights are out.

something smells rotten and it's starting to spread.

you can't win 'em all.

i'll bury us both, fed to the night as ghosts.

baby, we'll survive.

home's not home unless you're there.

whose is it now?

i tell all my friends everything you do.

you've tasted love and it tasted sweet.

he looks like he works with his hands and smells like marlboro reds.

there's just something about you, baby.

it was a highway to nowhere, and we rode it.

it's no good, 'cause who am i without you?

if it was harder then, it will be better now.

he lied 'cause i sure did watch him.

i keep on losing track of time.

if i'm crying, it's because i'm in love.

take care of me god.

i'll lay on the floor.

when you're old you'll understand.

the road is longer than it is hard with no one to guide you.

call me what you want and i'll be that.

i'm bad, he's worse.

i'm always afraid but never to die.

i love the way it always feels to miss you.

if he wakes up, he'll show you what i'm talking about.

i could love you if i tried.

i don't even know who you are.

i'd rather be with you.

born to lie, so you lie and you lie and you lie.

no best foot forward to sway the odds.

it doesn't matter if the grass is greener on the other side, as long as it's alive.

could you be someone else if someone else is what i need?

i could be good but it wouldn't matter.

[sufferwolf]

— ˀ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤethel cain — perverts ask prompts.

no one you know is a good person.

it is no good bearing false witness.

nature chews on me.

maybe it's not meant to be explained.

it has always been this way.

i am punished by love.

shame is sharp.

it's happening to everybody.

i am sure that hell must be cold.

only god would believe that i was an angel.

maybe it was all a lie.

send down your cordage of suffocation and let me in.

what you do is nothing to me.

i like that sound you make.

i'll be alright.

i won't move.

they made me leave.

i was an angel, though plummeting.

heaven has forsaken the masturbator.

i love you.

he was a natural plauché.

maybe it's true.

i can't feel anything.

it is such a precious thing to be loved.

take me, i ain't gonna scream.

i'll claw my way back to the great dark and we will not speak of this place again.

until then, i guess i'll just lie here and wait.

do you think you know how to give up?

fast, reckless driving often leads to slow, sad music.

when you were young, you said you wished that someone loved you.

i am what i am and i am nothing.

i can tell you right now, it's beautiful.

do you like that, baby?

if you want, you can bite me.

i still kick rocks when the walking is good.

you were nothing to me.

whatever's wrong with me i will take to bed.

it feels good.

i take the long way home.

this agony, such is the consequence of audience.

you won't lose me to thunder or lightning, but you could to crowded rooms.

i give in so easy.

i am what i am but we are not the same.

it took something from me, something i can't quite explain.

do you think you understand what it means to be loved?

you're so smooth.

such a wondrous and painful thing to be loved.

it's not meant to be marked down in words or scrawled out on a piece of paper.

here i am empty.is it not fun to feel many other ways?

you won't forget this.

let me tell you how much i've come to hate you since i began to live.

are these laurels to be proud of?

in the morning i will mar myself again.

it is no good speaking of fairness.

only god knows.

nature chews on me.

i've tried so hard to explain in words what it meant to me.

i want to know what god knows, and i will be with him.

i want to know what it feels like.

i will dislocate my jaw to fit it all in.

i want to know love.

i always wondered if it would come back.

the devil i know is the devil i want.

my skin gives so easy.

[sufferwolf]

— ˀ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤethel cain — willoughby tucker, i'll always love you ask prompts.

to be known the way you should is to put yourself through hell.

i warned you, for me, it's not that hard.

don't ask me why i hate myself.

i've heard it before from someone who leaves.

i'll hurt myself if i want.

i can wait if i want but it'll never be good enough like i want to believe it is.

all of alabama laid out in front of your eyes but all you could see was me.

she's got her makeup done and her high heels on.

you'll keep changing, i will stay the same.

if you're not scared of jesus, fuck around and come find out.

time passes slower in the flicker of a hospital light.

she's a bad motherfucker.

i'm half of you.

lay me down where the trees bend low.

time may forgive me, but i won't.

i will wait.

love is not enough in this world.

you were kind.

this was all for you.

do you swing from your neck with the hope someone cares?

i want to bleed, i want to hurt the way that boys do.

her daddy keeps her in a box but it's no good.

will it be like this forever?

she's just trying to feel good right now.

do you hate me?

now i'll wear these scars for life.

my baby acts cool, but they all know something ain't right.

i don't care.

you know i'd do anything for you.

please leave open your most quiet door.

i bled till i cried, till i felt i might die.

i still shake just by nature.

what you do with all that mouth?

i'm still scared of that knock on the door.

the air in your room never moves.

she really gets around town in her old cadillac.

maybe you're right and we should stop watching the news.

think of all the time that i'll have with you.

it wasn't pretty like the movies, it was ugly like what they all did to me.

i keep the pictures hanging where the world can see 'em.

i can lead you to bed, but i can't make you sleep.

they say she looks just like her mama before the drugs.

you come around here just to watch me writhe.

i wanna die in this room.

when you said that you're in love, i never wondered if you're sure.

still, i waited and tried.

you're not scared of no knock on the door.

i still dream of violence.

i loved you when it hurt inside to.

i liked him 'cause his rule was "do whatever you like," and i tried alright.

i'll never live it down if i never get around it.

easy to hate, easy to blame.

i still play pretend like i don't watch you leaving.

the doctors gave you until the end of the night.

we were in a race to grow up.

i've never seen brown eyes look so blue.

she's no good at raising children, but she's good at raising hell.

can you hear them?

shoot me down, come on, hurt me.

that picture on the wall you're scared of looks just like you.

i pray the race is worth

the fight.

please don't leave me, i'll always need more.

death, it takes too long.

everything i've loved i've loved it straight to death.

i will always love you.

i've been picking names for our children.

i can't hold you anymore.

made a fool of myself down on tennessee street.

she's gonna get what she wants.

i'd rather die than be anything but your girl.

you tried to wade in 'cause you wanted just to tell me who you were.

am i what you think about all late at night?

yeah, you've changed, but did i ever know you?

to love me is to suffer me.

i can hear them singing.

i can see the end in the beginning of everything and in it, you don't want me.

they did to me what i wouldn't do to anyone.

i know you by your footsteps on the floor.

i don't know what i need.

i am young and naïve.

you were there looking for me, but i was gone.

i'm wide open and deserving.

i hope i die today.

i know she's your girl now, but she was my girl first.

i know, she really taught me well.

i swore i'd be good to you.

i won't wake up on my own.

think of us inside after the wedding.

put me down where the greenery stings.

you'll go fight a war, i'll go missing.

if you could, you'd leave it all.

i wanna go home.

she was my sister first.

they all wanna take her out, but no one ever wants to take her home.

all the boys wanna love her when she bats her fuck-me eyes.

i'll never blame her.

i'll never be kind enough to me.

goddammit, i did it to myself in hindsight.

please, just go easy on me.

i'd reach into your body and fix you if i could.

how much of a cruel year can you call my fault?

she goes to church straight from the clubs.

are you angry?

smoking that shit your daddy smoked in vietnam.

the boys can't get enough of her.

i'll never be that kind of angel.

when this is over, maybe then, we'll get some sleep.

i knew it was love when i rode home crying thinking of you fucking other girls.

you know it's true 'cause i've said it to you.

grew up hard, fell off harder.

hold me.

i never meant to hurt you.

it's not looking good, but did it ever?

i kinda hate her.

i'm gonna regret this.

[sufferwolf]

— ˀ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤethel cain — preacher's daughter ask prompts.

say what you want, but say it like you mean it.

i'll still be alright.

lay it on me.

that scares me.

i just wanna sleep.

honey, love's never meant much to me.

i'm crying only because i'm happy.

i never blamed you for loving me the way that you did.

i tried to be good.

i am here now as you run from me still.

daddy said shoot first then run and don't look back.

i don't need anything from anyone.

it's just not my year.

my mama raised me better than that.

you loved your dad and the love he had for your mother.

you fell in love with america when you were twelve years old.

i met him there and told him i believe.

what fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me.

baby, hell don't scare me, i've been times before.

you wanna fuck me right now?

it was love, i guess.

we found each other on a dirty mattress on the second floor.

i've had enough.

i spend my life watching it go by from the sidelines.

end of the line.

we'll make love in your attic all night.

i'll see you when you get here.

it's already been done.

i'm all good out here.

take the noose off.

now that i met you, i finally know just where i'm headin'.

your mama calls me sometimes to see if i'm doing well.

it's just the way that you are.

i still call home that house in nebraska.

he'll scream and try to wash it off of his fingers.

you'd do wеll to say yes to me.

that's why i can never go back home.

you wanna love me right now?

don't worry 'bout me and these green eyes.

i do it for my daddy.

i thought that you were so beautiful.

it hurts to miss you.

i found photographs of our school, on the day we met.

jesus can always reject his father.

at least your truck beats walking.

another red heart taken by the american dream.

you and me against the world.

i feel so alone without you.

good luck taking care of yourself.

you wanna get alone with me?

i am poison in the water and unhappy.

i was too young to noticе.

for the first time since i was a child i could see a man who wasn't angry.

i cry every day, and the bottles make it worse.

i'm doing what i want

that's how my daddy raised me.

even the iron still fears the rot.

maybe it was his fault.

you can't hide from me forever.

you had to get out and go chasin' its sweet call.

in the corner, on my birthday, you watched me.

i'm all alone again.

you're all the same.

am i no good?

i'd hold the gun if you asked me to.

i thought good guys get to be happy.

i should have known that there's no getting in.

i am no good nor evil, simply i am.

i'm not happy.

why do i feel alone in this room with you?

i may never sleep at night.

i invited you in.

we finally reached the edge after all this time.

know that one day, you and i could be ok.

don't think about it too hard or you'll never sleep a wink at night again.

hide me there under the leaves.

the neighborhood keeps getting smaller.

you were the only one i was never scared to tell i hurt.

i just hope you're doing fine out there.

you left, and i cried.

you might never come back home.

i still feel like they all know.

you were my man and i your girl.

i haven't spoken to my daddy in a long, long time.

i said it was fun.

i didn't find my love, but i still made it this far without it.

these crosses all over my body remind me of who i used to be.

you know i'll be right there beside you.

i always knew that in the end no one was coming to save me.

you're so handsome.

i just wanted to be yours.

there is a better place for those who believe in the lord jesus christ.

just know that i love you.

run then, child.

please, can i sleep?

we all know how it goes.

but i think it's about time i put up a fight.

you know i raised you bеtter than this.

these dirt roads are empty, the ones we paved ourselves.

i was there in the dark when you spilled your first blood.

i'm never gonna leave you baby, even if you lose what's left of your mind.

you poor thing.

i'm still standing here.

he cannot escape his mother's blood.

can i be yours?

you wanna get my clothes off?

show me your face.

christ, forgive these bones i'm hiding from no one successfully.

i feel so alone.

baby, if it feels good then it can't be bad.

i didn't trust no one.

am i making you feel sick?

you know, i still wait at the edge of town.

how funny, i never considered myself tough.

i'm happier here 'cause he told me i should be.

make it stop.

i do what i want.

i hate this story where happiness ends and dies with you.

hey, do you wanna see thе west with me?

the fates already fucked me sideways.

the world was empty, save you and i.

if it's meant to be then it will be.

jesus, if you're listening let me handle my liquor.

god loves you, but not enough to save you.

when the preacher talks, that man demands his silence.

i'm just a child but i'm not above violence.

i just pray that you're all right.

he'll never escape what he's made up of.

daddy's left, and mama won't come home.

hold me across every state line.

it's all i know and it's all i want now.

sing it to me all day long.

he's in love with my body, that's why he's fucking it up.

then the day came and you were up and gone.

i'll take you anywhere.

found you just to tell you that i made it real far.

you wanna see me on my knees?

please don't look at me.

tell me, what have you done?

there's nothing you can do.

i just prayed and i keep praying and praying and praying.

i have come to take what is mine.

just give it one more day, then you'rе done.

i can see it in your eyes.

don't talk to strangers or you might fall in love.

i watched him show his love through shades of black and blue.

they say heaven hath no fury like a woman scorned.

you told me even if we died tonight, that i'd die yours.

you were my whole world.

i'm tired of you, still tied to me.

if they strike once then you just hit 'em twice as hard.

i met you there in texas somewhere on the thoroughfare.

show me how much i mean to you, while i'm lying in these sheets undressed.

all that's left are your walls and you'll die there.

just tell me i'm yours.

i don't want him to worry, always wondering if i'm alright.

let christ forgive these bones i've been hiding and the bones i'm about to leave.

i'm sorry if i seemed off, but i was probably wasted.

i can't let go when something's broken.

it's worse to know that i'm the reason you won't come home.

tell me a story about how it ends.

what i wouldn't give to be in church this sunday.

no one left to leave and no one left to love.

we had nothing except each other.

i put too much faith in the make-believe.

i am the face of love's rage.

if you hate me please don't tell me.

trouble's always gonna find you baby.

i'll come with you if you're sure it's what you need.

by seventeen, you knew you had to see it all.

the more it hurts, the less it shows.

i'd kill myself to hold you one more time.

the aching sound of silence used to be our favorite song.

god is telling you and i there is death, for all of us.

take me down to the river and bathe me clean.

i would show you something you can never have.

i followed you in and i was with you there.

it's been a long damn time since i left florida.

i've killed before and i'll kill again.

you wanna rip these clothes off?