louis trying to be the big spoon
#and do you ever think that louis just lies awake at night #and is just in awe of how muc h this boy has grown #he used to be able to completely protect him#completely shelter him in his arms #and now his toes barely brush the mattress when he throws his leg over harry’s hip #sometimes when harry’s head is under his chin #and he closes his eyes #he can pretend he’s small again
#and sometimes he thinks maybe he can force harry to be small again #so he squeezes his arm underneath him #and locks his hands #squeezing harder than he ever has #and harry just hums in appreciation and snuggles backwards #his shoulder blades encasing louis’ face like a eccentric picture frame #so maybe louis gives up on trying to make him small #or maybe he tries to distract himself by drawing pictures and messages along harry’s spine #or maybe he intertwines their legs #because if someone can’t tell where one of them starts and the other ends#then maybe he’ll never have to accept that they’ve changed at all
