Time Moves On

just a girl, trying to make it in the world.

[weloveshortvideos]

[smatter-deactivated20220909]

I can’t stop watching this

[revysprite-deactivated20170502]

I’m here for the big girl up front

[jjsinterlude]

YAAAAAAAASSSSS!!!!!!!

[whenyougetrightdowntoit-deactiv]

:sets audio as morning alarm:

[ameliastardust]

me when i leave my room for dinner

[alaskan-love-blog]

Finals week

I’ve heard people asking to buy Adderall and people thinking about start smoking weed because they are stressed out for this next week of finals😶😶

[dropdeadpill]

I’m sorry,” He spoke. “Sorry? Sorry doesn’t fix my broken heart. Sorry doesn’t give me all the days back that I wasted waiting for you to show up. Sorry doesn’t make me believe you cared. Sorry doesn’t mean anything. Sorry means you realize your mistakes, not that you’re going to make things better, that you’ll fix it. It doesn’t mean shit.

excerpt from a book I’ll never write // #14 (via dropdeadpill)

[dropdeadpill]

Don’t you understand? The one I loved the most is the one who finally destroyed me. I’m broken. And it’s all because of you.

excerpt from a book I’ll never write // #15 (via dropdeadpill)

[dropdeadpill]

Is it true?” She asked. “Yeah,” He replied. “Yeah it’s true.” She nodded her head. “Does she treat you better? Is she better than me?” He didn’t reply, but rather glanced away; refusing to meet her watery stare.She looked away, tears strolling down her cheeks and a frown etched on her lips. “Well, I’m really happy for you.

excerpt from a book I’ll never write // #12 (via dropdeadpill)

[society-destroyed-her]

[weird-secrets-xx-blog]

Worthless

That moment when the most precious person in your life tells you that she’s worthless makes you feel worthless as well; because I’m not there to comfort her or just hug her to make her feel that she’s the most beautiful person in my life, that I am happy because of her. I hate the distance, I’m hating myself because I’m not making her feel special.

[pleasedonthurtmeimbroken]

3 Jan 2016 00:19

I don’t want to cry. But I have to. It hurts to much to keep it inside. I want to be alone. I don’t want to talk to anyone ever again. I wish they would leave me alone. They just make things worse. The feeling of hopelessness and despair just keeps getting worse, but I don’t understand why. I’m doing everything that could make anybody happy. I’m going on vacation with a wonderful loving family, I’m about to celebrate my birthday with my caring friends and I have a person who would do anything in the world for me and I him. And so why does it just make me feel worse. Those moments of excitement and giddiness, of absolute ecstasy, are merely blips on a sea of overwhelming agony and worthlessness. Every time I’ve said “I’m fine” it was a lie. Every time I smiled it was to please others. I feel empty, like a shell that mimics others. But if I’m empty why does it hurt so much. Why does simply existing feel like someone is slowly slicing at my self esteem, at my self worth and joy. Why does it feel like I would be better off dead. I have no injuries on my body. And certainly none of the minor scrapes and cuts I have could cause such excruciation. Maybe this is what it feels like to die. I hope so, it means it will end soon. I’m not brave enough to end it myself, nor strong enough to overcome it, so maybe just enduring the pain is all I can do. I do not want to share what I am feeling with anyone. Especially no one I care about. My parents will wave it off as hormones, and so will many others. Those that do take me seriously will simply suffer with me. And I cannot let such a thing happen. Continuing to lie and say I am fine is perhaps the kindest of options for others.

[noonecareswhyeventry]

I don’t deserve to be happy. I should be grateful for what I have. It’s all my fault

[saddshitt]

My mom said, “why did such a worthless piece of shit have to be born to me”. I tried to kill myself 4 times that day

[hhyacintho-deactivated20160330]

There’s nights like tonight, where I feel completely worthless and completely tired, that I just can’t do anymore..anything.

[musicaddictt]

I'm unlovable

I’m the ugliest fattest and most fucked up female in the world. I keep crying out for help but I’ve pushed everyone away…

[makeup-is-shmexy-blog]

Wow My heart has just been broken I wanna die I’m so tired of being me I’m worthless

No one wants me here anyway

[increased-entropy-deactivated20]

i have reached a point where i no longer have good days. i either have bad days or days where i feel absolutely nothing. just numb. i am floating through my days, just going through the motions, not connecting to anything or with anyone. some days i float through and want to die. i am sad, going through the motions, wishing i was asleep, not connecting, feeling worthless.

im not happy anymore 

[feeling-worthless-sorry]

I cannot stop thinking about you, I did not want to go. Leaving with out knowing if I would ever see you again. Even though I know that you lied to me..

L.S (via feeling-worthless-sorry)

[speakingangel]

Sorry

I’m sorry I couldn’t be better I’m sorry that I let you down, I understand why you probably hate me, I hate me too. I hate that because I opened up I lost everything. I can’t do anything right anymore. 6 months later and I still cry because I miss you. Please, find someone better than me, I never deserved you, you were always better than me. I hope you are doing better than I am. I keep everything in bc I don’t want what I think to affect you and everyone else I love negatively. I met you 4 years ago, for me it was love at first site. I never wanted to give up, but I feel like I have. I know you hate it that I say sorry so much, but I feel like everything that goes wrong is my fault. Honestly I hope you never see this, I don’t want you to feel bad at all, I don’t want you to feel like this is your fault. You told me once that I helped you that year, I was there for you and nothing bad happened like it had in the past. I don’t want you to read this and feel those bad feelings. Yes I lied to you sometimes… That’s what I do though, I lie and I push everyone else away in hopes that no one gets hurt, and hurts the way I have. The day I found out that my mom snooped though my phone and you got in trouble, I ran out of the house and returned about 5 hours later. Not only did they loose my trust but they invaded our messages and your privacy. I never wanted to lose you. When you asked if I wanted to get back together I told you that my parents would never allow it… Well after that I went to the bathroom and cried. I knew that we would never be just friends, I loved you too much. I couldn’t just be friends with you. You meant too much to me. I’m so sorry that it took me this long to tell you all this. But I know you will never see this. I’m sure you graduating in 2 weeks will be a relief for you bc you won’t have to see me and feel regret. Sometimes I would think that you being out of school earlier would be easier for me bc I wouldn’t be tempted to hug you every time I saw you but now all I can think about is how much I will miss you. I’ll never see your smiling face in the hallway or hear that adorable laugh of yours when you are with our friends. I’m sorry that I was such a pain to be around, if I knew all the trouble that would happen while we were together, I would have never put you on that situation. Not only did I cause trouble for you, but I was also trouble for your family, and for that I can never be more sorry. I’m having a hard time moving on, o hope you have, bc it’s painful. Loving someone I shouldn’t, I never fought for us, I wish I had. I’m so very sorry.