This blog isn't what it used to be

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If I could put into words the craziness that has occurred and describe all the moving pieces chaotically coordinating together, I'd be a NY Times Best Seller

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I really be mad when my feelings betray me 🧠❤️🐈 all trying to do they own thing 😂😂😂

What happened to Unity!?

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Negas always resurfacing when I'm in a steady flow of focus.

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Eh.. I mean that but at the same time I don't - my heart and mind are not aligned ... my solution is to just go absent and go off the social media grid completely so there are no reminders of the past - no likes, no hashtags.

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Respectfully, 🖕🏾 you for trying to maintain relevance in my life

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I found an old notebook with song lyrics... just remembering the feelings I felt when writing them makes me emotional 🥺

[treygotguap]

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There are PLENTY of instructional life and self help books tho 😂... a lot of times we humans are prideful and we just wanna do what we wanna do until we are faced with consequences that push us to change. It's not good to judge because we all make mistakes but let's not act like we don't live in a world immersed with access to information lol

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I feel like my life be so boring

But I know I don't need distractions right now

I'm trying to eat healthy, get my skin luscious and glowing, get toned but still have jiggle where it counts, get my money up, get this final degree, and then we'll see what's next

I really think know I'm gonna be damn near unstoppable when all these goals start getting accomplished.

Spiritually, Mentally, and Financially Empowered 🙏🏾 🙌🏾

I'm claiming all the good things!

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👀 man this zodiac stuff is lies I tell you! LIES! 😂

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I had to accept a looong time ago that my views of love, sex, and relationships are not held by many people in my generation. It sucks! I've always felt solo dolo in the young adult phase of my life because I never believed in wasting time dating multiple people for years and years. I dont believe real love can be casual. I don't want temporary. I don't want easy. I don't want someone that agrees with me all the time. I don't want someone who gives in to my selfish desires. I dont want someone who wants me to give into theirs... but instead I want someone who wants to have healthy discourse for the sake of growth, who wants to do the hard work to build a healthy relationship so that our relationship can be a great example... Because many of us lack even good examples, many of us our repeating patterns of dysfunction or just making it up as we go, then wondering why we're miserable...

Smiling by day and crying by night... I see that all the time and I'm not about that life...

I want someone who takes time to know all the angles and depths of me - physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

Real love... It is so rare and that frustrates me

Too many people think love comes in all varieties

They settle for love in broken pieces, 💔 when they can have love in its entirety 💞

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When I go vacationing, there are days I go completely off the grid. I honestly could do that for the rest of my life... just focus on my loved ones and the good times, never scroll on social media or check the news... but there is always a pull for me to go out and help. I want to be isolated and shielded from any hurt or pain but I know I need to fulfill my purpose in helping people. It's not easy because this world is a dark place. People will continue to try to take advantage of me and not cherish the goodness... that's a tough reality to accept. But even with the hurt, pain, or any negativity I encounter in helping someone, there's always a reminder that what I do is worth it.

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The older I get the more my heart strings are just tugged and tugged. I just want people to be healed and happy 😭

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I have too much to do to not be busy but here I am on tumblr

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Told myself I wasn't gonna tweet those John Legend lyrics (again)... so far I haven't, almost did today but I didn't! I tweeted Dru Hill lyrics instead 😂

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Yes. Please.

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Anyone else feel betrayed by their emotions and logic at the same time because they are constantly feuding!?

Just me? Ok. Lol

Me telling me: "You're not supposed to feel this way... you literally need to get over it because you should be over it"

me telling Me: "You should validate your feelings and normalize that this is what people go through and it's okay"

Me telling me: "girl this is not normal, who takes this long to get over someone!?"

me telling Me: ". . ."

Logic Me for the win!

Rematch in a few hours

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Here's to overthinking and reminiscing