ramblin' around

dog knows

[summzdunn]

vibin' n thrivin'.

found a landing spot.

[summzdunn]

real tired of spending all my time around folks born with penises

[summzdunn]

kinda thought id be locked out of this account forever. i still don’t have a phone, but i got off fent and ive been doing decent mentally unmedicated for the first time in a long time. 6 months since i spent my 23rd birthday detoxing in a van at a weed farm in Oregon. 2 weeks of hell, -25 lbs and one hospital visit later,, i was raw af, but actually sober for the first time in years.

idk where exactly I was going with this,, but uh, im alive still, i ruined nearly all of my friendships (shoutout to toasty, you were honestly a big catalyst in realizing i was capable of doing better and helped me find the courage. hell, you drove me to the train station. thank you foever dude), and my dog is turning gray, my almost 5 year old baby, he’s well and as playful as ever.

[summzdunn]

maybe it's about time for my angsty dramatic return to tumblr.

[summzdunn]

i really don't know.

know what i was expecting,

know what i was thinking,

know what i was wanting,

know what i was afraid of,

or what the hell i was doing

[mordecai-the-psdit]

““Your dog is doing her best. She puts up with you and where you are in your training journey; work to give her the same benefit. If you find ways to focus on the process - where you have come from and where you are going - you will enjoy your dog a good deal more than if you focus on goals, some of which may not be realistic or attainable for your team at all. It’s not relevant what your friend’s dog is achieving; your friend does not have your dog, and your dog does not have her for a trainer. Your dog has you. You have him. And that’s just fine.””

—

Denise Fenzi ( So, you’re not the perfect trainer yet?  Still learning?  Then this quote is for you!  This one is from “Train the Dog”; (not released yet.)

)

Thank you!

(via coco-the-service-dog)

[summzdunn]

Forever grateful for the countless hours I've put into my relationship with my pup. The bond I have with him is probably the most fulfilling aspect of my life.

[summzdunn]

Proposing to her is probably the smartest thing I've done, besides adopting Morty.

My only love still going strong after nearly a decade, several suicide attempts and one OD this year alone. I hope my dumbass doesn't die before getting to her.

[summzdunn]

Also, here's a nude on main, yer welcome.

[summzdunn]

Proposing to her is probably the smartest thing I've done, besides adopting Morty.

My only love still going strong after nearly a decade, several suicide attempts and one OD this year alone. I hope my dumbass doesn't die before getting to her.

[summzdunn]

Well, I guess I've been dropped like a busted crack pipe. Can't say I didn't call it last week.

Somethin' a little funny tho, in the midst of one of my worst downward spirals, I got called hot.

I'm half blushin', half laughin', half wanna punch my ex in the face.

Yeah I know it adds up to 1.5, I'm a lil extra these days, you could say.

Whatever. Maybe shit'll pan out. Dog knows.

[summzdunn]

Do I write one big long generalized note, or write everyone their own individually?

I feel like writing everyone their own would take a long time, and I wouldn't get around to it before then.

Best bet is probably one generalized one, and some personals to the ones who mean a lot, like Remy, the Aunties, B & Ash, Peaches, & Steven.

[summzdunn]

I guess this is what I'm worth.

[summzdunn]

If I had told anyone the reasoning behind this spiral, would it have changed anything?

[summzdunn]

Wemp womp

[summzdunn]

Idk why I still have this thing.

Mostly the memories, I suppose.

[summzdunn]

5:41, 12/17/2019

Wires so tangled. It's always this time of year. Just gimme fuckin February already. Let me get the fuck out of this wasteland.

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Locked out of my sadposting account. It's a restless morning, with thoughts too loud. This year's been one. These remaining days harden my bones with boredom and unfulfilled desires.

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I wish I practiced my art more. Had more frequent company, less time spent indoors.

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Tomorrow, tomorrow,,

Procrastination is key in my self destruction these days.

[summzdunn]

It's been a while, space cowboy

[summzdunn]

Everything ends bloody