art is apotheosis

obsession is worship | 18+ | Ao3

[sunlitlemonade]

alright guys 8.9k of dick & jason smoking cigarettes & bickering is posted. fucking finally. going to hibernate now.

[faustique]

there's a special place in my heart for people who made an effort to be my friend regardless of how quiet or distant i can get at times

[fairycosmos]

your problem is you think if you communicate with clarity and earnestness that people will actually understand you

[yourtryhard]

[scrubbinn]

Please start that project you're thinking about. Post it anywhere you can. Let people see the art you can bring to the world. Please, I want to see it. Just type that first word. I believe in you!

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

It's always "stop harming yourself or we'll have to lock you up!!!" and never "what do you need to change to want to harm yourself less and how can we help you make some of these changes?" and that's why we're not getting anywhere

[suncaptor]

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[sunlitlemonade]

i don't think jason is reticent. i actually think while a bit reserved, he talks a lot. & no i don't like the autopsy scar, i believe it's absolute nonsense. no i don't like the white streak either [tho i don't really mind it much] & nor the redhead jason thing. no i don't think he hates touch, i think he's very starved of it & would cling very hard soon as anyone lets him. he maybe scared to initiate but he won't push you away; unless he's really really not in the mood for it. which. fair. & no i don't think he enjoys killing, he thinks of it as a necessary evil. it's a fundamentally flawed way to view justice but those are shaped due to his experiences [experiences being, brutally murdered as a child] same as bruce. & no i don't think he rushes headfirst like a bull seeing red whenever there's a target. he's emotional, not stupid. he strategises. he adapts. no i don't believe he relies on brute strength, he's a skilled combatant who knows how wield swords & knives & is a wonderful sharpshooter & has been trained to fight by the best, incorporating forms of martial arts. no i don't think he's a brickhouse or whatever. he is close to dick's build to copy him the way he did. he's lean, flexible, fast & sharp, with healthy muscle. no i don't think he swears every two words. i don't think jason as heavily scarred as he's usually depicted to be, i stick to the lazarus pit healing all his scars. he wears a helmet & has no reason to have facial scars other than for the one time bruce smashed it while beating the shit out of him that put him in bedrest for two months btw. for something he didnt do. no i don't like it when he's crass for no reason & no i don't think he is to be blamed for his death. i understand where certain traits that the fandom assign to him arise from but i cannot help but feel that we have veered into caricaturizing him with certain classist tones that also reek of victim blaming & its just. crazy how divorced the popular version of jason is from the real thing. & the thing is that-- the 'real' version of him can vary. i get that. but my god. i cannot be clearer abt what the problem here is

[sunlitlemonade]

one of the other reasons why i do not enjoy the juni ba adjacent portrayals of jason in the fandom with his dead eyes, white streak, autopsy scar deal is that. it comes off, to me, as trying to make trauma ornamental. little signposts to show the world that he was dead. whereas the horror of jason's story is that he was dead & the world moved on with no consequences & that he's screaming to be heard with no proof that he was once there & then dead other than his death certificate. bruce removed all traces of him. he wasn't even honoured like other fallen heroes. this isnt to say that all those hcs are inherently bad, i get that we want to make the blorbo look so specialcoolfunky but. to me, its a disservice to his character because he so clearly stands a representation of trauma that is invisible but must be heard. ppl can try to shut him up but he won't because just because they can't see it or try to erase it, doesnt mean it didnt happen.

[for pedantic purposes: yes im aware that the autopsy scar & white streak were popular wayyyy before juni ba's portrayal + iirc he only did the dead eyes & white streak thing while robles did the autopsy scar one right? i just wrote that for easiest way to evoke the image of the version of jason im trying to refer to]

[sunlitlemonade]

but isnt jason exactly the kind of guy to go on & tweet something like WHY DONT YOU LOVE ME & then never log in again?

[foxes-in-love]

[sunlitlemonade]

i find the way we refer to loving someone too much as 'spoiling' them so interesting. see? its all rotten & its all because you didnt know how to not love them

[parkchanwoohoo]

[curoopeez]

I don't want my cellphone to have AI I want it to have 3 days of battery time. I don't want my computer to have AI preinstalled I want it to have seven usb ports and high ram at affordable price. I don't want my games to have AI built levels I want them to be so optimized I could run them on a nokia.

[vampirezogar]

Anyone else fuck with individual songs? Who is the artist? I dunno. What album is it from? Shut up. What year was it released? *tim allen grunt* What's the title of the track? Fuck you. But it goes like this: *poorly memorized chorus*

I love that song. Do not ask me anything about it.

[patrickbatemanamericanpsycho]

When the group chat arguing and bro starts messaging you privately

[sunlitlemonade]

this is the kind of draft i wouldnt spit on. what the hell am i doing

[sunlitlemonade]

you know its bad when you struggle to finish a fucking drabble

[sunlitlemonade]

genuinely fucking hilarious i had to create a second draft for a drabble

[sunlitlemonade]

huh. will this even remain a drabble. question

[sunlitlemonade]

ok. i don car anymore..... i only know jayroy. jayroy nation wait for me. my braincells are Doing Something. a tad slowly but they are