heaven in your heart

minors dni. mature-er themes. crappy vent art blog why am I here, and what can I do to make it better? how can I do what is right? nez aka neminsdalemins, she/her, 20 "nezzypezzy"'s other account !

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outcasts only

18+ only also. mature themes

(religion, mental illness, also themes of isolation, inadequacy, disgust over myself, etc. emo tthingz and my art can be suggestive, have blood or even gore, and "unconventional" thoughts i have)

thsi is my (@nezzypezzy) account for vent art and like online journal stuff thats all

dni proship, zoo people, p*dos, right wingers. and others of similar categories

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omg everpony. omg guys i had the coolest dream ever. ever.

i think i was twilight??? im not sureee, or fluttershy it was never shown if i was anyone of the mane six at all? maybe i was like, applejack or even somehow me but a pony and i was somehow part of the mane 6?? but omg it was AWESOME

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basically it was a pony world but it was human style omg it was so sick and i guess we were messing witg time. i was like the main one lol i remember being in a zappy thing, like a ball of lightning with everyone then i said lets go to the 70s!!!!!!!! and somebody pressed a button and we went there.

but like, everything looked normal? i was lookinh at everything in our house (which was LITERALLY my previous house before moving in with my bf) and there were still things that i was like "did they have those in the 70s??"

anyway there were other people there sleeping in the living room so we ran out lol, it wasnt our house yet. we ran into the streets and things seemed ok? also i think it was only me and some kind of twilight/starlight-esque pony with me, everyone else was gone!

and that was important because i went to this area where they were LITERALLY constructing but it was like isolated and i was staying away. after literal seconds, everything around me was growing with construction, as if it was taking time for us to fully BE in the 70s? everything was a mix of all the decades between the 70s and current time, but everything was also slowly "becoming" the 70s, it was such a scary effect 😭

anyways eventually the entire neighborhood was under constuction,even our house, even when we saw it perfectly constructed earlier! i started to freak out lol.

i was trying to hide behind a big pile of plywood (probably intended to be used for our house that was literally standing before me earlier) to not be seen by the construction people but literally there was no where to go and i was stuck!

eventually some lady asked who i was and such. if i was at the school. i said no i graduated. then i got scared and left when she threatened me with contacting my parents and/or validating my identity.

i ran and kimd of bumped imto pinkie pie (????) as a teacher (????????) and i was like "omg pinkie im so glad i found you, we NEED to get out of here!" but she acted like we never met and that she always was a teacher in the 70s. but she was still her silly happy self so she didnt resist too much when i took her with me (and eventually the other pony i was with, i found her again too because i knew where she was)

we made a plan to find everypony else before we were stuck there!!! so we got in a lil 70s pony car (somehow lol) and drove around frantically. i was scanning EVERYWHERE and as i did, things became more unfamiliar. one thing i remember the most was that stop signs became pink? was that an actual thing in the 70s, i really hope lol?? and school uniforms, hairstyles and buildings were looking very well, 70s.

eventually we were fully cemented in the 70s and i was SCARED. everything, even pencils looked old and weird lol and i saw posters with celestia amd luna and they had funny hairstyles and stuff it was all so interesting but i was so scared lol.

anyway one of the last things i remember was spotting rarity and i was like "I FOUND HER I FOUND RARITY" but we were alreasy ahead and the driver was waiting to do a u turn but the road wasnt allowing or something? like it had cement in the middle of the road then i saw rainbowdash and freaked out too but we couldnt get her either...

then i started to see sweetiebell, berry punch i think thats her name, and all kinds of other bg ponies but 70s lol it was cool, they were wearing cute 70s clothes. then before the starlight driver pony did a u turn everything was engulfed in a white light then i woke up lol so i guess i just left everyone 😭

it was SO intense and real even like, the air felt fresher, more 70s !!! and i really want to draw what i saw and just concepts in general inspired by it !!!!! i think i forgot big events that happened so if i remember them again ill reblog with what i forgot!!!! probably unticlimatic but you had to experience it, it was so REAL. SO REAL. i loved being a scared lil pony thing in the 70s because i was too stupid to understand the implications of travelling to another time!!!!

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also i like how we made an agreement to NOT talk to anyone under any cercumstances but i do anyway lol

i was also in my head like "do NOT show them your cool alien future phone or tell them about your cool alien guture phone do NOT" i really wanted to freak someone outttt

[sunshineandgasoline]

omg everpony. omg guys i had the coolest dream ever. ever.

i think i was twilight??? im not sureee, or fluttershy it was never shown if i was anyone of the mane six at all? maybe i was like, applejack or even somehow me but a pony and i was somehow part of the mane 6?? but omg it was AWESOME

⬇️

basically it was a pony world but it was human style omg it was so sick and i guess we were messing witg time. i was like the main one lol i remember being in a zappy thing, like a ball of lightning with everyone then i said lets go to the 70s!!!!!!!! and somebody pressed a button and we went there after agreeing to NEVER speak to anyone from the 70s OR interact.

but like, everything looked normal? i was lookinh at everything in our house (which was LITERALLY my previous house before moving in with my bf) and there were still things that i was like "did they have those in the 70s??"

anyway there were other people there sleeping in the living room so we ran out lol, it wasnt our house yet. we ran into the streets and things seemed ok? also i think it was only me and some kind of twilight/starlight-esque pony with me, everyone else was gone!

and that was important because i went to this area where they were LITERALLY constructing but it was like isolated and i was staying away. after literal seconds, everything around me was growing with construction, as if it was taking time for us to fully BE in the 70s? everything was a mix of all the decades between the 70s and current time, but everything was also slowly "becoming" the 70s, it was such a scary effect 😭

anyways eventually the entire neighborhood was under constuction,even our house, even when we saw it perfectly constructed earlier! i started to freak out lol.

i was trying to hide behind a big pile of plywood (probably intended to be used for our house that was literally standing before me earlier) to not be seen by the construction people but literally there was no where to go and i was stuck!

eventually some lady asked who i was and such. if i was at the school. i said no i graduated. then i got scared and left when she threatened me with contacting my parents and/or validating my identity.

i ran and kimd of bumped imto pinkie pie (????) as a teacher (????????) and i was like "omg pinkie im so glad i found you, we NEED to get out of here!" but she acted like we never met and that she always was a teacher in the 70s. but she was still her silly happy self so she didnt resist too much when i took her with me (and eventually the other pony i was with, i found her again too because i knew where she was)

we made a plan to find everypony else before we were stuck there!!! so we got in a lil 70s pony car (somehow lol) and drove around frantically. i was scanning EVERYWHERE and as i did, things became more unfamiliar. one thing i remember the most was that stop signs became pink? was that an actual thing in the 70s, i really hope lol?? and school uniforms, hairstyles and buildings were looking very well, 70s.

eventually we were fully cemented in the 70s and i was SCARED. everything, even pencils looked old and weird lol and i saw posters with celestia amd luna and they had funny hairstyles and stuff it was all so interesting but i was so scared lol.

anyway one of the last things i remember was spotting rarity and i was like "I FOUND HER I FOUND RARITY" but we were alreasy ahead and the driver was waiting to do a u turn but the road wasnt allowing or something? like it had cement in the middle of the road then i saw rainbowdash and freaked out too but we couldnt get her either...

then i started to see sweetiebell, berry punch i think thats her name, and all kinds of other bg ponies but 70s lol it was cool, they were wearing cute 70s clothes. then before the starlight driver pony did a u turn everything was engulfed in a white light then i woke up lol so i guess i just left everyone 😭

it was SO intense and real even like, the air felt fresher, more 70s !!! and i really want to draw what i saw and just concepts in general inspired by it !!!!! i think i forgot big events that happened so if i remember them again ill reblog with what i forgot!!!! probably unticlimatic but you had to experience it, it was so REAL. SO REAL. i loved being a scared lil pony thing in the 70s because i was too stupid to understand the implications of travelling to another time!!!!

[sunshineandgasoline]

omg found a long lost artist whos art i loved so long that i thought i made their ecistance uppp i just found them follow them!!!!

i wonder why... i have no idea i domt kmow why i like their art really its a mystery

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i really want to join those lookmaxxing discord communities as a girl SIMPLY to spread long hair guy propaganda what do you guys think

"all you guys need- im a girl so trust me- is to grow your hair out, the girlier and prettier and longer the better. youll get all the girls like that they love it. bonus if youre bony"

also hunter eyes are so silly to me lol sleepy eyes are SO CUTE.

[sunshineandgasoline]

I LOVE spreading love hair guy propaganda omg

[sunshineandgasoline]

i really want to join those lookmaxxing discord communities as a girl SIMPLY to spread long hair guy propaganda what do you guys think

"all you guys need- im a girl so trust me- is to grow your hair out, the girlier and prettier and longer the better. youll get all the girls like that they love it. bonus if youre bony"

also hunter eyes are so silly to me lol sleepy eyes are SO CUTE.

[worthless-mess]

[sunshineandgasoline]

hey i think im dumb i literally only see the good in everything it like probably does more harm than good , and like i follow people for their cute/cool/weird art styles never knowing theyre proship or whatever like, JUST SAY you are weird man. why hide with these weird little emojis and codes. just say it lol especially for me, like i need stuff spelled out to me or else ill have no idea ok.

also the whole zoos having the tattoo idea of pawprints on the hip is crazy. its such a cute idea and of course they had to take it lol i dont know man it sucks

[sunshineandgasoline]

also like i dont know every para but they seem OK. like im chill with them as long as they arent those weird ones having to do with kids, animals or lack of consent. thats obviously agregious. as far as i know they just seem like weirdo stuff for weirdos BESIDES those

if theres a para for male long hair sign me up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!

also if you think fiction doesnt affect reality um yea never interact with me :) ok thank you

[sunshineandgasoline]

hey i think im dumb i literally only see the good in everything it like probably does more harm than good , and like i follow people for their cute/cool/weird art styles never knowing theyre proship or whatever like, JUST SAY you are weird man. why hide with these weird little emojis and codes. just say it lol especially for me, like i need stuff spelled out to me or else ill have no idea ok.

also the whole zoos having the tattoo idea of pawprints on the hip is crazy. its such a cute idea and of course they had to take it lol i dont know man it sucks

[sunshineandgasoline]

lol me

[sunshineandgasoline]

probably by far the most accurate drawing of my sona ever i am hard to draw

i dont quite know why its taken so long to draw her accurately. this is quite literally as i imagine my sona pretty much ... i did it

[sunshineandgasoline]

rainboow dash doodle !!!! i want to worj on expressions and cartoony surrealism and stuff

[sunshineandgasoline]

not my oc its fanar

for someone on toyhouse

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this isnr ship art or romantic or whatever thatd be crazy i just wanted to draw my fursona as a boy (on the left) and meeting the girl veriosn version (right )

cool,

(hidden for artistic nudity)

[sunshineandgasoline]

new sona ? i guess i want to practice drawing furries more

[taniyry]

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[sunshineandgasoline]

omgg

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creep loser