This is not exactly a new WIP or anything it's a drabble I wrote before, I was reviewing it and touching it up and despite my previous thoughts about it I actually liked it? So yea here it is
Also I'm not sure but I think I wrote it as a part of a prompt? There was this one sentence prompt list that had many entries and this drabble is from a prompt of them if my memories are right
Don't really remember much else but hey it was fun to revisit this drabble after so long it's not completely writing but it's still kind of writing so it's progress i hope 😅
Fruitless wish
How many times have you thought of this?
This moment when everything seemed still, when you were all that you knew, when she was all you knew.
That moment ended ages ago, it was fruitless.
You couldn't make it last.
You couldn't take it, you weren't good enough for it.
But,
It made you who you are, at this moment in this time.
It was always you, in this nostalgic moment, and this current moment.
It was always you, just a little different you.
If that moment happened again, at this time, in this second, with the current you.
How would it go? Would it work? Would it be the same?
Well
It doesn't matter to you anymore does it?
Be it past you or now you, she never saw you.
It was you, but you weren't what she looked at.
Truthfully, nobody really looked at you, you were you, but no one really saw that.
The only one who truly saw you, was you all along.
What you wanted more than anything, wasn't others love or care
It was yours
Because you saw your flaws more than anyone
Because you saw your love more than anyone
Because you truly saw yourself, you simply wanted to change.
You didn't know how, didn't know where, didn't know why.
At one point all you saw was your flaws,
And so you ran away.
To her, to them, to anything and everything, never to look back.
Never to look back, forever if you had to.
You kept closing your eyes to your own reflection.
It never helped you after all! Didn't everything and everyone also close their eyes to you?
Why should it matter if you join them as well?! Right!
..right?
But
Was it really right?
No matter if it's her or them or anything and anyone.
Or even you.
If all the world saw you
Would you look back then? At you?
But if that's the case, more than anyone or anything,
The one who should look most of all those.
It's you isn't it?
It can only be you
Because it's you after all
I can't do that for you, I can't okay? It's not my reflection after all.
The only one who truly cares what becomes of you, enough to affect the present.
Ultimately, it's only, you.
And I can only love you, I can't change you, I can't twist you either, and I would not want to, even if I could.
The more I love you, the more I notice you know?
That's why, I know.
That no matter how long it's been.
No matter how much you change.
No matter who you meet,
You will always remain in that moment, with her.
Despite it's outcome, despite it's fruitlessness.
No matter how you change, even if you don't.
You will still be there, remembering her.
It really breaks me you know?
But, it's you, it's always been you.
But to that you.
It's always been her.
I hope that someday
You may see yourself, not just her.
Because ultimately, the one who judges you the most.
Is you.
…Goodbye for now, I know it's my own selfishness…but I hope things are a little different, the next time we meet
I'm supercimi i write fictional stories and drabbles, and i have more wips than i can count.
i'm often busy so my online time is ever dwindling, but! one thing i can't quit despite all the responsibilities and stress is writing.
Although i'm not very good at it, and im really not consistent with it, i still love it a lot, and i always come back to it one way or another.
Despite all my worries, i decided to keep writing.
I will keep writing, even if its inconsistent, even if its slow.
As such, this is my writing side blog.
Everything and anything i will post here will be written by me, be it digitally or traditionally
i tend to be horribly disorganized when it comes to anything related to planning so i can't promise this will be the tidiest blog you see,
but. i will keep trying to organize it as much as i can because i don't want my stories to keep being lost in the great sea of my main blog.
There's still many things to fix and touch up before i post any new writing, but all of my old writing will eventually be moved here, and also listed in someway for ease of access.
*to be continued
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