The Life Of Jenny

Hi I'm Jenny. I've been offending people since 1988.

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ugh this girl I made out with like a month ago won’t stop liking/reblogging every post.

I mention wanting to get married by a waterfall and she posts photos of waterfalls

I say I want bacon she posts photos of bacon

tell her to stoppppppp

I met her like a year ago and we couldn’t even stand each other. I don’t know what it is about her but she drives me up the wall.

Don’t even know why we made out it just kind of happened and I honestly thought she was straight and now I think she’s gay and maybe likes me a little but I’m not sure but like it’s weird and I want her to stop.

On that note I need sleep.

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okay I thought I was bad at texting but she literally takes hours to reply to a text which normally I like but when it’s on my terms.

She doesn’t even flirt with me and I feel weird saying anything flirty to her.

I’m just in a needy mood and I want her to pay attention to me. 

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Just remember that she is not the only girl in the world!

I know that but sometimes I think I’m too picky and I need to be more logical. 

Like flat out I’m attracted to assholes and people that treat me like shit because I am fully aware I want what I can’t have. 

So basically It’s a lose lose situation for me.

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“There’s a difference between loving the idea of someone and actually loving who they really are.” This quote goes well with your situation! In all honestly, have sex with her because if you do find her attractive than just go for it. Also,maybe you will develop stronger feelings about her afterwards or maybe not. I actually feel like having sex with her will kinda show you how you feel about her.

I think so too.

Maybe I’m just agreeing because the idea of having sex sounds wonderful right now. 

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I would let her know how you are feeling, for the reason that she is a really nice girl and you don't want to hurt her, at least that way she could know what's going on with you before she gets emotionally involved.

No I think it’s weird to be that upfront and to be like “Hey like I wouldn’t mind having sex with you but I’m not to sure how I feel about a commitment”

It’s just like too early to tell. We’ve only hung out once and we’ve talked for like a week and when I say talked I mean like we’ve exchanged 2 texts a day.

I think she’s a reasonable girl probably one of the things that attracts me to her is she’s an adult, like not just in age but she’s really smart and can handle her emotions or so I think. 

But there’s nothing that annoys me more than having serious talks this early in it all. I mean if we have hung out a few times and it’s apparent that she likes me through out it and I realize I don’t like her then maybe it’s time to have a talk. 

But I think I personally would be annoyed if I liked someone and they weren’t overly into to lay it out for me and for them to tell me they weren’t sure how they felt. I’d honestly think that it was too soon for them to have a serious talk with me.

And maybe I’m not one to have serious talks to be honest. I’m more of a playful kind of person and I don’t like to start any relationship even as far as a friendship that serious.

It’s more just a dilemma with myself in figuring out if I even like her but she doesn’t need to be involved communication wise in figuring that out. 

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Okay maybe I like new girl a little.

I don’t know.

She’s sleeping over too when she comes.

She’s just too nice and I don’t want to hurt her.

But like some of the things she does is so cute like she’s such a girl in such a cute genuine way. 

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The amount of times I had to hold my tongue from blasting how shitty my ex is was so frustrating. 

I’m completely over it but at the same time I don’t know how I dealt with it for as long as I did.

The whole this was just so ridiculously messed up.

It’s like you have to be a pretty fucked up person to do all the things you did while in a relationship with me.

Actually you are so fucking stupid. I’m not your friend so please stop texting me. I said I was fine being friends but to be perfectly honest now that I have no feelings attached to you I realize how fucking shitty you were.

You are the most manipulative person and I hope for anyones sake you stay single for a very long time till you grow the fuck up.

You still think you’re all high and mighty and superior to all but you’re actually a nobody. You have no fucking clue who you are and you literally put everyone down around you. 

I’m normally very forgiving and I’ve dealt with a lot of shitty things but you by far were the biggest waste of my life.

If I could take back our whole relationship I would. I would literally walk in the opposite direction the night I met you. 

The fact that you’ve tried coming back to me every time I left and I’ve gotten back together with you makes me so stupid.

But seriously get out of my life. I have no interest in knowing you. You’re annoying.

All the things I wish I could say because I absolutely mean every word of it. And I know it’s hard but I really fucking mean it.

There are so many things that happened and I wanted to just scream at the top of my lungs in all my frustration but I just kept quiet. 

I was a stupid girl. 

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It’s official, I’ll be seeing her Saturday. 

At least there is a good chance I’ll be getting laid.

I don’t even care anymore about feelings involved I’m over stressing about it. 

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She just texted me saying she’s going to be in my city Saturday and wants to hang out.

Ughhhghfgggg alfjdkaldjs

I just need time. I don’t know why she’s coming anyway I feel like she’ll come out just to be with me and I don’t know how I feel about that.

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Honestly, I think you should go for it. I know it's scary that there's this nice, beautiful person in front of you that's making you feel different , a good different, but you deserve too have someone who will be there for you. For crying out loud she drove over three hours just to hang out with you and it was the first time you guys hung out! I wish the best for you and whatever you choose.

Sometimes I think someone needs to give you butterflies and she doesn’t

So it’s like it logically makes sense but feelings wise is different.

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You're definitely into her, there is some attraction there between the two of you. Sit down alone and really think about it, do you see yourself in a relationship with her? If your guard is up make it clear to her that you're into her but that you're afraid of opening up. Just tell her how you feel because if she's into you and you don't tell her and you make it seem as if you're not interested she might back away and if you do want to start something with her communication and honesty is the be

I’m not overly sure I am into her though. I think I might just like the idea of her and the fact that’s it’s different. But to be honest she’s not overly my type and I don’t want to force anything.

[thepersonalthingss]

Have you talked to her since she left?

Yeah, we’ve been texting. It was weird though when she left yesterday she texted me “I wish I had the guts” and I said “the guts for what” and she ignored that and talked about something else.

But we don’t text much and haven’t in general. I’m not much of a texter to be honest and neither is she.

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Why don't you just tell her you're unsure of your feelings at the moment and you don't want to feel like you're leading her on? I feel that not telling her would be leading her on, you know? Sorry if I sound like an asshat :$

You don’t It’s just that it’s not like she’s bringing it up. Plus I’m still undecided. 

I am an ass because I want to figure out my feelings first. 

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Okay so I’ll start with this weekend. I started talking to this girl and we really get along. We have mutual friends and I ended up being forward and asking her to hang out. Anyway she drove 3 and a half hours just to see me this weekend.

She was a lot different than I expected her to be. You know when you talk to someone and all you’ve seen are pictures and you add some random personality to them. That’s what I did. 

Anyway I was super nervous and I already said she could stay the night, I mean she did travel a long way.

It was a little awkward at first like most first time encounters with someone you’ve only talked to online.  However she is really beautiful. I just pictured her to be more sassy or something. I don’t know what I was expecting. 

We hadn’t really flirted over messages or anything but I mean we with knew we weren’t hanging out to see if we’d be good friends. So anyway we had a good day and got to meet krewella and we carved pumpkins and it was all good. This is just the first time where I’m undecided to wether or not I like someone.

She’s just so fucking nice and I expected her to be kind of well…bad ass if I could explain it. But I didn’t mind at all that she was super genuine and nice because I mean that’s a normal thing to like. 

So it came to the end of the night and we were watching scary movies and I wasn’t sure if she liked me or anything but I made a move regardless and held her hand (I know super elementary) I just didn’t want to make too bold of a move if she wasn’t into it.

Anyway we didn’t kiss or anything she just fell asleep beside me. 

The next day she was super into me and it was kind of nice she was taking more initiative. But the I was just so conflicted if I even liked her and I didn’t want to lead her on. You could tell she really wanted to kiss me but I just like completely shut down and almost became an asshole which I really regret. Like I wasn’t mean or anything I just kind of shut off. And you could tell she didn’t want to leave but I hinted that she should. 

It wasn’t that I didn’t like her I just needed  to figure my shit out. And now that she’s gone I just want to kiss her.

I just usually want someone when they don’t want me and as soon as I find out they do I back off.

I feel like I’ve just messed up from past relationship and the fact that she’s nice is scaring me. Like she’d be the type of girl to wait on me and to be there for me with no question that she’ll be faithful and wonderful. 

And that’s a weird concept for me. It’s something I’ve never had and it’s really appealing in a sense.

[superpersonalthings-blog]

omg 700 people still follow this blog

welcome to my new personal blog I guess from when no one followed me

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New Blog

here

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Dear People! Do NOT follow this blog.

www.jennyunplugged.tumblr.com is my new blog.

Ok cool. So I no one is going to follow this blog right?

Because every time I check I get new followers.