ellie

she | 15 | trying to be better

[superstitionangel]

hey :3

im ellie! my pronouns are she/her and im 15. im joining studyblr because i really need to improve not just for myself but for my future.

my (chosen) classes:

forensic science, acting, french 2, college american history, public services, current events (history), and creative writing

i dont have any hobbies off my phone but i'm working on learning more stuff to do. i hope you guys like my blog :3

[csuitebitches]

Start planning 2025

Make a list of all the emotions you want to feel at the end of 2025.

Now work backwards and write down all the tasks you need to do in order to feel that way.

Make a separate list of all the “gaps” - what do you currently not have in order to do those tasks to make you feel the way you want?

And lastly, write down how you can fill those gaps. Do you need a gym membership to become fit to feel good about your yourself? Do you need to learn how to cook better meals in order to feel healthy and energised? Do you need to start applying to jobs, in order to secure one, in order to feel financially safe? Do you need to buy an old school alarm clock that’s going to wake up your entire apartment building in order to wake up early? what do you need to DO?

also, make a list of all the things that worked out for you in 2024. Learn to celebrate and appreciate, even the smallest of wins.

For the next two months start the trial and error process of this program. Let’s say you decide that you want to work out 7 days a week in order to feel good about your body. Now halfway through November you realise that 7 days is probably too much, and 5 days would be better for your schedule. Or you decide to read 3 books a week, but realistically, maybe a chapter a day is better.

November and December are your trial months. By the time January starts, be ready with a program that is built for you, works for you, and can be completed by you.

Don’t forget about keeping a reward mechanism. If you complete your daily tasks for 1 month straight, buy that little purse you were eyeing, or take yourself to a spa. Reward yourself in ways you like so that :

a) you’re not in an endless cycle of never being satisfied

b) you don’t drop everything for a man or a friend who shows you the slightest bit of affection because you won’t show it to yourself

c) it encourages you to work harder for yourself.

[manifestingdiana]

how to level up during the winter arc

winter arc ; oct to jan

1. build a strong routine - examples: wake up immediately and journal, don't scroll in the morning, meditate, drink 1 glass of water

2. create realistic goals - be more practical. when we set big goals and they don't happen we brush them off and say 'i'll just do it next week' hence delaying action

3. visualize - visualize how the highest person of yourself looks like

4. be consistent - wake up at the same time, be consistent, and don't scroll when you wake up, just take action everyday ! things don't just happen overnight

5. habit stacking - habit stacking follows a simple formula of "when i do [current habit], i will do [new habit]." for example: "when i drink my coffee in the morning, i will listen to an educational podcast."

6. use habit trackers/to-do lists

7. don't give up when your day isn't perfect - be flexible and understand that not everything has to be checked off, life happens

8. don't go through hardcore restrictions - since it's festival season, there are chances that you might not be able tick off some habits but that's okay !

9. listen to your body - do what you feel is best for you, don't beat yourself up if you aren't able to do something

let go of the feelings you've had in the past year, "i wish i did this" blah blah. don't beat yourself over it. just move forward. why keep waiting for tomorrow when you can start today? show up for yourself. why do i want to achieve this goal? it has to be for you.

just. start. now.

[johnny-depp-is-loved]

Please, spread this for those who might need it right now

U.S. suicide hotline: call or text 988 (available 24 hours)

U.S. trans lifeline: [phone] (when you call, you’ll speak to a trans/nonbinary peer operator. full anonymity and confidentiality)

Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357) – provides 24/7 confidential support and referrals for individuals and families facing mental health and substance use disorders, including panic attacks and anxiety.

LGBT National Help Center: [phone]

Trevor Project: Call [phone], text START to 678-678, or chat online.

Take care of yourself and each other. Please stay safe ♡

[superstitionangel]

I GOT AN 11/20 ON MY MATH QUIZ AAAAAH. well at least my hair looks good

[superstitionangel]

havent been posting bc physical therapy is kicking my ASSSSSS and so is school but uhm. I'm like. failing everything. and have no idea how to get it up erm

[mostautisticangel-deactivated20]

we dont queue posts here you will know im online because a sudden wave of posts i reblogged will flood your dash and then i dissapear for 6 hours

[wonderstruck]

If you see this you’re legally obligated to reblog and tag with the book you’re currently reading

[superstitionangel]

goin to school!! i get to go home at 1230 cuz I got physical therapy ... pray for me.

[kelpology]

being disabled will really have you thinking/saying things like “yeah i’m not really THAT disabled. as long as i take my meds twice a day (and as needed), eat and drink exactly the right things, keep the perfect balance of being active and resting, the weather is stable, and nothing unexpected happens AT ALL… i’m totally FINE! i probably should not even call myself disabled at this point because i’m doing so well!”

if you don’t want to call yourself disabled, that’s fine and it is your choice! but if you’re only “fine” or “doing really well” when a bunch of different variables are all lined up perfectly, then maybe you are not fine actually. just a thought!

[thoughtkick]

“Allow yourself to hope and believe again. Don’t allow the memories from the past to spoil the present, or to rob you of a future.”

— Unknown

[superstitionangel]

ngl i kinda hate my English teacher

NOW DONT GET ME WRONG!!! i love english. ive been writing stories since before i could define what fiction was. i love reading, too, most of my time that isnt taken up by my social media addiction is spent reading.

which is why im so upset about this

i am 100% sure my english teacher put my writing through an ai tool to find what was wrong with it. why do i say this? oh, i dont know, probably because after i read her comment on my Google doc i put it through the grammerly ai assistant and asked what i could improve on - which, usually, would have affirmed to me that those parts of my story actually needed work.

if my story wasn't a single page long, and everything she (and the grammerly ai) had suggested i added either was obviously unnecessary details that would have torn readers away from the story, or something I'd literally. Already done.

"describe the fire crackling more! like its dancing!" why? this is a horror story set in a graveyard and your reading the first 5 minutes of the story. we have 4 more hours for the characters to suffer through. the fire was a small detail - all it did was added a cozier atmosphere to the beginning of the story so the change later was more abrupt, like i want it to be.

"describe the forest!" this is a horror story based in a graveyard... i added one sentence about gathering wood in the woods along the fences to highlight how isolated and difficult to escape the graveyard is, which matters later. the color of the wood and the wind shaking the leaves doesn't matter. the characters can't see it, and this part of the story is very focused on one specific part; the characters setting up for a cozy night reading ghost stories around a campfire together.

"develop the relationships between the characters more!" in the first page? the first 300 words? ive already given many hints to their relationships with eachother, such as the main character and another character being clearly familiar enough with eachother for the other character to poke fun at his choice in ghost stories. two of the characters are sitting directly next to eachother, and everything they've done so far has been with eachother. not to mention... it's the first page.

the first page! I'm not going to be adding unnecessary details to the first page! i am not going to overload the readers with information like that because, honestly, this part barely matters! it's later that the scenery is important, it's later when the relationships shine, its later when the horror and isolation develops. not the first, muthafuckin, PAGE!

sorry I'm just so annoyed. so many of the things she said I needed to add were in the story, if she'd just... read it. literally all she has to do to see some of the things she's complaining about it read the words I've written out for her and REMEMBER that not only is this the first draft ever, but also, ive been sick and unable to work or write, and....... ITS 300 WORDS SO FAR!

auuuugh. please no advice because im, like, so not up for advice or criticism right now. it'd be more obvious how silly this situation is if I shared the writing, but it's just so short it feels like a waste of time to share it. i'll share it when it's closer to done if anyone wants, im just.. so tired of teachers zapping my creativity by constantly commenting on my work, when it's so obviously clear that I'm still working on it and it needs time to flourish.

[superstitionangel]

on my way to school!!!

[superstitionangel]

all dressed! now I get to sit around for a while before we leave for school !! yippee!!

[nataliazanza]

You will be too raw for some.

You will be too loud, too tall, too shiny, too fierce, too smart, too “attention seeker”, too deep, too everything.

Those are not your people.

[superstitionangel]

lifes really hard and stressful right now, but i got up, brushed my hair, and did my eyebrows and now im taking a small tumblr break while i drink coffee before i get dressed. feeling better than i have in a long time, though all i wanna do right now is sleep

[nenelonomh-deactivated20250906]

important qualities for students

fostering certain qualities can greatly enhance your success as a student. here are some important ones:

curiosity: a natural desire to learn and understand more about the world around you.

time management: the ability to organize and plan your time effectively to balance studies, activities, and rest.

critical thinking: the skill to analyze information, question assumptions, and solve problems logically.

empathy: understanding and sharing the feelings of others, which can improve teamwork and communication.

motivation: the drive to achieve your goals and persist through challenges.

creativity: thinking outside the box to come up with innovative ideas and solutions.

persistence: the determination to keep going, even when things get tough.

integrity: being honest and having strong moral principles.

organization: keeping your materials and tasks in order to stay on top of your responsibilities.

effective communication: clearly expressing your ideas and listening to others.

do any of these qualities resonate with you or seem particularly important for your personal growth?

❤️ nene